how wonderful
would it be
to be able to skin myself alive
to drop the weary leather that holds my bones together
and miss a few days, months
years
in the span of a night
Feb 26, 2021
Feb 26, 2021 at 6:26 PM UTC
i hate this
tumult of emotion
this primordial cordial of something and maybe and
never and could be.
it is dark
chocolate
bittersweet and sour as it pools on my tongue and slithers down down into my throat and lodges there
solidified into a churning mass of
it will never be the same and regret and guilty
relief.
A single loss of
gilt jewel
and a single loose word spilled
from a mouth and
a cog is thrown
out of orbit and into
the dissonance that it has caused.
a decision made
logically but painfully
with a wound that thuds slowly, knock knock knock
against my chest
not acute, no
more like
a bruise
a reminder that i am not as
mournful as i
should be
and that change, that hated, cursed change,
has occurred.
May 11, 2020
May 11, 2020 at 7:02 AM UTC
The summer rains
Bring nothing to me
but a content
melancholy.
I sit and gaze
Upon them, unfazed
and wonder what to think.
Aug 1, 2019
Aug 1, 2019 at 6:21 AM UTC
Today it rains
Just like yesterday and
I can't hear the rainfall
Through the closed windows
But I'll gaze through them
and wonder what
the fog might feel like
as it ghosts through my fingertips.
Aug 1, 2019
Aug 1, 2019 at 6:18 AM UTC
i have an exit plan.
hush
it's for emergencies only
I'll never use it
who knows?
but I'll keep it there
gently now-
a building shy of too short
a secret resting low in my pocket
a couple of pastilles bright
in the palm of my too-steady hand
the departure may be too sudden-
barely a breeze and a sigh before I leave-
but I rest assured that my mind's ensured
by the choice
the exit
my desired desire path
for if it's ever just too much
and tired becomes too weary to smile
i know I'll have the choice
to take a little time
and sit in front of my exit for a while
i don't think anybody sees it in my eyes
it's probably why all those others will cry
but I'll be safe and sound-
Yes, but it all comes 'round!
and im not that selfish of a guy
so I'll cradle my exit to my chest
ill grit my well worn teeth and do my best
ill struggle through
and ill trudge through the rest
and ill smile, smile, smile, and laugh
with hateful pleasantries and pleasant hate
a bright new day to exacerbate
the itch of joy and the soreness of pain
and once in a while
the heavy rain
and when my fingers slip
from the weight of it all
I'll keep smiling
I'll keep laughing
I know that there's an exit,
after all.
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 1:19 PM UTC
dull treacle melting against the pavement
cicadas hissing in the heat
an occasional breeze is a ragtag flag
fluttering before going still
syrup sitting warm and heavy on your tongue
soda fizzing flat and falling sharp
a sour note to end
a miserable heat to begin the day
hot humidity pressing down
wind humming in protest
sweat dripping slick and tacky
eyes slipping slowly closed
until
the heat
ends
Jan 20, 2018
Jan 20, 2018 at 8:33 AM UTC
my words are stuck
in a box
my thoughts, my ideas, squared up
neatly into rectangles and angular shapes
trapped and docile
i
want
to
break
out
of this box
let
me
out
let my ideas flow and my mind run wild
let them gallop and scream and cry and laugh
so my thoughts will never stop
break me free from the monotony
of these cardboard wings
these steel appendages
these binding safety bars
let me OUT of this box
please
Jan 13, 2018
Jan 13, 2018 at 11:38 AM UTC
blooming
like wet ink
across the sheets-
it spread
like a sigh:
slowly
May 8, 2017
May 8, 2017 at 9:08 AM UTC
These words; they
tumble down into
strings and strings of spaghetti
and loop over here and there
They run around
and run amok
and
I see them everywhere
Apr 29, 2017
Apr 29, 2017 at 3:42 AM UTC