I am so tired
tired of waiting
tired of trying
tired of staying awake
staying concius
staying alive.
Waking up
going to bed
both eaqually hard.
The day in between may come and go
emotional storm
tears and laugher.
Life is all well and good.
At times.
Not every time.
Its a round loop like a pariswheel
ups and downs
forever in motion
no rest no time to grieve
grieve pain,
grieve loss of pain
I am unsure
it keeps going
i cant keep up
im so tired
of the pariswheel im tired.
and I have to wake up every day
knowing it has not yet stopped
and i have to mount it again.
and again
you can see?
see why im tired.
sometimes I just want it to stop
Mar 28, 2018
Mar 28, 2018 at 4:35 PM UTC
I wish he would know
I wish he could see
I wish he saw
I wish he saw me like i see him
I wish I’d let him know
I wish I’d be brave, and if I was,
I wish I don't wreck it all.
I wish when I enter his smile would grow.
I wish he couldn't control it, like me
I wish he greeted me with a hug
I wish he said goodby with a kiss
I wish he knows the pain bare for him
I wish he could end it.
Before it ends me
Apr 26, 2017
Apr 26, 2017 at 3:48 PM UTC
I fell, far far to the ground.
Far, I fell for you.
Far down there I drowned,
with neither time or view.
I wanted to know how you feel.
But you hid it a riddle.
I don't know what is real,
so I'm stuck in the middle.
If you had said no
I'd die under the water
If our relation could never grow,
I'd give myself to slaughter.
Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 3:15 PM UTC
Trying to forget
someone you loved
is like remembering someone you never met.
Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 11:46 AM UTC
My love for you
ends with my fall.
Because my love is true
and that never ends at all
Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 11:25 AM UTC
Jag går såhär, dag efter dag.
Det känns i varje andetag.
Vinden i ditt hår,
varje liten tår.
Jag vill låta dig gå
men trots allt gör det ont ändå.
Jag vill bli kvitt denna smärta,
men den kommer alltid finnas i mitt hjärta.
Det känns i allt jag gör.
Jag går såhär till den dag jag dör.
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 4:45 PM UTC
I know it's stupid
and I know I shuld stop
but you are my cupid
while I feel like a prop.
It's been said you like me
but you never seem to show it
it felt like it's meant to be
and believe me I would quit
if I knew how, to be free
Mar 4, 2017
Mar 4, 2017 at 5:41 AM UTC
I had hope
and I wished
for us both.
But I now realized
that even if your feelings
are real
and my are too,
your words of me
are cold as ice.
And though we laugh
with true sheer joy
there is a line you will not cross
I would never doubt to do it
but you will not budge.
I love you with my whole heart
and I can see why it's not
the same for you,
but at least be straigh
and tell me
how you feel.
You know my life is hard
but you don't know
what inpact you
had on me.
Don't make it harder
than it already is.
Mar 3, 2017
Mar 3, 2017 at 6:44 PM UTC
If I gave you a minute,
a second, a week.
An hour, a month.
And if you loose it,
there is no way to get it back.
So use it wisely.
Mar 3, 2017
Mar 3, 2017 at 10:55 AM UTC