I regretted what I did,
The silence where words should have been.
I grieved for all I used to hold-
The laughter, talks, the softer days.
I mourned not just the loss itself,
But who I was back then.
A chapter closed in quiet pain,
Afraid, not ready to forget.
And still I step- I stumble on,
Not to erase what came before,
But to learn to walk beside the past.
I breathe.
I let the stillness come.
I do not chase the light—
but I do not close the door to it either.
I live, not because I must,
but because something in me still wants to.
Oct 3, 2025
Oct 3, 2025 at 10:36 AM UTC
I miss you in the quiet hours,
in morning light and passing showers.
Your name still lingers in my chest—
a ghost I made, who won't find rest.
I dream of you with aching grace,
then wake and can't forget your face.
But every tender thought is chained
to all the ways I caused you pain.
I held a heart I didn’t earn,
then lit a match and watched it burn.
Now love feels like a cruel refrain—
a song of guilt I can’t explain.
If I could take it back, I would,
rewrite the parts I misunderstood.
But echoes only answer me—
and none of them can set you free.
Oct 2, 2025
Oct 2, 2025 at 7:43 PM UTC
You set me in the sun to grow,
fed my roots with tender rain.
But when your hands reached for me,
I broke—dry petals slipping through your fingers.
I now grieve the flower I almost was,
longing to bloom as you once imagined.
But now your care drifts elsewhere,
and I remain beneath this burning sky,
waiting for my final petal to fall.
Oct 2, 2025
Oct 2, 2025 at 7:38 PM UTC
In the end it's just yourself,
The sad reality that everyone gets fed up is too much,
And tears you once shed mean no more to anyone but you.
So now all you can do is smile,
While you're breaking apart on the inside,
Cause if you don't smile,
The people who were once apart of your life will be gone.
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 2:04 AM UTC
I can't be here anymore
I can't erase the memories
All I do is make my heart sore
And I'm putting myself at jeopardy
Dreams I've always wanted
Seem so close to reach
But I know they'll never be granted
And all I'll do is weep
I just want a night
So I can be happy and free
To me I know it's right
But I'll probably be left standing lonely
Feb 21, 2018
Feb 21, 2018 at 6:28 PM UTC
Got no friends to go to,
No place to let it out.
They're too focused on themselves,
I know no one cares about my health.
It's fine I'll sew my mouth shut,
you won't hear a peep.
You can all live your life freely everyday,
I know I'm just a thowaway.
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 10:32 PM UTC
My heart is being tormented,
I can't look away
My mind feels disoriented,
I'm being led astray
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 10:13 PM UTC
I'm trash,
once my expiring date had passed I was thrown away.
To you I am nothing,
to me you are still everything.
The words "I love you" have no meaning to you,
to me they mean everything.
The day you came I wish I had done more,
but I was too scared that I would fall into you deeper,
knowing you would have to leave again and be out of arms reach.
There's a lot you didn't know back then,
I was suffering silently behind closed doors.
When I looked in the mirror all I saw was a stranger,
a person who would ruin your life while I was slowly ruining mine.
I just wasn't ready but I wanted you so bad,
I wanted to be the person you'd put a ring on,
I wanted to be the person you started a family with,
I wanted to be the person you came to,
I want to be the person you love now,
but it seems you have eyes for another.
I wish I was honest why I choose to leave you,
I wish I never left you.
I wish I could still talk to you now,
I wish you would let me.
Three years seem as though they don't exist to you,
but those three years are all hitting me at once.
It's hard to cope anymore,
while you live your life without me.
After everything that happened,
I forgive you for everything and I will always love you.
You are the only one in my eyes and I wish I never let you go,
but I didn't feel like I was enough.
I don't want to be alone anymore,
I don't want you to just throw me away like I never existed.
I want you in my life and I will always be here for you,
but would you do the same...?
I'm trash,
my expiring date has gone for you and now you've moved on.
You started having feelings for another girl so fast,
makes me think if I meant anything at all.
I cry almost every night wishing you were here,
I delete almost every message I send to you,
I can't help but want to call you every second of every day.
But I can't.
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 4:49 PM UTC
Hours upon hours of tears,
Panic attacks,
Anxiety.
My hand empty as all those close to me disappear
No one to reach out to
Please end this.
I've had enough for one day.
Jan 23, 2017
Jan 23, 2017 at 2:31 AM UTC
I'll keep on acting fake because eventually it'll become real...
Jan 23, 2017
Jan 23, 2017 at 12:00 AM UTC