I was too weak to face myself
And you were collateral
The could have beens for the coward then
More ridiculous now from time's vantage
My vision of you and my perception of self
Completely incompatible
You came to me a woman
Your mind was made, your path was paved
I was still a boy and too much a fool
Honestly afraid of your power
To make my ego admit
That you were better than me
Now daunted by the vista of my ignorance
No longer scared to look I see how low I was
The frailty I grafted to you, the idea
Blinded me to your beautiful reality
But granted me solace in my fantasy
I was lying to myself
I was the weakling, I was the looser
But you were the one who lost.
Somehow you saw through my facade
Your heart smelled the love I buried deep
The potential man you offered your hand
Saw fate and ran away
Feb 28, 2021
Feb 28, 2021 at 11:24 PM UTC
Panic
Run down the masses, burn all the books
The rumor reigns
Stagnant
Psychic visions with spitting mouths and chained hands
Take their brains away
Monster
Defend it for pity of ugly
Evil with no shame
Fight fair
Hands up, lock eyes with a warrior of God
Shoot him in the back
Whisper
Truth to your heart, shared only sparing
Behind locked doors
Belief
Like the patron saint of ignorance
Justify your way
Hearsay
A circumstantial execution
Of virtue scorned
Heresy
Of one's who'd burn a world rather than bow a head
Deny imperfection
Feb 25, 2021
Feb 25, 2021 at 9:02 AM UTC
Held captive by the look of you
Hold stunned my eager breath
Beauty like the heart of winter
Untouched and frozen perfect
The distance holds as sterile
Desires of flesh and flesh
For innocent is yearning
If left sans recompense
The player's pride will sing of victory
In cheated games yet won by none
Play patient, suffer discipline
Fight fair or flight screams run
Still this life is set to spiral
And downward shapes the snare
Sacrifice self for sake of sympathy
Whose weight is this I bare?
Ballasts drag different on principle
Your load at least is novel
We float, we sail, we sink, we bail
Let the journey play the model
You've the scent of land uncharted
You've the glow of gold unowned
You're prospect seems so guarded
You've trapped my will in stone
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 11:10 AM UTC
You hide in trees like wisdom,
out of reach like play.
You move with nature's rhythm,
pliable as clay.
A rainbow sans the prism,
oh so far away.
A dream forever dancing,
pure as ****** dame.
All eyes at you though glancing,
cowards come the game.
For me a trip worth chancing,
freedom has no name.
Your laughter is the river,
my lifelong design.
Most yearn for just a sliver,
wholly you'll be mine.
A touch to make you quiver,
kiss flavoured divine.
Bliss pervades each step toward fate,
drifting destiny.
Please forgive if I show late,
beg your clemency.
Promise succour for your wait,
if eventually.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 6:10 AM UTC
It’s not by force of credo
that I extend my hand for thee.
It’s not for want of glory
that my heart offers you its key.
I don’t catch you when falling
to save a damsel in distress.
Not a shoulder for crying,
rather a haven from your stress.
Not your knight or hero,
Simply a man and aching heart.
“Should” shapes no motivation,
My goal to play the part
Of your lover, of your boy.
Of your home away from home.
Of your confidant, your healer.
Of your guide ‘ever you roam.
Some cling to old rules and honors,
In truth Chivalry is dead.
Antique code is dry and dusty,
I give you Romance instead.
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 12:07 AM UTC
And there I left you
I imagine frozen
Arms extended
Half an embrace
Your other half turned
And escaped into space
I cut it off quick
Both cold and completely
Distance the drug
Running the pain
The thought of thinking
I could only abstain
I bleached the memory
Ultimately utter
White washed the wound
Erased our story
Refused to believe
It as allegory
But the facts still stand
It was killed by your hand
So though I ran
Please understand
It was not for freedom or glory
Oct 20, 2018
Oct 20, 2018 at 3:26 PM UTC
“Hey hey,
I don't wanna lay awake
and wait,
you don't know what it takes
To bare
such a heavy weight
when you
just wanna levitate.
It was
just around the 28th,
maybe
three days ago to date,
when you
managed to escape
my dream
and usher me to fate.
You don't
need to reciprocate,
but hey
I really think you're great.
and girl,
do not hesitate,
nod your
head if you relate.”
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 6:28 PM UTC
I'll play the tinker toy,
You play your game.
Use me, abuse me.
For boredom, I'll take blame.
Emotional backboard
My role and my place.
I'll keep you happy
Til you forget my face.
My role as your keeper,
One of tarnished brass,
Is full of rewards
Seldom worth all the gas.
And please hear me beg you,
A toy of my own,
To fill in the space,
That you just leave unsewn.
Sep 22, 2018
Sep 22, 2018 at 11:41 AM UTC
Hey let's go back inside
It's midnight and it's raining
Everything I said was wrong
Please forgive me baby
I won't try and save you
I just want you to be better
Please baby come on
We're crying and it's raining
The wine is gone and we're alone
You and me and the demons
Blurry eyed I begged you why
And your silence drove me crazy
It's some sick kinda hubris
That makes me take the blame
For the burden of your sorrows
From this life and the demons
I can see you shaking
And I know it's not the cold
I'll hold and warm you anyhow
This time I'll get it right
Hard enough to **** the demons
Warm enough to say I love you
Please don't say you feel me shaking
Cuz we know it's not the cold
Sep 22, 2018
Sep 22, 2018 at 7:30 AM UTC
I don't want power in a poem
Just some rhyming light and whipped
With enough empty space and air
To take the place of subscript
I don't want to hear you sing of pain
I'd rather you stick to scheme
Keep rhymes in time and don't ask why
You’ve all lost the will to dream
I'd break every pen that's mightier
And fight freedom of the verse
Censor you to cold and heartless
Ensure passion’s home in hearse
I'll bleed your words dry of their wisdom
Make them all just ink on page
Dilute the work back into form
Homogenize center stage
Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 3:53 PM UTC