I'm so in love with you...
tonight, I'll be dreaming of you
My sweet dream
I want to stay in your arms forever
I want to kiss you...
I think of you so much.
You're so sweet my love
I'm so in love with you
Be mine.
Dec 3, 2021
Dec 3, 2021 at 1:56 AM UTC
it's so cold
i wish we lived next to each other to warm one another up
like penguins do
huddle and cuddle
i miss you
Nov 22, 2021
Nov 22, 2021 at 12:08 AM UTC
your voice reminding me of sweet candy
my heart ache to see you again
a decisecond
that was too much time apart
again. again. again.
i couldn't wait to see you again
you're a beautiful blooming flower growing everyday
that i wish to only pick for myself
Sep 28, 2021
Sep 28, 2021 at 10:00 PM UTC
something troubling is happing in my heart
throbbing painfully
suffocating painfully
Aug 9, 2021
Aug 9, 2021 at 1:32 AM UTC
"What's a life experience that you would never want to relive again?"
"Why?"
The worst pain I have ever experienced was feeling like my life was getting taken away from me. It felt like I couldn't breath. It felt like someone was taking away my breath. My whole brain. Everything.
I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I simply couldn't.
I never wanted to relive that moment again but I missed feeling what I felt back then because... at least it made me think of her. The more I endured it the more I loved it. At least she made me feel something, even if it made me feel like I was dying. I just wanted love.
Why couldn't I get loved correctly.
I just needed love.
I need love.
I don't know what I'm doing now.
Can I still love?
I don't know how to love correctly.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry I hurt the ones I hold close to me.
I just need someone. anyone.
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 3:22 AM UTC
you're so beautiful
your skin looks so soft, your hair is so well put
sometimes wanting to drive my hands through it
day dreaming about you is so,
helpless
if i can't do it
today you've straighten your hair, you look delicate, so noticeable.
i love the way you talk, no stuttering and a smooth flow of talk in you
today was the first time i heard you laugh differently then your other laughs
your features are so appealing
driving me crazy that i can't even talk to you
Apr 7, 2020
Apr 7, 2020 at 10:56 PM UTC
i don't understand why i can't just have friends
yes, i can talk but my insecurities and mind can too
i see things nobody else see, hear things no one ever listens to
it's hard to laugh when you feel like crying
very hard to speak when you don't feel spoken to
all i can do is look and observe at the people i forever wanted to be friends with
instead of pushing myself forward to make a connection
to feel less alone in this world
i'm pulling myself more backwards each second
i'm drowning in my thoughts and doubts
Jan 30, 2020
Jan 30, 2020 at 8:59 PM UTC
I don’t need you anymore, you said you would’ve been gone years ago was but you haven’t seem to be gone yet
I reminded you everyday of it
to make sure of it
You tell me to try harder
I do but you always talk to much about me, & to me
You come at me like a wave with no notice, Every time were together it gets more darker then ever
I found a way to talk to you
I found comfort with you
But it was awfully difficult
Feeling the smooth tears going down my cheeks from what you said the other nights, having late night crazy thoughts with you was lovely
You wanted to be dead with me
But all I wanted was to stop you
You wanted me to not see the light
I wanted to leave you to the dark
Just the other day you had me screaming in public. During that moment you told me to call it a life instead of a day
You got me though
You had me convinced that I actually wanted to stop trying too
I just need a hand to hold.
Jan 27, 2020
Jan 27, 2020 at 7:12 PM UTC
Forgot about me
You said
I ran away with a big gun shot through my chest that night you told me those lovely words
You keep torturing me every night
even though your're not here anymore
You won’t leave me alone
All you bring is to me
Are these watery eyes
Each night
Dear brain
Mind
Eyes
Heart
Body
Everything connected to me
Your failing me each night
I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead
Cause I can always hear your words
In
These walls each night
Jan 27, 2020
Jan 27, 2020 at 7:08 PM UTC
wanting to turn cold on the world, for the people on it
or maybe because i'm living with it
i'm myself's only one
i don't belong to such close people
i can't love. more i love. deeper it gets. meaning less it turns into.
don't know if i find her attractive anymore as i use to
Jan 27, 2020
Jan 27, 2020 at 7:06 PM UTC