I was back in my prison-- the four walls of my room.
Emotions were shooting like pistols.
My head is about to go boom.
Feb 4, 2021
Feb 4, 2021 at 11:56 AM UTC
I always asked myself why I loved you
Even though I was certain we won't last.
I have always wondered why we're breathing
Even though our heart would one day stop.
Maybe it's because life is still worth living
Even when we know death from the start.
Maybe because you're worth loving
Even when I know you won't love me back.
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 12:08 PM UTC
Our love was perfect
A story of fairytale.
A work of fiction.
Apr 21, 2020
Apr 21, 2020 at 5:38 AM UTC
Everyone was such a fool
They were easy to convince
But there was one that can't be wooed
That one person, it was me.
Despite the efforts of flushing away
All the memories I had of you
In my dreams you still haunt me—
Like a ghost— out of the blue.
Then when I woke the pain returned
As if all of it was only yesterday.
The memories I thought I burried,
Back on the ground they found their way.
Hours again of staring into nothingness
I felt my heart ripped apart.
Into my bed with steaming warmness
I cannot move on to a fresh start.
All the things that should feel natural
Suddenly felt like a work so hard
May it be breathing or blinking,
Even the beating of my heart.
All of it was because I once again dreamed of you
So believe me when I say...
It was never easy falling out of love for you.
Apr 15, 2020
Apr 15, 2020 at 3:45 AM UTC
In ending our lives
We will never know
Whatever there is
That lies before.
It is the dreams
Of heavens and skies.
It is the nightmares
That roams at night.
Brave are they
Who tried to seek
Whatever lies
In the never ending sleep.
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 1:30 AM UTC
When you feel like you're about to explode,
that's when you start pushing people away,
but somehow at any point,
sharpnels reach them anyway.
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 11:29 PM UTC
For all the days I wake
To the sun that sneaks a peek,
I tell myself to take a grip
Before the reality slips.
Jan 11, 2020
Jan 11, 2020 at 11:17 AM UTC
For those times I have cried,
And wept every night,
Questions are bugging me
They're filling up my mind.
How could I love,
And never be loved?
How couldn't I get,
When I've given what I got?
How could I forgive,
When I wasn't forgiven?
How could I believe,
And how come he never listened?
How come she came,
And got what I want?
When all I ever wanted
Was all of your love.
But now I have seen
How happy you've become
And all of my questions
From thousands became none.
Who, What
When, and Why
I could finally say goodbye.
Jan 6, 2020
Jan 6, 2020 at 11:51 PM UTC
I've always admired your pretty eyes
For the way you stare makes me melt.
Until one day I realized
You're just waiting for me to make a mistake.
Aug 27, 2019
Aug 27, 2019 at 10:48 PM UTC
I have been riding the hand of the clock at the very second I met you.
I held as it tick and tock completing a minute, and I held more as it ran an hour.
I was grateful as it counted a day. I was screaming with joy as it reached more than months.
I was a fool for not knowing it was a timer set to end.
Aug 22, 2019
Aug 22, 2019 at 7:42 AM UTC