I did it again
Love should be sin
That I wouldn’t do again
You played me like a violin
First the start I didn’t want soul ties
Then I thought we was meant
Somewhere lies and betrayal begins
And things take a shuffle
Asking when will it be just us again
Mar 16, 2021
Mar 16, 2021 at 9:38 PM UTC
I swear I am feeling the same way.
Unwanted and unsure now and that not how I should feel.
Every night I try my hardest to make myself think it’s just my depression or anxiety.
This is why I was afraid of loving again.
Cause it the same things each time.
I get used to things and they faded away.
And feels changed on a relationship.
I really tried not to get used to going to sleep on the phone, saying I love you , and hoping to hear from you.
But I did.
Now I sit up every night trying to fall asleep on my own.
I started hiding my feelings and just accepting these feelings and thoughts.
Now I’m just waiting for the day, you don’t wanna be with me.
I know that it is coming. I feel insecure, crazy, n unwanted.
Apr 23, 2020
Apr 23, 2020 at 2:35 AM UTC
I wrote this poem
For the ones I am about to hurt
I am broken and alone
Trap in my mind
With no room to grow
I have shed many tears
Felt my heart break
Seen my body shake
Smoke the pain away
Just to seen another rainy day
So I groom myself
This one last time
Make sure I have everything in line
For this time
Cried for the last time
Laughed for the last time
This is my last time
To the man I fell in love with
Sorry for everything I couldn’t fix
To my siblings that will miss me
Try not to remember me like this
To my parents that hate each other
I wish you can work on your differences
To my godparents that helped me
I am sorry you can’t fix this
This is it.
Apr 23, 2020
Apr 23, 2020 at 2:33 AM UTC
I swear I am feeling the same way.
Unwanted and unsure now and that not how I should feel.
Every night I try my hardest to make myself think it’s just my depression or anxiety.
This is why I was afraid of loving again.
Cause it the same things each time.
I get used to things and they faded away. And feels changed on a relationship.
I really tried not to get used to going to sleep on the phone, saying I love you , and hoping to hear from you.
But I did.
Now I sit up every night trying to fall asleep on my own.
I started hiding my feelings and just accepting these feelings and thoughts. Now I’m just waiting for the day, you don’t wanna be with me.
I know that it is coming. I feel insecure, crazy, n unwanted.
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:43 AM UTC
Can this relationship wait
Is the words you used.
So I said yea cause you was going through something.
But you kept flirting for me and giving me mixed feelings for you.
It was like you wanted me but didn’t too. So I continue to be attached to you.
Got use to the calls every night and the long talks.
It was too good to be true but I was just hoping it was true.
Cause you made me feel so much better than the last dude.
But it was only to get me I see.
Cause now I don’t hear from you.
But when I do I hear relationship aren’t for you.
So what am I ?
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:39 AM UTC
Feel my pressure
Maybe use your tongue
To turn me up
Ain’t felt it in a minute
So let’s have some fun
Push down a little more
So this waterfall can run
Lucci ain’t the first to say this pun
**** even make me run
Just go a lot deeper ***
Cause I’m tryna feel it in my gut
Let’s make love like Bonnie n Clyde on the run
**** that was fun
He likes the way I ***
All over his face
Fresh out the easy bake oven how I taste
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:29 AM UTC
Spoken so softly
He can make me hot like the sun
No touch can fix what he done
Want to feel him inside
Deep I won’t run
Kiss down my spine
Run is hands over my body
Love me hard
Make me bust like fire work
Let’s become one
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:28 AM UTC
I fell into your arms
And you became my safe place
Hide me from the dangers
Made sure my anxiety go away
Healed my broke soul
In the best ways
Made me fall in love secretly
I was the one thinking it is mean to be
While you somehow was unsure of we
Pushed and pulled me
Like a door way
Mixed signals to keep me curious
Now I’m hell of furious
Why did I love in the first place?
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:24 AM UTC
Moving on with life
Smile become something bright
Find the fire
And begin fighting that fight
Break down some walls
To let in some sun light
Watch things grow
And you become just alright
Til the curiosity calls
And you wonder off
To see what is beyond
It’s a man that can’t grow
So you help him right
Bring him home
So he can get some sunlight
What wasn’t seen is a **** that right
You grew him and loved him
And he took all your sunlight
Rained on your fire all day and night
You realized he the ****
So you get mighty
To cut him out your life
Build your walls up
Never wonder off
Or let your curiosity out right
That what men do
They hurt you
When all you wanna do is help
Build them up n touch their souls
Once you are hurt
You build walls up
And don’t let anybody in
Not a single soul
Cause how knows?!
But this is the cycle called love
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 2:23 AM UTC
Yep This is it
I tried and I failed
Im writing my goodbyes
With no lies
I’m tired
And I can’t fight it
I did all those fake smiles
Just for the hell of it
At night I cover my mouth
So no one will hear me cry out loud
I mentally died weeks ago
And screamed for help
But no one seem to care
I can’t find my place on this earth
I don’t know my worthy
I want to say sorry
To the ones I am about to hurt
But I can’t do it anymore
I’m a lost soul
In case you didn’t know
I distant myself from you
So you couldn’t tell
I am sorry
But I can’t get well
I wished i loved me
Like you love me
I wish I could’ve seen
What you seen
I know you wanted the chance
To hug all of me
I was weak and could’ve barely breathe
Aug 18, 2019
Aug 18, 2019 at 6:15 AM UTC