I'm gonna drown myself in sorrow
I'm gonna drown myself in fear
So I could feel something tomorrow
So I could free myself from air
In deepest corners of my lungs
The chemicals are always hiding
Intoxicated... but I'm so young
The fear is always oh so blinding
I smoke, I drink, I cry away
I hope one day I'll be ok
Is this reality not up to date
Is it too late to feel okay
In deepest corners of my lungs
The chemicals are always hiding
Intoxicated... but I'm so young
The fear is always oh so blinding
Dec 6, 2020
Dec 6, 2020 at 11:03 AM UTC
I'm doing so well right now
Not crying many tears
Just talking with people
That honestly care
Please don't let me change
I wanna go forward
To look at the sky
And see bright tomorrow
What beauty can't see
I don't wanna know
Cause I've felt the pain
For way too far along
I'm doing good now
At least so I hope
So bring me the future
Wherever I go
It's strange to write nicely
No pain in this song
I don't feel much different
But here is a thought
Someone must have calmed me
And told me it's fine
To cry many tears
Alone in the night
Someone must have showed me
That there is the truth
And people who care
Will stay there for you
If ***** just came back
And acts like it's nothing
That they didn't cause me
The pain in my stomach
Do not let them in
There's no need for toxic
Feel good about you
And feel free from hypnosis
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 9:34 AM UTC
Cause I don't wanna dream
And I don't wanna scream
I just wanna lock my mind out
From escaping to this film
They told me to think differently
That I'm the character that's main
But do they realize that the genre
Does not depend on this parade
Keep your back straight and head higher
But gravity is pulling me to deeper side
Stop being sad, put on a smile
It's like telling me to call my mom - my father
Take out the trash and your mind with it
You aren't worth the pain you're given
So what if rain stops falling on me
The oceans in my heart have flooded me already
Cause I don't wanna dream
And I don't wanna scream
I just wanna lock my mind out
From escaping to this film
Nov 13, 2020
Nov 13, 2020 at 3:24 PM UTC
I was always out of style
Always late to trends
I thought I was unique and smiled
Until I really lost myself
I understood what I did wrong
And why I always felt alone
Why people looked at me and smiled
But never really came to talk
Cause my style was ugly
And my style was weird
I never had something to offer
To myself or to my friends
Cause I was always out of fashion
And I was always late to trends
I never knew what went together
Or how to match the colors well
Nov 8, 2020
Nov 8, 2020 at 6:53 AM UTC
Don't lie to an overthinker
You don't know how it kills
To lay in bet at night
And think about those things
I thought you told the truth
But things just don't add up
And what am I to do
When this is so messed up
I lay here till the sunrise
I went to bed at nine
It's been like seven hours
And you're still on my mind
I overthink these things
I know that it's not good
But I am not the one who made
Those thoughts become my truth
So do not lie to an overthinker
You won't help them survive
Truth hurts and that's a fact
But lies will only lead to die
Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 11:41 AM UTC
Don't save me cause I wanna die
Save me cause you care
Keep telling lies, say that it's true
Keep talking if you dare
Don't give me an umbrella
To save me from the rain
Don't leave me there to stand alone
And watch you walk away
Just please don't go
Don't let me go
I wanna see
How this one goes
I wanna cry
Into the night
I wanna see
How this one dies
Don't make me dance in midnight moon
If you won't dance with me
Don't talk to me when I'm with you
If looks are all you see
Don't hold my hand when you see guys
Hold it when I'm cold
Don't look into my cold blue eyes
Look into my soul
Just please don't go
Don't let me go
I wanna teach you
All I know
I wanna laugh
Look at the sun
And learn to trust
You once again
Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 11:32 AM UTC
Oh it hurts to be myself
But I can't be nobody else
I wanna die, I wanna scream
I wanna claw my eyes and leave
Just say you hate me
And I'll be done
I know you'll find somebody else
I cannot live up to my standards
How can I be someone you want
You want a beauty and a queen
But got a baby with no self-esteem
I know it hurts, I know... I do
But, honey, trust me - I'm not for you
My soul is hurt and I can't fix it
I wish I was normal
I wish I was different
You say you'll help me
I know you won't
Cause how can you help
When I'm all alone
Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 11:01 AM UTC