Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When the leaves fall down and begin to decay.
When the sun goes away and the rain clouds come out to play.
Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When the laughter drifts away and memories begin to fade.
When you haven't the chance to say hello before having to say goodbye.
Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When the music starts to come to an end before you've had the chance to listen.
When the poems all lose their meanings and lyrics become just jumbled words.
Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When you don't say the words I love you enough to all those that you hold day.
When the world starts to fade away and you've barely chosen to live.
Without so much as a thought,
Time will say nothing but I told you so!
Jun 3, 2022
Jun 3, 2022 at 9:59 PM UTC
The hardest thing is picking up the phone
But having no-one to call when you're at your worst.
The hardest thing is screaming into your pillow
Because your crying so hard that your chest feels like it could cave in.
The hardest things is telling someone you're not okay
But having to comfort them because they don't know what to say...
The hardest thing is knowing you once had that person... Your person
But now they have gone without a look back, not daring to check in.
The hardest thing is pretending I am okay everyday
Because I am completely alone with no-one to call when I'm at my worst
Jun 3, 2022
Jun 3, 2022 at 8:23 PM UTC
I was not good enough for that.
Happy to be someone's rebound,
But he that decent guy for them.
Use me to fill some kind of void,
Always taking something you could never give back.
I gave you everything that I had to offer
But you threw me away like yesterday's garbage.
So happy to be a decent guy for everyone else,
But I guess...
I was not good enough for that.
Jun 3, 2022
Jun 3, 2022 at 8:19 PM UTC
You are the love that came
when I didn't expect it;
came without a warning.
I didn't get the chance to think it through.
I just woke up one morning and texted you,
When you replied it made me smile,
That is when I knew, I lost my heart to you.
From time-zone different coffee dates,
To late night-early morning calls.
From staying on the phone while we slept,
To movies and songs always shared.
You would tell me you wanted to be with me,
That you had feelings but weren't quite ready yet.
To suddenly changing your mind.
From inviting me for new years eve - to not remembering and freaking out...
You changed your mind about me so fast with new friends and a new job...
You say you didn't string me along.
So what exactly did you do?
Tell me you wanted to be with me
To barely taking the time to talk and always waiting for a better option to come along, that's why we can no longer make plans...
Jun 3, 2022
Jun 3, 2022 at 8:16 PM UTC
Reliving memories of suffocating blankets,
Locked doors and
Raised voices.
Hiding behind doors, baracading ourselves in
Whilst glasses shatter and
Doors slam.
Being ran and shoved into brick walls,
Whilst being told you're a failure
And they wish you were alive.
Reliving memories in my dreams
So I choose to stay awake
Choosing deprivation of sleep over deprivation of sanity.
May 12, 2021
May 12, 2021 at 5:43 PM UTC
There's a dark, empty feeling taking hold of me.
There is only so many times you can fake a smile.
Silent breakdowns in the dead of the night,
Just so no-one can see that I've become so weak.
I didn't think I would relapse this hard,
After a year or two I didn't want to fell back at the start,
But now I've become accustomed to starving myself
And hurting whatever part of me I can hide.
There's an unnerving tention inside of me
Feeling overwhelmed at almost everything around.
The only think that keeps me feeling alive
Is feeling the pain whilst watching everyone live a successful life...
May 12, 2021
May 12, 2021 at 5:37 PM UTC
I feel so alone,
No-one blowing up my phone
Asking if I am okay.
No ones heard from me in days
Too busy in my own head anyway.
Not like anyone is calling
To see if I'm still around.
I'm so tired of always being
The first one to ask to if they're okay.
I'm so tired of being
The one that everyone can talk too.
I wish I no longer cared,
And I wish I had someone to do the same for me.
Right now I am all alone,
Wishing I had someone to call home.
Wishing I had someone I could call
When I'm feeling this way.
I feel so lost and confused,
Wondering where I went so wrong.
What must I have done
To have noone here at all...?
May 12, 2021
May 12, 2021 at 5:28 PM UTC
The fog is like a locked door
Without any key.
The candle is at the end
With little wick to burn
There is no longer a light at the end of the tunnel
Just a moving train, hurtling at full speed.
The night is never ending
Longer with each passing hour
And the cold, it lingers
Like a never ending winter.
My mind, soul and body has succumbed
To the dark thoughts it held dear long ago
Jan 2, 2021
Jan 2, 2021 at 6:05 PM UTC
The softest raindrops hit my window pane,
They help me feel the peace I long forgot,
Their graceful dances fill my mind with hope
That I'm not alone in this dark fight.
I watch the raindrops tangle into one
And hope that my day will come,
When I can trust someone who's good and true,
Who won't forget what the darkness brings.
Oh I don't want to be alone
So I'll sit and watch the raindrops dance,
A graceful harmony of sorts
Helping me feel a little less alone.
Nov 8, 2020
Nov 8, 2020 at 12:15 PM UTC
Why am I always the one to apologise?
Even though you hurt me first...
Said you'd be there,
Then chuck me aside.
So when is it I retaliate,
Push you away so I won't get hurt,
Do you say I'm the one who's hurting you,
But not acknowledge what you did first?
Nov 8, 2020
Nov 8, 2020 at 12:09 PM UTC