Never **** a girl with rats.
It.
never last.
A girl who cares for rats.
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 5:48 AM UTC
When I was a child, I was told the story of my Grandfathers mother she was a refugee from mother Russia.
He told me that we were no longer considered white that is a luxury.
And we have become subhuman in most places.
We were either locked behind iron walls to be kept in or out.
He told me how they sacked and burned our villages.
Then they proceeded to chase us on horseback, with swords pointed too the distant future.
She was led to the nearest boat, headed towards The Land Of Opportunity.
At the island she was locked away for Tuberculose and possibly Lice
When leaving she refused to put an X for her name for obvious reasons.
So she signed ****
Years later I found out, she had opened a pawn shop down south.
In what now is the forth most segregated area in the states.
She sat outside with a shotgun in a rocking chair and windows barred.
when there King died.
Sadly, the last thing remembered by my Papa's mother including my family is a fist fight.
In Santa Barbra.
I saw the look of panic and pain on her despondent face.
At this point that look was a common occurrence in my day to day life.
Hence, the reason I wasn't allowed at the funeral.
I was locked away at another rehabilitation center.
For crimes I had of course never committed
Since then I have not laid any tulips or morning prayers.
Nov 24, 2015
Nov 24, 2015 at 4:22 AM UTC
I got sober over a year ago.
What god blessed me with is morals, honesty and a conscious.
When I was out, I hurt people and I enjoyed it.
It was something, I just had to do so you knew how big my rep was.
I was a caged animal and I wasn't even in cell anymore in my head at least.
Any challenge I met with violence.
I prayed most nights not to wake up.
I happened to have a reminder this evening.
Tonight I picked up some food and sat at the bar.
Instead of salivating over sharp knives, semi automatics, a broken thumb and what I would do to certain fox news anchors.
First, I saw my old friend jack.
Before we reminisced I told him that, I'm allowed back in my mothers house.
And am home for the holidays especially thanksgiving.
I can hold a job instead of amassing monstrous amounts of credit card debt and fraudulent charges.
And my family tells me they love me.
Well he told me remember the good times, like trying to get hook up with someones girlfriend at a party.
while he was passed out.
Saying anything that was needed to close the deal.
It just happened that night.
I was bamboozled
Also I had the privilege of running into some Bitch-whore who had the gull to tell me.
You have the haircut of a ****
Her words exactly.
So instead of keying some kind four letter feminine word into her car.
I fell down into the street divider and wouldn't get up till some acquaintances went out there and asked me if I was alright.
"That of course, was all I most likely needed growing up" said so many counselors who loved to point out the fact that, well Michael you grew up in a broken home with a father who took his life right around the corner from you when you were just ten years old. The prime growing years of any young lad.
Then I spoke to an old college friend after that a noble of sorts C. Royal.
We spoke of past-times of unprotected *** with a so called girlfriends.
All of these women of course who I had cheated on and possibly fathered many children.
Now sober I'm following leads to see if they exist and planning to set up college funds.
If the maternal parent doesn't want me int there life.
Then later in life being the genius that I was cashing in so may bonds to celebrate my future sober life I began spending over 1500 at the tables.
OF course when I was banded from narcotics and ****** at the hotel room.
Whats the point of saving over 1200 in winnings.
Like any good addict I let it ride on black.
I just kept on running into old friends.
It was a hell of a night.
I then saw a french man of sorts and spoke to him last Mr. Marnier.
I told him for now at least I don't regurgitate Thanksgiving dinners in front of friends families.
And my friends speak to me now.
After that I picked up the food and said goodbye.
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 12:40 AM UTC
When I look into a dark mirror and see black all I see is myself.
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 2:07 AM UTC
The wolf, a predator and a monster.
Transforms himself into a monster every night, a red riding hood comes home.
A prettiest young girl unaware and nubile.
She walks into grandmas house.
Teeth, Fur,Fangs and Claws.
Grandma why are you so hairy.
Why are your teeth so big.
What large claws you have.
The Grandmothers rage awakens for a tasty young meal.
Take a nap young riding hood grandmother is cooking.
Snap crackle the door locks from the outside.
Another young love in my house.
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 5:11 PM UTC
I remember my grandmother crying at her sons funeral.
When my father choose his way out.
I got one birthday check $100.
Mother was blamed for his death by his family.
Sister disappeared from my life soon after that.
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 2:45 AM UTC
When I was a child I knew I had to be a monster.
I lived in my parents bed every night.
Due to the fact of : giant, **** brown, furry, four legged, daddy long legs,
creeping, with yellow eyes and two snarling teeth that chased me.
I ran with my tail between my legs.
I entered the bed.
The SHADOWS on my parents Faces.
Scared me to death.
Instead of Curling up and crying I hissed with my fangs.
I crossed my arms like Dracula.
Since then Silence of the Lambs, Tony and an obsession with Damher and BUndy.
Strange <Masturbation> habits.
UNwanted bladder MaLfUNction.
Owning a VIDEO of actual
(Cannibalism) I've seen three# timesX.
Carpenter... Kraven. Romero and a few cases of assault.
Also SEVERAL rackets of attempted ****** 10 through 15.
THree mental hospitals.
And One incarceration.
I BeCAME a MONSteER.
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 1:47 AM UTC
I smoke like cancer because I can.
Because I will not stop.
I enjoy it, my voice deepens like rougehage being swayed and stepped on. They will bury me.
Oct 10, 2015
Oct 10, 2015 at 10:24 PM UTC
I woke up this morning wanting to Die.
Not for any particular reason but because I could not weep.
The last time I cried.
Was in my car yesterday.
Sep 12, 2015
Sep 12, 2015 at 3:58 PM UTC