She's been given a path that is all but manageable
This is given with a smile and a suffocating responsibility
She does her best,
To Give,
To Listen,
To Be Who They Expect.
But what if its not enough
What will happen if she chooses the illicit path
Do the rewards out way the losses?
Will the love being sought after come from enduring hardship
Or rather through adversity?
She must be absent from her mind,
To even question the 'life' GIVEN to her.
How ungrateful she must be to question this broken and distorted guidance.
My guardians are not as wise as I was made to believe.
So how do I function with the apprehension of my selfish actions.
I can not stay true to myself for the fear of hurting others.
But I can not keep living with the disquiet in my heart.
Aug 21, 2020
Aug 21, 2020 at 12:07 PM UTC
I think of you day and night.
I dream of you.
And yet I cant see a future with us together.
I want you,
But why?
You've never given me a reason too
And yet I want you.
I could mean nothing to you;
or everything.
And you would never show it.
Your like no one I've ever known
But that shouldn't make the difference.
I cant find a reason to let go.
Nor can I find one to hold on.
So here I sit between sanity and sadness
unable to pick a path
So here I pick indifference.
Ill forget my obsessions
And busy myself with nothings.
And Ill find joy
And cherish our few memories.
Dec 5, 2019
Dec 5, 2019 at 6:54 PM UTC
Its your favorite color
From the last I had know
But in our separation
My heart has grown cold
Your favorite color is purple
And now I see it in a new light
Saying the word over and over gives a new perspective
And I can see even the name is a description of its beauty.
Purple is royal
it is the feeling of love when its warm;
loneliness when its cool
Purple is the color of a heart
when sacrifice has been made
Purple is how I remember you
Purple is how I express my love
Purple is what I show others when they will never know the memories of you.
Your favorite color was purple.
Dec 5, 2019
Dec 5, 2019 at 6:44 PM UTC
Laying in the fields
We scan the sky
Sitting in the sand
We watch the sea
Focused on the constellations
We find our place
Mesmerized by waves
We discover our future
What is there more than to search?
More than to wonder? And be amazed
We find awe in deepest spaces
And truth in the smallest
Counting the stars
Or living through oceans rhythm
Serenity and remembrance
We are here.
Dec 5, 2019
Dec 5, 2019 at 6:35 PM UTC
I'm the happiest me when around you.
But somehow loving you is like getting lost on the moon.
I am not sure how or if its even possible.
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 12:45 AM UTC
As you sit next to them and think...
As you walk and are at your happiest...
As you stand in the street alone...
As you go to YOUR -
No, OUR-
-Place; you feel it more now than ever...the pull in your heart
I don’t need to tell you what you feel.
I don’t need to give you a ending and finish your story.
You’ve already thought of one...
Mar 8, 2019
Mar 8, 2019 at 9:03 PM UTC
The song starts of slow
My heart floods with an emotion only god knows what
His voice is low and southing
I can't help but wonder
Just what kind of spell this song had me under.
To be able to listen to it day or night, weather it's dark or light.
It makes me feel safe and washes all my worries away.
Feb 25, 2019
Feb 25, 2019 at 3:18 AM UTC
Get
out
of
my
head
i'm
done
playing
games
why
cant
things
be
simple
like
the
good
old
days
Feb 25, 2019
Feb 25, 2019 at 2:47 AM UTC
Sit at home and contemplate?
Or go to the gym and “get in shape”?
The choice was going to be hard and probably not very great.
But then a stranger made my day :)
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 6:57 PM UTC
^Who^
^What^
^When^
^Why^
These are the thoughts
that are indefinitely
racing across my mind
Feb 24, 2019
Feb 24, 2019 at 6:46 PM UTC