Don’t assume ANYTHING about me based on ANYTHING
You don’t know what IM THINKING just by seeing if my face is ******* up or if I look happy.
P L E A S E
Don’t assume you know me and don’t tell me
what I think
How I feel
What my motivation or intent is
What I can do
What I cannot do
Who I am
What I am..
You’ll always be wrong.
It will always be abuse.
Because only I can decide or define those things about me to you.
And they can change every second and I am the only person on the planet whose responsibility it is to define them
to decide them, to label them.
You don’t decide
You don’t define
You don’t redefine
You don’t label me
You don’t paste who I am to you
onto my face and then criticize it.
Don’t pin your idea of me on your mind’s wall to throw darts at to evaluate, to devalue, to label as something only you want me to be.
Or as something only you don’t want me to be.
What’s written on your mind’s wall about me isn’t reality.
What I want you to know, I WILL TELL YOU
Your job is to listen
Your job is to understand
Your job is compassion
Your job is not to decide, define, redefine, label, criticize some image of me that only lives in your mind.
Because doing that is a form of emotional abuse, & I won’t tolerate it.
Jun 25, 2022
Jun 25, 2022 at 5:13 PM UTC
§atire
You're a heated moment
You come on strong,
Go the same away
You're sprung;
Like midday in May
June, August you're so far gone,
Before long
You're forgotten past the leaves of November,
On to December
You love not kind
You love not tender
You love not true
You love not do
When where was I
But in a heated moment,
Ceded a goodbye
May 24, 2022
May 24, 2022 at 4:01 AM UTC
You find it as though you never left it
Left off, the truth you find
Left over
The lies you leave behind
I'll never be too old for dumb
For reasons of being too young
I anticipate to fall fate at a time too late
To experience sober
Come over, come over
My reluctance is high sprung
I tell you of trying times
For reasons of those which even I know not of why;
Left to chance, wasn't an option
Many times have I found try
Even if not among the rest, to be best
Tried & true, I still carry inside my chest
Lessons learned somehow still at rest
Little do I know
But experience, nonetheless
Cold shoulder to cold shoulder
How I cry, no matter the why
Exhibiting symptoms
Of past resentment
Pretention
I bear down apprehension
Though, not failing to mention
I put my pride up for trade
To bid wade, to draw attention
In place
Retention
Tension
In its place
All that I have lost; Redemption
Sick as sorrow
The needles vein I will borrow
Will beg & become of tomorrow;
But for today a heated drum
Banging words that go ***
Bitter shame
Brighter shun
Perhaps I have come too far undone
Outdone
I'm spun
Anyone??
The sun above
My feelings below
I think too much
I think
I think about my head hitting a pillow
Muffling the sounds my heart yearns to wallow
When ever I think of all I've done & said,
Of all I'm ashamed of
My hands are always holding my head
I reach for a release
A quick yet satisfying cease
Before long
Sense begins to
Ease
I'm rich & famous
Were all lies, the blame is
Inside of me; the name is
Melanie
All the times I've been awake to witness a new sunrise
I left the lies
I held hope up
But the feelings that surmise
Couldnt keep my head up
It just illuminized
More revealutions, I came up
Brightened my eyes
I saught to see it all add up
That is the truth, I see
I say this as I see it
All lies left behind
One with, I've gone & done it
The truth, I've come to find
Brings much ease of mind
I've become it
The truth was up to find
It knows not of bounds
Truth is where the heart lies
Founded truth, is homeward bound;
Lies I left behind, for truth to found
Left behind all the wonder
Lies awake
Shake, shiver, & without cover
Would be a mistake
Anything other
You're sure to discover
Lying awake;
Open enough to recover
tremble, you soon recover
Needs revised
Aug 16, 2021
Aug 16, 2021 at 4:48 AM UTC
.
Hope right here
revere .
on my chest
hard x
hd
premium tv
I hang on
because
hope needs me
.
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 10:57 AM UTC
Provided I refill my insecurity
For every moment it assure's me
The definition to define
Is inherently mind
I need stability
this **** is killing me
Wasted yesterday on anticipation
gave my living room exhibition inflation
By tonight I'll be coming undone
you're not here and already
I am impatient..
And uranus
Sep 11, 2020
Sep 11, 2020 at 10:33 PM UTC
Toothless loser
Afraid of commitment,
Insecure
Chaos, Confusion
Environmental pollution;
Counterproductive delusion
Self righteous
Assuming,
Projecting; polluting
Disrespectful
Bad example,
Toxic
Conclusion
If not for you, I'd never know what it truly means to be miserable..
Mar 30, 2019
Mar 30, 2019 at 6:39 AM UTC
You bread fear and vulnerability
little by little you killed me
by intimidation
You thrived off of my instability; my humility
You thrived off me being vulnerable impaired
You left me haunted and scared
Drowning I couldn’t breathe air
Not fair
In my terror is when I found my faith that the devil is real
I was so scared
I was alone falling unsure and naive
I was innocent and unaware
You violated me
Repeatedly
The way I looked at the world
The way I perceived it
The way I perceive people
The feeling of safety
Kindness
Empathy compassion
Justice
Peace
Power
Love control
Youleft me ruined shattered
Tortured
Vulnerable
You battered disrespected degraded and
And disregarded my spirit
You denied my feelings my thoughts my beliefs my request my despair
because remember, feeling isnt fair
My willingness to make love not war
I
Mar 16, 2018
Mar 16, 2018 at 8:18 AM UTC
Hopes that I get on a daytime schedule
Hopes for actions to come of my words
Hopes of prosper that sprinkles out of me
Hopes of slave to become of me??
Bull ****
Stay white then
As for me
A
Z 123
Im all over the prospects
The possibilities.
I dont define the sky as blue
cause I ain't you
Im me,
Im not near all that ill ever be
Please dont believe me
Its not your bussiness
Your bussiness is suffering & business is good.
Ill go to my local supermarket, you keep ******** where you eat.
Quit eating, it only perpetuates more self insecurity
God hates you
cause your ******* ugly
Uh der
Yea
So what?
Be prettier.
Or get all mad.
Cause yea what good that does you.
It is the woman that are **** when mad
But to be **** as a man
Youd have to be james dean
or some hunk hot thing machine
Jan 10, 2017
Jan 10, 2017 at 11:54 PM UTC
Caught up in the laws you provide
In order to survive
Who you are and WHY??!!
you are so catastrophically
****** up in your ******* mind
DOES NOT MATTER TO ME
Nor does the idea "not scared of any judge anymore"
**** block all you want,
I'm still gonna score..
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 11:19 PM UTC
Regurgitating
All regret ascertaining,
Complaining..
So to speaking
To start saying,
Little red roaring rare
So feral
is it not fair
Debating whether she
Turns down up and coming
To spare into the night
Thoughtful plight,
And she might
Feb 24, 2016
Feb 24, 2016 at 1:56 AM UTC