In the end,
Each one is to himself
a haunted house.
The monsters grow big feeding on the
thoughts we won't air out.
Cobwebs form from private fears, and the stairs creak beneath our heavy doubts.
Let a little light in,
you're not as scary as you tell yourself.
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 3:53 PM UTC
I am the very bottom of a bag of chips
Small and Broken
Too Fragmented to be Functional
Too Crushed to carry the salsa to your mouth
you should just throw me out !
Open up a new one
It's what I would do-
But you don't!
I'll never figure you out.
Aug 15, 2017
Aug 15, 2017 at 12:00 PM UTC
If I'm to find you,
Let me find you in the shade
The sun reveals too much
I might scare and run away
If I'm to love you
Let me love you slowly
over time
I'm so rapidly wrapped up
Still more rapidly
untied.
I've always thought I needed
this feeling of flying
But I could try
s l o w and s t e a d y
Less free fall,
more climbing
It isn't fair
Spinning you around like this
I know.
But I'm no good at gardening
Always pulling
flowers up
before they can grow.
Jun 25, 2017
Jun 25, 2017 at 10:26 PM UTC
I wear my heart on my sleeve,
But please, don't misinterpret my emotional ravings to mean that
You know me .
I have a dozen different hearts,
I can change them like cuffs
That's why I don't guard them
too closely.
I'll cut myself open,
Spill my guts in an instant,
Because
Answering your questions,
Before you can ask them,
Is how I control
which ones
get asked.
I'll tell my sad story with a joke at the end
nail the timing
I guarantee you they will only remember
My laugh
I am open to the point of being closed
I am open to the point of being closed
I'm a theme park with gates left unlocked for so long
that eventually
nobody goes.
Jun 22, 2017
Jun 22, 2017 at 12:14 PM UTC
You got me hooked on Moleskin journals.
It might not seem like much,
but when you consider that it's the vessel
into which I daily pour myself,
Like some bank account, holding all my emotional savings,
it's a pretty substantial influence.
So thanks.
You got me hooked on being known.
Not the "name her favorite color/album/flavor" kind of known.
The "ask me how I am, because you hear the trace amounts of fakeness in my laughter" kind of known.
Before you,
I thought being loved was like being admired but on steroids.
Now I see it's more like
a quiet walk
home from class every evening.
there are a dozen other ways,
different bike routes or
back roads you could take
but you would never think to.
Your day would be incomplete without the path your feet
first were drawn to,
you can't bear to miss it
the winding bends in the road and the blossoms you always pause to breathe in.
both familiar and new every evening.
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 12:41 PM UTC
I've discovered your indifference
burns stronger
than any shot of whiskey
and, unlike whiskey,
there is no grandfather's secret tomato juice recipe
to cure the hangover
your c a s u a l interest
gives me.
your kisses leave me dizzy
but their lack of substance gives me
a sugar headache
I've never been held so gently
but under such temporary tenderness
my bones bend and break
your compliments strike me
like foul ***** during a game
they always sound good when they smack
against the bat
but at the end of the inning
they don't count.
I wish I could sweep you off your feet
The way you swept me off of mine.
But we were not built like planes or rockets,
We can't both be airborne at the same time.
May 9, 2017
May 9, 2017 at 8:08 PM UTC
just like that
there was a switch in her mind that flipped
And reasonable democracy
gave way
to sovereign dictatorship
something about the way you cradled your coffee mug in your palm
while trying to open the car door and talk on the phone to your brother
at the same time
took away her option of resistance
She became overwhelmed by the way you leaned your body against door frames and talked with both hands
The way you concentrated
every time you stirred your coffee with a spoon
They all became like a flood to her and in that forceful deluge, her list of pros and cons washed away and she was left with only you.
clumsy, beautiful you.
May 9, 2017
May 9, 2017 at 8:00 PM UTC
You and me come
From the same places and people
Same squinty blue eyes
Over morning bowls of cereal
Same burning passion for ginger ale, home fries and tea
same fear of commitment
same insecurities
I've always been afraid of you
Being too much
like me
But I am the most
unoriginal person
I know
I guess I was scared you would do a better job imitating my idols
It's been hard to watch you grow
But despite my childish competitive nature,
I'm happily defeated
You won me over
Sincerely,
Your biggest critic
And your most ardent admirer
May 9, 2017
May 9, 2017 at 6:03 PM UTC