MatthewPetrie - Hello Poetry

One day you wake up and realize you’re broken You don’t know how to be fixed You look for options But after awhile you realize you can’t be fixed The cracks will always remain The scars will not fade The pain you’ve gone through has stained your heart black Emptied your own mind of the feeling of happiness The lack of joy means nothing to you anymore At first it’s frustrating you don’t know what to do You feel alone As loneliness becomes your comfort zone you forget what real love feels like It’s been this way for a long time now I’m used to being the way I am I don’t remember what it’s like to be happy People say destiny isn’t set in stone I can’t agree with that I’ve learned life is simple Cruel and absolute And that’s the hard truth You can’t fix it Once broken you can repair what’s left But that doesn’t change the fact it’s still broken Broken is all I am And it’s all I’ll ever be

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Dec 20, 2021

Dec 20, 2021 at 7:26 AM UTC

Broken

One day you wake up and realize you’re broken You don’t know how to be fixed You look for options But after awhile you realize you can’t be fixed The cracks will always remain The scars will not fade The pain you’ve gone through has stained your heart black Emptied your own mind of the feeling of happiness The lack of joy means nothing to you anymore At first it’s frustrating you don’t know what to do You feel alone As loneliness becomes your comfort zone you forget what real love feels like It’s been this way for a long time now I’m used to being the way I am I don’t remember what it’s like to be happy People say destiny isn’t set in stone I can’t agree with that I’ve learned life is simple Cruel and absolute And that’s the hard truth You can’t fix it Once broken you can repair what’s left But that doesn’t change the fact it’s still broken Broken is all I am And it’s all I’ll ever be

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Life seem pointless at most times I used to look upon the stars with the declaration of hope Now all I see is darkness The world I used to view as black and white has turned into shades of grey No true right nor wrong I see things in a different manner then when I was younger The true pain this world bestows onto others is nothing more then a farce The conviction I used to hold myself to has faded More then it should have I used to look toward a light at the end of the tunnel But it just stretches ever so more I don’t know what to do I have the plan of pushing forward like I always have But I can shake the idea of killing myself I’ve become so numb to the point of what feels like no return Fake smiles and dry tears is all I seem to have left Life is just so pointless As least it does to me

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Sep 13, 2020

Sep 13, 2020 at 2:46 AM UTC

Why Do I Stay

Life seem pointless at most times I used to look upon the stars with the declaration of hope Now all I see is darkness The world I used to view as black and white has turned into shades of grey No true right nor wrong I see things in a different manner then when I was younger The true pain this world bestows onto others is nothing more then a farce The conviction I used to hold myself to has faded More then it should have I used to look toward a light at the end of the tunnel But it just stretches ever so more I don’t know what to do I have the plan of pushing forward like I always have But I can shake the idea of killing myself I’ve become so numb to the point of what feels like no return Fake smiles and dry tears is all I seem to have left Life is just so pointless As least it does to me

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Is it wrong to be a burden Is it wrong all I think about is hurting myself Is it wrong all I want is to hurt myself To end my suffering To end the pain I’ve inflicted on others To end the pain I’ve inflicted on myself Is it wrong I want the one thing that’s supposed to be forbidden A bitter sweet ending Is it wrong not to want to burden others Is it wrong for me to be selfish It seems that’s all I’ve ever been Is it wrong Is it bad To make others feel sad Or would being eternally alone make the world a better place Is it wrong I want such things for myself Is it sad that’s all I think about Is it bad I’m about to do something that might make some people feel sad M.P.

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Aug 21, 2020

Aug 21, 2020 at 12:46 AM UTC

Is It Wrong

Is it wrong to be a burden Is it wrong all I think about is hurting myself Is it wrong all I want is to hurt myself To end my suffering To end the pain I’ve inflicted on others To end the pain I’ve inflicted on myself Is it wrong I want the one thing that’s supposed to be forbidden A bitter sweet ending Is it wrong not to want to burden others Is it wrong for me to be selfish It seems that’s all I’ve ever been Is it wrong Is it bad To make others feel sad Or would being eternally alone make the world a better place Is it wrong I want such things for myself Is it sad that’s all I think about Is it bad I’m about to do something that might make some people feel sad M.P.

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There is comfort in loneliness It allows you time to think Times of joy And times of sorrow My thoughts always seem to weigh me down Like the world is on my shoulders Lately the weight of the world is to hard to handle I feel myself slipping again To a place no one belongs I ask myself will I do it this time Will I finally let myself be at peace Succumb to the sadness in my heart Or finally learn to let it go There is comfort in my loneliness That I’m certain I have found But it doesn’t help to fill the void inside of me It seems nothing will Not many understand how I truly feel And I don’t think they ever will It’s hard to breath Like I’m at the bottom of the ocean All alone And no matter how loud I scream I just can’t be heard It’s hard being alone It’s been like this from the start Ever sense I can remember I’ve fallen apart I’m broken and bruised For the world to see I keep my thoughts inside where they can destroy me And it hurts It really does But I feel that’s what’s best for me To not be a burden to my friends And family I’ve learned to be cold To shelter my heart Because anyone I let in breaks it apart One thing I’ll never forget Is that loneliness is my best friend It never betrays me And when that day shall come It will have never left my side I know it’ll welcome me To it’s cold dark place Where it’ll comfort me for the rest of time M.P.

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Jul 20, 2020

Jul 20, 2020 at 3:49 AM UTC

There is comfort in my loneliness

There is comfort in loneliness It allows you time to think Times of joy And times of sorrow My thoughts always seem to weigh me down Like the world is on my shoulders Lately the weight of the world is to hard to handle I feel myself slipping again To a place no one belongs I ask myself will I do it this time Will I finally let myself be at peace Succumb to the sadness in my heart Or finally learn to let it go There is comfort in my loneliness That I’m certain I have found But it doesn’t help to fill the void inside of me It seems nothing will Not many understand how I truly feel And I don’t think they ever will It’s hard to breath Like I’m at the bottom of the ocean All alone And no matter how loud I scream I just can’t be heard It’s hard being alone It’s been like this from the start Ever sense I can remember I’ve fallen apart I’m broken and bruised For the world to see I keep my thoughts inside where they can destroy me And it hurts It really does But I feel that’s what’s best for me To not be a burden to my friends And family I’ve learned to be cold To shelter my heart Because anyone I let in breaks it apart One thing I’ll never forget Is that loneliness is my best friend It never betrays me And when that day shall come It will have never left my side I know it’ll welcome me To it’s cold dark place Where it’ll comfort me for the rest of time M.P.

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Up late Like I always am Thinking suicide sould be my plan Been depressed sense eight Going on ten Years go by so slow Yet time flys by so fast I still live every day As if it’s my last Although I feel alone I’ve come to peace with it My days are numbered Soon I’ll leave my home MP

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Jun 1, 2019

Jun 1, 2019 at 11:20 PM UTC

Why is it that I feel so empty

Up late Like I always am Thinking suicide sould be my plan Been depressed sense eight Going on ten Years go by so slow Yet time flys by so fast I still live every day As if it’s my last Although I feel alone I’ve come to peace with it My days are numbered Soon I’ll leave my home MP

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You’re told not to hate yourself You’re told not to cry You’re told to be happy When you just want to die Every day is the same Encumbered with pain As you lay there alone Engulfed with silence You feel at home By yourself Like you always are They say to be glad It can’t be that bad But they don’t know How it feels to be alone

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 4:38 AM UTC

Loneliness

You’re told not to hate yourself You’re told not to cry You’re told to be happy When you just want to die Every day is the same Encumbered with pain As you lay there alone Engulfed with silence You feel at home By yourself Like you always are They say to be glad It can’t be that bad But they don’t know How it feels to be alone

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