Maria_h - Hello Poetry

I have this aching feeling inside of me I feel as if my chest is being torn apart piece by piece. It has come out of nowhere. I feel it deep inside of me, and it's hurting. I feel like SCREAMING. I want to cry. it becomes uncontrollable. I need to rip my heart out. I want it to stop. What is happening to me? What is this feeling? I've never felt this way before I'm falling apart and I don't understand. What is causing my wanting to rip apart open my chest? I need to relieve this intense, insatiable, itching inside of me. I am in pain and I don't know why.

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Jun 17, 2021

Jun 17, 2021 at 12:33 PM UTC

I need to rip my heart out

I have this aching feeling inside of me I feel as if my chest is being torn apart piece by piece. It has come out of nowhere. I feel it deep inside of me, and it's hurting. I feel like SCREAMING. I want to cry. it becomes uncontrollable. I need to rip my heart out. I want it to stop. What is happening to me? What is this feeling? I've never felt this way before I'm falling apart and I don't understand. What is causing my wanting to rip apart open my chest? I need to relieve this intense, insatiable, itching inside of me. I am in pain and I don't know why.

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When I fall in love I become obsessed. Anger, Jealousy, possessiveness, it all controls me. All my insecurities exposed, my anxieties come out of obscurity. For rejection, unrequited love and deceptions, I have no immunity. But falling in love requires false expectations.

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Jun 15, 2021

Jun 15, 2021 at 8:45 PM UTC

Love makes me Dangerous

When I fall in love I become obsessed. Anger, Jealousy, possessiveness, it all controls me. All my insecurities exposed, my anxieties come out of obscurity. For rejection, unrequited love and deceptions, I have no immunity. But falling in love requires false expectations.

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A conjunction of two words, each separately has its own meaning. The soul is the immaterial part of what makes us human. The intellectual energy that makes one immortal. A mate is one of a kind. A companion. So how does one know if you have truly found your soulmate?

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Jun 13, 2021

Jun 13, 2021 at 2:09 PM UTC

Soulmates

A conjunction of two words, each separately has its own meaning. The soul is the immaterial part of what makes us human. The intellectual energy that makes one immortal. A mate is one of a kind. A companion. So how does one know if you have truly found your soulmate?

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We broke up 2 years ago well, you did, and since then I must tell you I think about you all the time To me, it doesn't feel it has passed a single day this wound still feels fresh like it was yesterday.

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May 25, 2021

May 25, 2021 at 8:21 AM UTC

I guess this is the truth

We broke up 2 years ago well, you did, and since then I must tell you I think about you all the time To me, it doesn't feel it has passed a single day this wound still feels fresh like it was yesterday.

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Though I may look like any other piece of glass No one wants to see in me and so by me they pass Because I am broken I am cracked, 4 broken pieces to be exact. I see their reflection staring back Disillusioned with me Once they knew I couldn’t fix them When I was the one that needed to be set free. Im sitting on the shelf waiting to be bought By the brave soul who will take me as I am Someone who just won’t give a **** Just because I am a crystal ball It doesn't mean I’ll give you what you want. The hope, the faith you have in me That I can give you what you want me to be. But the truth is you will be afraid of what’s to come And maybe you’ll understand where it came from. Once you see inside, you’ll be afraid of what I hide There is grief and there is anger But most of all there is revenge, Can amends be made Or will it be the end?

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Apr 19, 2021

Apr 19, 2021 at 12:06 AM UTC

Broken

Though I may look like any other piece of glass No one wants to see in me and so by me they pass Because I am broken I am cracked, 4 broken pieces to be exact. I see their reflection staring back Disillusioned with me Once they knew I couldn’t fix them When I was the one that needed to be set free. Im sitting on the shelf waiting to be bought By the brave soul who will take me as I am Someone who just won’t give a **** Just because I am a crystal ball It doesn't mean I’ll give you what you want. The hope, the faith you have in me That I can give you what you want me to be. But the truth is you will be afraid of what’s to come And maybe you’ll understand where it came from. Once you see inside, you’ll be afraid of what I hide There is grief and there is anger But most of all there is revenge, Can amends be made Or will it be the end?

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I’ve taken the monster out of the cage today. I suppose it was bound to happen at some point. This is what happens when you tempt a beast in hiding. Like my father’s sobriety, I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.

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Apr 17, 2021

Apr 17, 2021 at 11:44 PM UTC

I am a hypocrite and a liar.

I’ve taken the monster out of the cage today. I suppose it was bound to happen at some point. This is what happens when you tempt a beast in hiding. Like my father’s sobriety, I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.

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there’s this thirst inside of me, a monster who enrages my insides and tears me apart once you feed the monster, there’s no stopping me. I binge. And after comes the guilt and the shame and there’s no self-control. the monster inside me was right, so I got up, and flushed almost everything inside me down the rabbit hole. I knew I shouldn't have done that, but it was better to get rid of the guilt physically than let it rot inside my body more than it already was.

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Apr 17, 2021

Apr 17, 2021 at 11:39 PM UTC

The monster inside me

there’s this thirst inside of me, a monster who enrages my insides and tears me apart once you feed the monster, there’s no stopping me. I binge. And after comes the guilt and the shame and there’s no self-control. the monster inside me was right, so I got up, and flushed almost everything inside me down the rabbit hole. I knew I shouldn't have done that, but it was better to get rid of the guilt physically than let it rot inside my body more than it already was.

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Have you ever thought why so many people write about their misfortunes more than about happiness? The word happiness has no specific definition but it is described as emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. But it never lasts long. Every other emotion like rage, suffering, love, pleasure, anger, sadness, etc. Are derived because of the disappearance of happiness. The state of being happy does not last as long as every other emotion because of the hurt, it is engraved in our minds, and in our bodies. The more we live, and the more experiences we encounter, good or bad, have you not realized that happiness isn't a long-lasting, permanent feature or personality trait, but a more fleeting, changeable state. But when we’re unhappy, it never seems to go away, it's always there, even when we try to replace it with the distractions in our environment. We create an alternate reality to avoid our present tense of the things that actually exist because in our minds we have yet to accept the idea that we are not ready. We are unwilling to face it to avoid discomfort because the truth hurts, and it's more comfortable to stay inside our little cave of darkness, than in a place that will blind us with light so bright it hurts your eyes.

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Apr 14, 2021

Apr 14, 2021 at 3:50 PM UTC

~Every other emotion derives from Happiness

Have you ever thought why so many people write about their misfortunes more than about happiness? The word happiness has no specific definition but it is described as emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. But it never lasts long. Every other emotion like rage, suffering, love, pleasure, anger, sadness, etc. Are derived because of the disappearance of happiness. The state of being happy does not last as long as every other emotion because of the hurt, it is engraved in our minds, and in our bodies. The more we live, and the more experiences we encounter, good or bad, have you not realized that happiness isn't a long-lasting, permanent feature or personality trait, but a more fleeting, changeable state. But when we’re unhappy, it never seems to go away, it's always there, even when we try to replace it with the distractions in our environment. We create an alternate reality to avoid our present tense of the things that actually exist because in our minds we have yet to accept the idea that we are not ready. We are unwilling to face it to avoid discomfort because the truth hurts, and it's more comfortable to stay inside our little cave of darkness, than in a place that will blind us with light so bright it hurts your eyes.

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I opened my heart again to this boy who I thought was different. He knew what hurt me, he knew what angered me, He knew exactly what not to do And that's exactly everything he did

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Mar 21, 2021

Mar 21, 2021 at 9:41 PM UTC

Why am I treated this way?

I opened my heart again to this boy who I thought was different. He knew what hurt me, he knew what angered me, He knew exactly what not to do And that's exactly everything he did

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when someone is hurting I want to help them heal. I want to be close to them and hug them, I will give them all my attention I will listen to all their problems and give all the advice with the best intention But when it comes to me no one will give me their time no one will listen to me no one will give me a good advice Someone help me I think I have a problem I care too much...

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Mar 21, 2021

Mar 21, 2021 at 9:18 PM UTC

I think I have a problem...

when someone is hurting I want to help them heal. I want to be close to them and hug them, I will give them all my attention I will listen to all their problems and give all the advice with the best intention But when it comes to me no one will give me their time no one will listen to me no one will give me a good advice Someone help me I think I have a problem I care too much...

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