"Just one more time."
she said
"Then I'll stop."
but such comfort
in pain
it stays when
nobody else does
and that almost
makes it
worth it.
Jul 20, 2022
Jul 20, 2022 at 1:25 PM UTC
do not
call me beautiful
tell me that even
in the depths of
sorrow
you see me.
tell me that you see
how it lights up my heart
when a pretty sunset
ends my day.
tell me that you see
the way I talk
when I'm describing my
favorite book.
tell me that you see
everyday I tear myself down
and tell me you hate it,
tell me to stop
tell me that you see
my heart and my soul
not just the visibility
Jul 20, 2022
Jul 20, 2022 at 1:21 PM UTC
every time someone leaves
they take a piece of me with them
but what happens when I have nothing left
what happens when they take it all
leaving me with nothing
no more heart
No more soul
no more love
Is that the goal?
piece by piece
I fade away
and one day
I will cease to exist
Jul 20, 2022
Jul 20, 2022 at 12:27 PM UTC
They always ask me why I make myself sad
No one ever taught me to be happy
being sad is better than feeling nothing at all
Better than that numbness
It consumes you
Breaks you
Freezes your heart over
Until you feel nothing
Until you don’t care about anything at all
I Just want to feel something
Anything
So I sit alone
And cry
Because it’s the only thing I know how to do
Feb 27, 2020
Feb 27, 2020 at 6:54 PM UTC
I’m in love with life
I love waking up early to watch the sunrise
Going with the flow, everything’s a surprise
Spending all my time with friends
Long car rides, nights that never end
Sitting on the roof staring at the stars
Thinking the whole would is ours
even the bad days
When you’re just sitting in a haze
Wondering when it’s gonna get better
But so what if it doesn’t get better
At least your alive
At least you feel something
Fall in love with life
Never regret anything
Enjoy every second of everyday
Even the bad ones
Because you only get one chance
One chance at this beautiful thing we call life
Jul 27, 2019
Jul 27, 2019 at 1:26 AM UTC
“Have you ever been in love?”She asked
“I don’t think so,” he replied
If you were in love you would know it
Because it’s different
Different that your average crush
Or your summertime fling
You care so much and you don’t realize what you got yourself into
Until it’s too late
Until you’ve fallen
“I fell in love once,” she said.
He was a kind smart wonderful boy
And I loved him
But he didn’t love me
There’s a reason why we call it falling in love
Not rising
It’s the art of the fall
You don’t know if someone will catch you
you don’t know how bad it’s going to hurt
But sometimes we can be so so careful
And still fall
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 11:59 PM UTC
You look at the sky while I look at you
You see all the stars
And I see them too
But for the most part I only see you
Jun 3, 2019
Jun 3, 2019 at 10:33 PM UTC
I’m still not over you
It’s been so long
I’m so done
I still lay in bed and wonder why I wasn’t good enough
Even now if you called me and said you loved me
Or even that you cared
I would run straight back to you
And I hate myself for that
I just want to be over you
But I still want you to be in my life
I still want to talk to you
I still care
I will always care
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 9:33 PM UTC
Life, may or may not be about finding true love
But, it's certainly not about begging for it from someone so
I'll keep doing the things that I do
Late nights, fat blunts, pizza pies with my crew
Driving home from whatever bar's half-off after two
While I'm blasting my favorite tunes and
Seeing my favorite local bands at whatever venues
While you keep doing the things that you do, shifting blame, and twisting truth
And making absolutely positively sure that everybody in the room is certain
That the victim just had to be you, well
I'll keep doing the things that I do
And I'll find someone who wants me like I wanted you
So sing along at a show this weekend
Act a fool, get drunk with these friends, that you love
Someone somewhere said all good things end
So what in my mind made me think this time would be different
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 9:52 PM UTC
I’m in love with a mystery
I never see him in the same place
But I feel him in the breeze
He is a warm summer night
Driving in the car with your friends
Listing to your favorite music
He is a thunderstorm
Sitting inside with your dog
Listing to the pitter patter of the rain
And the occasional crash of thunder
He is a spring flower
A gentle breeze
A drop of water
He is an ocean
A tornado
A hurricane
And I love him
But he could never love me
And I could never make him
Dec 28, 2018
Dec 28, 2018 at 2:37 PM UTC