He never kisses me
tells me he misses me
holds my hand
It's all falling apart
Can we go back to the start?
You've grasped my heart
It's not fair to expect so much
But as I reach to feel your touch
I can't help but tighten my clutch
It's all fallen apart
We aren't together
but I believed your 'forever'
It's just not good enough
Waiting it out hurts
but an ending would be worse
My hopes only grow to be crushed
So I'll just wait in pain
and wait and wait and wait...
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 11:31 AM UTC
In your arms it feels so safe
In your arms I fit in place
But the words you say and acts you do
Make me question which is true
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 12:41 PM UTC
Loneliness- the blankest canvas
She paints her face like painting on her mask
Adding clothes to fill in your perception
Dark thoughts hidden by pretty blue windows
She can tell you what you want to hear
She can tell you some pretty words
Chatting away, just like anyone else
For her, it only requires a little more stealth
To meet her, it’ll be your pleasure
But her real thoughts are hidden like a buried treasure
Demanding a hunt and skillful measures
May 24, 2014
May 24, 2014 at 6:50 PM UTC
The laughs piercing through like jagged knives
Scraping though the ears, throat, heart…
They claw their way in-I cannot shut it out
A casual moment to the world no doubt
Shut up
Is this being done on purpose?
I know feeling this ****** isn’t worth it
Why do I care so much?
Are people just that interchangeable?
You avoid my eyes I avoid your company
Do you notice these things?
Do you edit your acts too?
I know I shouldn’t care what you do
You understood me
Eyes revealed secret confessions
Only you knew
And now our eyes shall never meet
Our bodies never touch
In fear it would be too much
We’ve replaced the roles
But not the insight
You saw my best
Sympathized about the rest
And noted everything else
Fluid and in sync
But now that has changed
You've left me in a mental mess
and I’ve tried to clean mine up
Allowing honesty to seep through
Now the spotlight shines on you
You’re next move?
Not what I expect
You should feel no regret
For me, it’s impossible to forget
You wear it daily on your face
It comes out in our shared space
Your name for me has changed
Mirroring a greater change
Will we ever mimic normalcy
What goes on in that head?
Silent to no end
Maybe this time apart
Can give you semi fresh start
That’s not what I want
But what I want is never an option
I don’t want to forget how it was
I don’t regret how it was
I’ll miss that more than I’ll admit
I like the match and how we fit
But you’ve outgrown me
No efforts to reconnect
Don’t know if it’s possible
I just hope you remember when it was good
So someone can smile at the past
Our fluid conversations are dead
Stupid issues many in your head
I’ve never done this before
No thanks, I’m done
Broken and sore
Recovery is my new chore
May 24, 2014
May 24, 2014 at 6:37 PM UTC
The world is not black and white
Unlike my pages
I cannot box you in
I cannot figure you out
Not a game of loss and win
Only confusing actions I doubt
Simplicity was never an option
Illusions to take comfort
Colours spill from all directions
No eraser for permanent lines
So I can just try
To bottle my confessions
So no one can ever know
Of the many marks you left
Hidden- I dare not show
Apr 26, 2013
Apr 26, 2013 at 4:44 AM UTC
Blank page: you intimidate me
I try to fill you up
With black
But it looks like dirt
Sharp Words
Harsh scratches-
Rigid on the page
Aligned unnaturally
Just
Empty
Space
To fill
My thoughts do not thrill
Victory-the blankness has been killed
Mar 11, 2013
Mar 11, 2013 at 3:26 PM UTC
the steam of rage cloud the mind
the mind melts but does not cry
the tears are for no one to hear
the sounds of sadness, amplify fear
the fear to live like the fear to die
cannot escape, we all know why
Sep 9, 2012
Sep 9, 2012 at 10:55 PM UTC
Need a medium to express
My internal regress
Mental capacity fading fast
No way to form thoughts of the past
Words, art, song
All quite wrong
No way to describe
What I keep inside
Now this will have to do
While I sit and stew
Apr 15, 2012
Apr 15, 2012 at 1:19 AM UTC
I got you now
A verbal trap
There's no way out
When I see a weakness I can crack
Little girl, better watch your back
Cuz' I got skills that you lack
You're pathetic attempts
Are just no match
For me- just keep arguing and you'll see
Bad motives look golden
You just gotta learn when to raise the stakes and when to fold em'
Mar 1, 2012
Mar 1, 2012 at 10:51 PM UTC
She knows her every desire
That her mind and body require
With a rythmic mind
Notes that form a line
Sway and bounce to the sound
Shut up it can never be too loud
She knows how to lose it
When up turns the music
Smiles carefree and easy
Taste may verge on cheesy
Turn up your rock and roll
Start to lose control
She knows how to move
When they play her grove
Sunny days in Auzzie's land
Playing all day in the sand
Spends her time by the water
Watching as the sun makes it hotter
A moving mindless sway
Is how she likes to play
Growing her appetite for ffun
A bright white smile to helplessly stun
Her name in every song
So catchy you'll want to sing along
19 forever young
Now go out to celebrate your fun!
Feb 27, 2012
Feb 27, 2012 at 3:59 PM UTC