I miss you
I miss me
Like a furnace I was fed with coal and fuel
but I was quite …
Spitting out fire sparks every now and then
Hurting no one but myself
The heat pushed you away …
Pushed everyone away
Except for those who accidentally caught fire!
In an attempt to cool down I blew steam into my soul
Melting down every good memory …
I thought by burning them down I would have nothing to lose … no one to mistrust… no one to “mislove”…
I thought the calm ashes would finally bring me peace …
Now here I am standing -buried in the suffocating ashes- waiting for a phoenix to emerge …
I can see no phoenixes leaving this furnace …
Mar 27, 2022
Mar 27, 2022 at 2:34 PM UTC
Brown pages
Cataract Lenses
Polaroids
and a smile
fading in my words
written with a pencil on
Brown pages
Nov 20, 2021
Nov 20, 2021 at 1:48 PM UTC
If you just wait till I get to the end of my sentence you will hear
The rolling ,rumbling ,howling waves come to a tickling calmness...
kissing my anxiety’s toes ...
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 8:57 AM UTC
Its brightness compels me to peek through the truth
To observe the gray
To listen to stories told by painted lines
And to find my way
through channels dug by grief
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 5:32 PM UTC
How can you ever hug someone who’s too broken to fit themselves into your arms
How can you collect their pieces if every time you touch them you bleed ...
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 6:52 PM UTC
I want the world to notice the spark of hope residing in my eyes
I want to help all people
I want to share my experience with the entire world
I want to shout out loud my dreams
I want to spend my life learning, teaching, studying, reading, writing, watching ...
I want to make a difference in the lives of all those I meet ... even the evil ones!
I want to meet their insecurities with my high self esteem ,Their cruelty with the loads of love hidden in my huge heart and their hurtful plans with forgiving prayers ...
I want to be me again ...
Jan 9, 2020
Jan 9, 2020 at 5:34 AM UTC
My age is nothing but 26 years of pseudo experience buried deep into my unexplainably sad eyes ...
Jul 28, 2019
Jul 28, 2019 at 9:04 AM UTC
He left
Because when he looks in my eyes he sees sheer excitement peaking through dark shades of sorrow
Because when he listens to my voice he hears thunder
Because when he looks at my body he is struck by the radiating strength that forces tears out of his eyes
My smile sends paralyzing pulses down his spine
He left
Because he gets dizzy when his pupils are obliged to follow my hand gestures
When I unfold my shoulders, raise my chin and say „I love you“
He left
Because it’s too much ...
Because it‘s too strong ...
Because I’m too strong ...
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 5:09 PM UTC
Arranged meetings
Arranged greetings
Arranged smiles and well designed spoken lines ...
They always give me orders:
“Now sit ... speak ...
Introduce your self ... No, wait the girl doesn’t speak ...
just listen ...
Listen till your temper starts to peak ...
Be nice, Be kind ...
Ignore his immature idiotic mind ... “
So I sit and I listen and I ignore ... but I speak!
And when I speak ... the freak ... disappears!
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 7:22 AM UTC
Slam the door shut
on my dreams
In my heart
Carve a deep cut
It no longer feels
Pain ...
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 4:25 PM UTC