As I write this poem,
I feel pain at all.
As I type the sorrows of odds,
Internal locust is on call.
As I close my eyes
Dark past haunts me the most
As the time goes by
My heart trembles, not fall.
Tomorrow might be another day
But I will choose to stay away.
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 10:10 AM UTC
I woke up late
And try to wake
the happy state
of my inner sane
But, as I move along the way
I felt that there is no other play
that I can raise
the happy state
because as I intake the meds
and remove the shelf of craze
I can see myself
lost in space.
That the happy state
was no longer my pace.
I already taste
the bitterness phase
of you leaving my maze
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 5:12 AM UTC
If love is a feeling,
Why do I thought of you
throughout the night
without my emotional side?
If I made you feel thrown out?
why do I bother writing your name
all over the place
while loosing my pace?
If I told you why can't I feel it
why bother losing my sanity
over my kudini isn't a question
and wasn't an option, but a decision?
If I don't love you anymore?
how can you be so sure
I don't have it anymore?
and lingering for more?
if I only feel
but I do, dear.
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 7:54 PM UTC
Stars beneath the trees we see.
As we drink the last bottle of beers
And I got sober because of this.
Then the truth set me free
Drunk and inlove to you is my theme
And when I told you how I feel
You laughed and smiled about it
And answered in a manner I can't remember.
Then we head home drunk and sober
While I was driving , you're leaving marks on my body
Then we reached home.
Love was filling the air.
The last thing I remember,
Was when you told me how you feel
For almost a year you kept for real
And that moment I don't know here
For 4 years of waiting and 3 times of rejected wee wee.
For the 4th time, she said yes to be with me.
And that is the best decision that kept me for years
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 10:43 AM UTC
I cannot sleep but I can only think of you.
Three days in a row I had difficulty in terms of sleeping on my own.
Like every time I close my eyes,
No power of sleep is cursing inside.
As the tick of the clock suffice,
Your warmth is the nearest comfort I realize.
And the cloud nine scent of your youth
Makes me crave for more of the truth.
It is 11:32pm and I can't still feel
How your broad arms heal
My deepest darkest dream
Like nobody's realm
And now, I'll try to hug my pillow
And cuddle the idea of billow
Beneath starts of forever sorrow
That you will never follow.
As I fell asleep, my dear.
How can you not pamper me like this?
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 10:36 AM UTC
Have you ever experienced
Having your motorcycle towed?
Have your ldruver’s license ground?
Have your work jammed ?
Have yourself broke till ******
It is today,
It is where you relay
Your rant to your mom
About how life did dumb?
Yet, as you finish your day
You eventually take your meds
You eventually took the bus
You eventually realise how rush
Thus, as the bus ran it’s day
As your destination gets closer
You felt the need
To go home and get some beer
To feel the sense
Of belonging
And sense
Of living
Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 4:39 AM UTC
I took the last pill
reserve for this wonderful evening
until I can only feel
the stabilization that heal
as I stare upon the ceiling
I did recall the rhythm
of the hymn that you are singing
before you left me hanging
after you have left me,
I kept on finding
what love is really hiding
yet, I failed to kept on riding
Past keeps on winding
until an idea rewind it
everything I taught was eliminated
because of something that made me haunted
For all the things that I've done
For all the dreams that I have run
For all that I am for now
Because all along, it was only you.
for all this time I thought it was because I love you
But, it is all because I did all along.
so long, my tiger
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 5:02 AM UTC
The taste of your blank
Made me wonder how to be black
Mistress of the past
But was never a passion of lust
An indefinite trust must be ******
As the time bound us
Do you even wonder how to smack?
Or you’re not bothered by my shock?
Dear, the games were done
Remember I told you from the start
Im only into flock
And you keep on denying my facts
Now, informing me how much you felt
It’s too late to get the melt
Be shameful because you’re still wore her pair
Definitely your label is bare
The only things I caress
Is the pillow of my sucess
Jan 5, 2018
Jan 5, 2018 at 9:42 PM UTC
I am falling. In a way of hoping or crawling towards darkness. At first, it was only a small piece of reckless emotions chasing one another. And, there was a thought of manageable continuity of love.
The days with thee was magical and special in terms of dopamine and serotonin rushing through my veins. Felt deeper the words that was light to mention. With split second there was a reply, an acknowledged endearment towards each other.
As day goes by, I felt the gravity pulling me downwards. A sudden shift of grudge and gladness. However, as time goes by, a mild sensation of desire of owning you. Eminent of catching and marrying you. But, earlier I saw the proofs of an undying relationship. Again, the sharp pain elevated. A sudden light bulb of me being a villain. A flashback of thousand words dispersed. The only words invoked. No tears revolved.
Thus, instant idea came up.
I love thee. But, you love thee. Once in a lifetime opportunity of being with thee. You must be happy. As high as you could be without me, in the circles you belong. I’ll let you be. As I let myself be. Choose the right path as God will make a difference in your life. I won’t hope of my own aspirations towards thee but, will continuously pray for thee. And walk through the walks of dusts
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 10:32 AM UTC
I request to thee the woman that’s meant for me.
I hope you’ll be happy while finishing your meals or succeed in any obstacles you might seek.
For all the sorrow and meek.
The lord will hold your hands and lift your soul.
I hope you’ll crave with me in terms of learning and upgrading ourselves.
Then, if your heart goes slow and loose strength in love, I hope someday you’ll find your way towards me as I fight and strive with life we miss.
Please be kind and gentle when you found me. I might be busy building blocks but you might join me. Even if we’ll be together in the future, I hope you’ll have time going to church with me. As I will vow to you, only you.
Forever.
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 10:31 AM UTC