If I lost you
I'd lose nothing
You're nowhere
Nothing
but a haunting
a flutter of chemicals in my brain
a space in my head when I realise you're already gone
Losing you...
Sep 21, 2023
Sep 21, 2023 at 5:07 AM UTC
I was a shipwreck for you
Run aground
Tattered sails hoisted high
Looking at the fair clear breeze
You said lift the anchor
Mistaking a hollow creak for a laugh
And when the woodworm finally took the mast
you cried in outrage
How dare you not sail for me
Not realising
The dry rot eroding your footing on deck
Sep 21, 2023
Sep 21, 2023 at 5:05 AM UTC
this is one of those poems
(I'm sure) you've read them before
It's about you and him
and how you were with me
and even though you're happy
and it does me good to see the pain leaving your eyes
It's about how worthless at times you made me feel (and for all the love i have for you)
it's starting to feel like a relief to be free
Yeah this is one of THOSE
poems
and I am sorry if you come across it
this is hardly a poem
(and probably shouldn't be)
But with all of this
I can't help wondering
What is wrong with me
(And the next line should be: that I put up with it so long, but is in fact still:)
That it wasn't me
Sep 21, 2023
Sep 21, 2023 at 4:55 AM UTC
If I lost you
I'd lose nothing
You're nowhere
Nothing
but a haunting
a flutter of chemicals in my brain
a space in my head when I realise you're already gone
Losing you...
Jul 30, 2023
Jul 30, 2023 at 6:17 AM UTC
but where before this jagged object, this cutting thing rending my soft parts,
has flowered now into a gentle form
floating so ephemeral
pulsing a soft joy
a gentle sadness
I can almost hold it now and let you go
Dec 27, 2022
Dec 27, 2022 at 3:41 AM UTC
Old Herne aromping in the wilds
Perchance exceeds his bound
And in a garden verdant
His hoof'ed feet were found
The careful rows of hellebore
The finely tilled red earth
The bursting bulbs of amaryllis
Enjoying their rebirth
All seemed queer to Herne the Hart
With moss and ivy twined
His ancient heart and wild blue eyes
No sense in this can find
And I realise now
There's no place for this wildness of mine
In your cultivated calm
Dec 13, 2022
Dec 13, 2022 at 4:00 PM UTC
They say there was a river feeding North Africa
the Nile’s dark twin
imagining the rolling grasslands of the Sahara
and the life therein
but all that’s left of the cloud breaks and the gentle herds
is a shadow
seen from a satellite, dark lines in the golden sand
not seen below
and I remember reaching for you
Dec 9, 2022
Dec 9, 2022 at 6:11 AM UTC
When you find the thing unlooked for
When you see what was lost before
When youre broken and you don't know if you can do it anymore
Thoughts will come
Words will come
Time
will come
I wanted you to say
Stay
I wanted you to say
Stay
I wanted you to say
Be here with me
But fear is the leopard in the darkness
Nov 24, 2022
Nov 24, 2022 at 1:39 AM UTC
en ná die storm se kalm
en ná die wind en reën
is die sagtheid van die aarde oorverdowend
my blinde oë
en krom ou hart
lê soos sade en
vrôt in die land
tot onder sterlig een aand
dié muwwe vlies bars
en 'n fyn wit worteltjie
voel-voel die wêreld in kruip
***
and after the storm's calm
and after the wind and rain
the softness of the earth is
deafening
my blind eyes
and crooked old heart
lay like seeds and
rot in the land
'til under the starlight one night
this mouldy membrane burst
and a fine white root
tentatively creeps into the world
Nov 13, 2022
Nov 13, 2022 at 4:17 AM UTC
While you're in love with the light
I turn my back to the sun
I look into the void
I see the stars revolve
I see me look back in return
I turn my back to the sun
I see you out there hiding
A brave face for a ghost
You're a shipwreck tossed about
You're a mountain standing proud
A man a god a child a school of silvery fish
You're in the river and in the Master of the flow
But I am a child of the Tides
And under the power of that siren call
I'm confident in my vision
You can't know what I've seen
But I'm where I need to be
And I do it for me
Nov 8, 2022
Nov 8, 2022 at 12:41 PM UTC