I feel like I’m stuck on a train car,
Dangling over the edge of a cliff.
At this very moment, I am not falling.
I am simply waiting in anticipation, my stomach prepared for the drop at all times.
I can’t see the bottom of the valley,
And the train car is rocking.
Slowly,
Back and forth, back and forth
Ever so slightly moving forward, closer to its demise.
My demise.
Until one day, I’ll fall.
And there no way I can survive.
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 6:19 PM UTC
I sit here on the floor of my bedroom,
And I fantasize about what the future holds.
Maybe I’ll get to see my friends again
Or go to after school clubs
Maybe I’ll grow more confident
And dress how I truly want
Maybe I’ll tell the world
The reality of who I am
Maybe I’ll be myself more often
But I’m scared they won’t understand...
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 6:13 PM UTC
She’s numb
Looking for something, anything
To make her feel something.
Every day feels the same,
There’s no variety,
No excitement,
She’s just living for the day she will finally feel alive again.
Or maybe just living for the day that she won’t live anymore.
Either way, she lives.
She lives for her family,
She lives for her friends,
She lives so that others will too.
She lives.
I really hope she lives.
This means nothing to her anymore,
This waking up,
Eating,
Sleeping,
And repeating.
It’s all just an instinct for her
It no longer feels like each day is new.
It no longer feels like she can live her life to the fullest.
It no longer feels like she can really be truly happy.
It feels like nothingness
There is nothing for her here
She no longer cries
For it does nothing but make her feel worse
She feels less anxious because what’s the point in thinking about things
Nothing is real if you think about it
Your brain is just playing a realistic game
A game of survival
A game of love and loss
The game of life is tough because nobody ever wins.
Apr 5, 2020
Apr 5, 2020 at 6:22 PM UTC
Why?
They ask.
They’re so different from the others
What’s the difference?
Gender is a social construct,
What’s the difference between girls and boys?
Why does there need to be such a means of separation?
Why can’t we all just be human?
They want to be normal
They don’t know where they belong
With the boys?
No.
With the girls?
Maybe.
But, really, they feel best
When they’re with those who are neither.
Not a boy nor a girl,
Just a person
They want to be seen as just a person
Not a girl, a human being.
Because really, what’s the difference?
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 6:43 PM UTC
Stalking in the shadows.
Whispering false truths.
Flaunting their dignified beauty,
Socialites against a wallflower backdrop.
They scratch without leaving a mark,
And stab you in the back without breaking the skin.
Admired, but nobody really knows them
They’re heroic villains.
Humanoid looking, but they’re really ghosts.
Really, creatures of the dark and the bad can still shine in the light if they’re mean enough.
Feb 24, 2020
Feb 24, 2020 at 6:10 PM UTC
L | oving girls
E | ven if people object
S | taring into each other’s eyes
B | eing together
I | n a world where love is love
A| nd you’re accepted for who you are
N| obody can tell you to be someone else
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 11:14 AM UTC
without you
i’m
a cloudy day
raining on other parades
a dark shadow
shedding black thoughts
on the pure and light
a sad poem
waiting for someone
to make me happy again
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 11:09 AM UTC
If
I
Could
Put
You
Anywhere
I
Would
Have
You
Right
Here
In
My
Arms
<3
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 11:04 AM UTC
Those days you feel on fire.
But.....good fire.........
Being with friends,
Laughing until my stomach hurts,
And just being myself without consequences.
Joking with my mom in the kitchen,
Being silly and never saying anything correctly.
Days where I go outside
And I feel alive.
Like I could run forever into the woods that I know will end.
These are my fire days,
What are yours?
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 7:46 AM UTC
Eyes dancing with excitement
Skin tingling with heightened senses
She ran into the night with swift strides
Never to be seen by my eyes again
Feb 7, 2020
Feb 7, 2020 at 4:07 PM UTC