why won't you bruise me
i bruise myself so easily
marks all down my legs
how little effort it would take
colour me up
oh baby
colour me
why do you look at me so gently
it should be intense with lust
eyes full of desire
whisper i love you
but you're a liar
i wish it was wrong
i wish you would make me cry
so that i could live on trusting
the world is disgusting
colour me up
oh baby
colour me
but you hold me like i'm precious
and treat me like your princess
not your mistress
and you did from the start
appreciating my heart
and loving every part
i'm so scared
my world is different
it's uncanny
you're not only teaching me to trust in love
but in people
most importantly
to trust my own happiness
Apr 8, 2024
Apr 8, 2024 at 11:42 PM UTC
i rub your back
and you rub mine
and with the things i lack
you pick up the slack
like a strong green pine
you're a breath of fresh air
oh and im grateful
for each breath that we share
though mine is cold
and it floats in the air
between our kisses
and our sentimental stares
like a strong green pine
you're a breath of fresh air
i bring the winter cold
i bring it with me in my pocket
i freeze the life around me
and the ice fractals grow and trap me
i bring a whirling blizzard
to your feet
but you stand tall
and unphased by me
like a strong green pine
you're a breath of fresh air
i was not prepared
for your arrival
you came into my life
so quietly and gentle
and from the beginning
you put your heart on your sleeve
your courage was inspiring
and from there
my heart was yours to keep
like a strong green pine
your a breath of fresh air
Apr 3, 2024
Apr 3, 2024 at 2:34 AM UTC
one day i'll wake up
put on a cozy sweater
one that'll keep me warm from
the wind
pack up a backpack
fly up oh so far
somewhere i've never ever been
there won't be anyone
i'll leave behind
my nature keeps me alone
maybe somewhere
out in the unknown
the universe will give me
a bone
oh oh and it will be good
oh oh and it will be nice
oh oh and it will be alright
oh oh new home
you'll find me
in an empty park
on days that are too cold
i'll be leaving
trails of smoke
blood rushing to my nose
i can promise
if you see me
your face i will remember
but i am no more
the one you knew before
and i won't look your way
**
v
seems im meant for the road
my heart and my soul
no rest and no home
hope i won't be so lonesome
sometimes i'm stuck in my mind
and i float up high
till im gone in the sky
and i need a hand
^
oh isn't it scary stuff
when things around you change
it's the way of the world
time makes the things around you
grow and wilt and age
the consequence of time is change
i know it's everyone's wish
that things stay the same
content in your space
me im plagued with feeling bored
i'm plagued with wanting more
i've seen too much
a restless case
oh oh and it will be good
oh oh and it will be nice
oh oh and it will be alright
oh oh new home
Oct 3, 2023
Oct 3, 2023 at 4:18 PM UTC
I baked you cookies
so you'd think I could bake
they tasted like ****
When you compliment me
i make sure to
not seem to happy
I'd give you space
so you'd think that im secure
but i just get lonely
chorus:
I was broken
and im learning
that to want is okay
When you hold me
very slowly
missing pieces fall in place
I started to show you
that i can cry
and i didn't hide
I started to tell you
things that keep me up at night
you'd help me feel sane
chorus
I baked you cookies
so you'd think that i could bake
they tasted like ****
I baked you cookies
so you'd think that i could bake
you liked them anyways
Jul 3, 2023
Jul 3, 2023 at 11:55 PM UTC
I I I
fall into you
I try try try
to keep myself cool
but you
you hold the sun
melt the frost of my skin
without a thought
you stole my heart
and my spirit sours to you
Let's go go go
across the earth
the day will fade
and darkness will come
but you
you hold the sun
your light
will shine the way
without a thought
you stole my heart
and my spirit sours to you
Jun 16, 2023
Jun 16, 2023 at 11:41 PM UTC
what if i told you goodbye
today, while you're still soaring from a high
sitting on cloud 9
tell you i'm not ready
or i'm too busy
too sad for love
what if i was that unkind
would you break
into pieces
lose your sense of self
lose your shape
would you need time
or an instant rebound
to cope through the pain
sometimes i wonder what it's like to be the dumpee
sometimes i wonder if anyone goes through pain as much as me
sometimes i wonder if the reason people that left me did because i love too much
too strongly
thought i was crazy
but one thing is true, i love so much
i'm loyal in my blood
to the brittle bones of my body
i love like crazy
like a fairytale
like a pre-teen girl writing a boys name all over her journal
nobody's wanted me this much before
not the last, not the first
being adored this much, loved to the core
i'm scared
i think about the end
and not being loved anymore
but he's still here
and the love grows in my chest
and the fear grows with it
Jun 16, 2023
Jun 16, 2023 at 11:38 PM UTC
I want to be safe
always in the arms of someone
or kept close by
held by the hand
guided with a hand on my back
and be told everything is ok
all the time
how foolish
how dependent
but i walk alone
always keep a distance
tell myself i'm happy
i'm great
i'm safe
hold my own
while the fear dances in my stomach
in my chest
tickling my throat
making my body ache
why don't i let myself go
why do i hold a wall inside
when all i want so badly
so excruciatingly badly is to connect
be taken care of
express that i need help
need love
need safety
will i be like this till im dead inside
or will i break down my wall and let my demons go
Jun 13, 2023
Jun 13, 2023 at 7:57 PM UTC
i wanna feel fine
on nights when my minds not so kind
sip some wine
fill my lungs from time to time
just so i feel fine
i wanna feel fine
hold me in your arms and tell me
"your mine"
your heart warms mine
kiss your lips from time to time
just so i feel fine
Mar 1, 2023
Mar 1, 2023 at 10:37 PM UTC
i miss you
i miss the world through your eyes
i miss you before anger was lurking outside the bedroom
i miss your peace walking home from school down the lil green trail
i miss your excitement when school took you on walks to the ****
i miss you when life looked like illustrations in a children book
you're still there
i feel you around when i laugh
you'll always be there
but you're so small
sometimes i can't find you within myself
and i miss you
Feb 28, 2023
Feb 28, 2023 at 12:31 AM UTC
i just hopped a fence
grasped the steel wires with my fingers best i could
took a chance
like i've taken many times before
scars are still left from the wires pricking and tearing my skin, sure
but i still climb
and i do it with thrill
a grin slapped on my face
and with as much hope as there is water in the oceans
or sunshine in the summer
whatever metaphor i use
doesn't matter
wherever i go
hope is permanently embedded in my soul
and maybe it makes me naive
and maybe it's hurt me before
but all that hurt is proof that i had hope
that i tried
hope propels me forward, guides me
hope gives me strength to climb
climb this fence like it's nothing
like im just floating up and over
till im there
and my toes plant themselves into the grass
and i see what the universe gifts me
the paradise that surrounds me
my body, my skin
no wounds
i didn't get pricked this time
i'm fine, i'm really fine
i've only been able to climb over once before
and i don't remember what it's like to live on this side anymore
just another chance to grow
learn
and love more
Feb 24, 2023
Feb 24, 2023 at 11:57 PM UTC