You made me feel
A world of hope
Life seemed brighter
When you gave me
Butterflies.
I gathered my courage
just to seem
like some "Sweet Girl"
To you
After all
Our conversations meant nothing
You blocked me. No Reason!
Just to avoid the awkwardness
Building up my hope
Just to disappear without a trace
Now all tears fall down the face
As I'm deeply confused of what I did
To make you block out my existence.
I understand rejection
It's so normal
yet so painful
I'm not mad you rejected me
But why did you blocked me?
I don't get it
I'm exactly your type too!
Abyssal black hair
A face as pale as paper
But I guess Something about me
Must've pushed you away
Weather it's because
I'm in Marching Band
Or that I religiously listen to Slipknot
Or both
I don't get what's wrong with me.
But why should I care
maybe because you left me confused
Yet I'm so sick that I refuse
To stop wondering
Why you blocked me out
When all I said was
"Sorry for making this awkward".
I've never got rejected
So this really
Hurts
But I will get over it
soon.
Apr 30, 2025
Apr 30, 2025 at 1:37 AM UTC
It's right up in your face
Like blood on your **** floor
But you are dumb to chase
Me who is a chore
Are you that desperate
I love my instrument
And my little masked men
More than anything else
My hyper fixations
Take me away from you
Open up your eyes
I'm bright red flag
Scratch out all my lies
I make your mind lag
When I tell you that
I love you baby
It's a total gag
I just might maybe
Love all my special
interests and talents
And love Nu metal
A bit way too much
I have no balance
Left for a true love
like you
Feb 27, 2025
Feb 27, 2025 at 8:35 PM UTC
I'm enveloped into my mind
This world was never meant for my kind,
So I fade way into pure imagination
Were I'm met by fascination
And I am greeted by my own Validation
My realm is realities Evacuation
Here everything is strange
But I wouldn't exchange
This dream-like place
For the face
Of desperate society
That causes my anxiety
In conclusion
Stay in delusion.
Feb 26, 2025
Feb 26, 2025 at 10:57 PM UTC
Tried so hard it surpassed my limits
I'm a drained over achiever and a dreaming believer
Really my work is a reward if you could tell by my eyebags
Education system won't let me take a breather
Determination is my pill and I won't stop until I'm burnt out.
Feb 26, 2025
Feb 26, 2025 at 12:38 AM UTC
I'm mentally torn apart
Take a step in my heart
Go ahead! peel off all the skin
Look at what lies within
Behind cute the little sweet things
Is an ugly reality
tugging at my sanity.
Life knows about me
It will cover up the ugly
So I don't end up in the ward
I smile at my life's gifts gleefully
Clutching life's sweet rewards
Deep into my palm.
This is my life
A Sugar Coat
The more I mask
The less I ask
Masking up the ugly, makes it so sweet
Save your tears, just not this week
Another day rolls along
She been sick for too long
Do my prayers ever get answered?
It hurts to watch her struggle through.
This is my little life
It cuts me like a knife
I might've won my little awards
But I'm one step closer to the wards
Where is he at
The one who told me that
I am his number one
It felt like he wasn't here
When the pang of stress was there.
This is my life
A Sugar Coat
The more I mask
The less I ask
Masking up the ugly, makes it so sweet
Save your tears, just not this week
Another day rolls along
Another broken promise
Will he ever care to compromise?
It pains me to see him
Not care about his and our future.
Feb 25, 2025
Feb 25, 2025 at 8:36 PM UTC
Her heart is clean
It's white
Like rabbit
It's clear
From bad habits
She is the Lily
Of this filthy Valley.
If her heart
Dared to get a bit
Of filth anyway
She would be shammed
She might as well wither away
The world is no place
For a perfect white lily
Why should we judge
All humans are silly
Even the purest girl out there
Can make mistakes.
Feb 2, 2025
Feb 2, 2025 at 11:39 PM UTC
Crawl into bed
Sleep like you're dead
But really
Your just deep
In your head.
A dream is a Realm
Where all consciousness
goes to die
And every moment,
Every kiss,
Every fairytale's myth
Is a Lie.
Jan 27, 2025
Jan 27, 2025 at 11:28 PM UTC
The soft winds of a fall night
Whisper hope to me
The wind gently dances
With the feathers of my plume
It will be alright
Said the wind
You will have a good performance.
Set!
I am at attention
My head is up at the sunset
My tall posture meets heaven
I am the guardian
Of dusks arrival,
And all of fall
Fades into my show's
Theme of spring.
I step on beat
Cherry blossoms fall
Beside my feet
The sky fades into blue and pink
In the distance stands a mountainous prop
Oh mount Fuji she stands!
What a pretty sight
For the judges
To see on a competitive night.
My heart ascends to hope
I fly up and over
The peak of mount Fuji
The kids of the night
Play her song
We all ascend into the stars.
Jan 27, 2025
Jan 27, 2025 at 8:59 PM UTC
Dear Bass Clarinet,
I have no partner
To show affection for,
But deep in my core
I know
For sure
Love comes from the music
Our soul makes,
And that's is what
A bass clarinet is for.
Embrace me into every sharp
Like angels playing harp
My lips are kissed by the reed
And every note articulated
Leaves me in need.
Oh Bass Clarinet
I don't need a boy
To feel the joy
Your sound is enough
To make me feel loved.
Jan 25, 2025
Jan 25, 2025 at 6:20 PM UTC