Pat yourself on the back for waking up this morning,
for getting out of bed,
for taking a shower,
for combing your hair,
for brushing your teeth.
Praise yourself again for being able to complete your homework,
for packing your backpack,
for going to class and being able to pay some attention.
Commend yourself on seeing your friends,
for trying to smile and sing along to whatever song was on the radio,
for being present when you felt so far away.
Compliment yourself on being able to eat today,
for not throwing it back up because you were sick to your stomach,
for being able to tuck yourself into bed dosed with NyQuil so you'll sleep through the night.
Applaud yourself for not giving into the all consuming misery that leaves you in a heap on the floor,
gasping for breath unable to rasp out anything but "someone help me".
Congrats for choosing to start another day tomorrow.
Apr 8, 2017
Apr 8, 2017 at 4:38 PM UTC
I'm done dead to none but myself
I am lifeless holding on by a thread
that once held me together
I seep from every poor thought out paper I hand in
screaming please help the lost soul
in the corner
despair blares over the loudspeaker
and this time no one knows
to catch me when I fall
because they're too busy looking
in the other direction
this time I could slip into sleep
and never come out
of my self-induced coma
maybe I could finally be free
if my hand slipped
and those problems of mine dropped
into my mouth and down my throat
dead to all but me
Oct 8, 2014
Oct 8, 2014 at 11:42 AM UTC
I've been wrapped up in your arms
too long I fear
I'm starting to feel a little light headed
your lips will be my downfall
but I've already fallen so hard
trying to catch my breath
in your gaze
I'm afraid you'll let me crash
from this high
I'll bite my tongue against these unbashful words
until the time is right to set them free
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 4:56 PM UTC
Stop
stop
stop
stop
the blasted noise is killing my head
pounding
pounding
pounding
pounding
why won't it stop
no matter where I turn
I can't breath
in
out
inhale
exhale
choke
no don't choke
keep going
keep breathing
just a little longer
hold tight
oh so tightly
onto your sanity
don't pull the trigger
on no please don't pull the trigger
you'll regret that bullet
that finally made it all
stop
stop
stop
stop
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 9:28 PM UTC
I gave into my demons last night
oh darling I'm sorry I did
I slit my wrists and signed my name in blood
their contract of semi-consciousness
she kissed my lips that angel of death
and I cried your name with my last free breath
and with a chuckle they hurled me into oblivion
for who is to love a creature such as I
now that they've ****** my soul dry
I'm hollowed and hungry for solace
shall I sink my teeth into your flesh
for a last taste of sweet blissful innocence
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 9:07 PM UTC
My demons are tearing me apart
and I'm fumbling in the dark
I lost my light back when I forgot who I was
dropping words like bread crumbs
to lead me home to a place
where my soul lies dormant
waiting to wake up
my flesh burns with it's absence
and the presence of a rotten heart within my chest
screaming obscenities into my head
this anger boils my blood
and heats my skin
if you were to touch me I'd burn you
with sin
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 8:49 PM UTC
I'm in need of a sunshine holiday
a break from the unending rain
that makes the sidewalks slippery
because I often find myself slipping
and falling
even though I try so hard
to catch myself
I've never had balance in my life
so I guess it makes sense
to pick myself back up again
because that's easier than trying to stop yourself
in the first place
mistakes can be recovered from
and if you never fall prey
to bad decisions
how do you ever expect to learn
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 9:40 AM UTC
You know what you want deep down
there are just too many thoughts
clouding your vision
and you end up stumbling
over your choices
falling
into a state of discontented confusion
desperately grasping
at threads of coherent plans
it's all so overwhelming
when it's shoved inside your head
but if you have to write out a list
of pros and cons
it's probably not really what you wanted
anyway
Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 7:54 PM UTC
Oh darling how I've missed you
your satin smile
your endless eyes
tame soul encompassing passion
but I've realized I need a wild heart
with a smiling sentiment
someone who proclaims their love
instead of whispering it into paper
someone who gives
a little more of themselves each day
for me to fall in love with
and oh how far I have fallen
but I'm learning to catch myself
so I've pushed myself away from you
toward a new start
Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 4:58 PM UTC
O how far you have fallen my dear angel
O how far
stripped of your wings and grace
rubbed raw by your sinful nature
the god you held so close long ago left you
the moral pedestal you once held yourself upon
was no more
than an illusion created
by your self crafted halo
you were never an angel
just a demon in disguise
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 12:15 AM UTC