
You were born of passion and intimacy
Your little soul was given shape when love was fresh and new
We didn't know it then, ignorant bliss we were in
But you were taking shape: creeping in like morning dew
The day we found your presence was one of joy and wonder
We had no idea how hard the journey, we would take it step-by-step
We looked forward to your coming, but we feared our imperfections
We did our best to plan ahead...but for new life, can one truly prep?
The weeks flew by, you grew and grew!
You were developing at an incredible pace!
Each tiny part was taking shape
First a heartbeat, then a face
Nine short-long months you lived in me
Our bodies knit together as one
Rumble, tumble, hiccup, kick
Never knowing if you were daughter or son
Then came the days of labor and travail
Labor of love, but painfully long
First in the home, then to hospital rushed
All for the moment you cried your first song
Music to my ears was your first little wail
"It's a girl!" was exclaimed as you were laid in my arms
My Melina, my sweetie girl, my precious one
From that first moment you had me charmed
They took you from me to clean you and warm you
Then brought you back to cuddle with me
Oh the agony when they found fault in your breath
And took you the second time from me
Empty arms in an empty room
It was a long, lonely night: that first night of all
I cried as I thought of how far apart...
Sepparated from you by dozens of halls
We spent several days waiting for you
Your recovery was quick, but felt so slow
The day we finally took you home
Made our hearts leap, skip, and glow
Now that you're here, there are no silent nights
My arms are filled with your ravenous self
But I would not change that, no not for the world
Though tired and insufficient myself
For this journey we've begun is teaching me much
I am selfish, impatient, and often unkind
But God gives more grace on this road of life
And your smile so sweet as you relax and unwind
I love you, Melina.
Sep 18, 2021
Sep 18, 2021 at 1:30 AM UTC
Imagine a world where no music rang
A silent place where no one sang
The rhythms of life all irregularly paced
Every word disjointed and out of place
Imagine a world where no music rang
No melodies on which our words could hang
No magic of harmonies weaving their colors gay
No soulful instruments for us to play
A world of lies
A world of sorrows
A world of ending our weary tomorrows
But now...
Imagine a world ringing with truth
A world full of hope and youth
A world where song readily swelled
And melody came as from an endless well
Imagine a world shaped by the the greatest song
A world full of choirs instead of angry throngs
A world where no strife of hate could endure
And every gesture was gentle and sure
A world full of grace
A world full of joy
A world where each life is meaningfully employed
Imagine the difference
Imagine the change
Imagine the day where we make the exchange...
Mar 24, 2021
Mar 24, 2021 at 2:35 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel afraid.
It's a childish thing at my age:
To fear darkness, emptiness, or blade
Or to cry over life's turning of a page.
Yet, here I am: tears wet my cheeks.
Here I am: I cannot sleep.
I mourn over lost days, months, and weeks
And with foolish faith I hide in blankets deep.
But growing up leaves blankets a poor comfort in the dark.
No "Teddy Dear" could ever hold all the sorrows in my heart.
No nightlight as a beacon; no candle, fire, or spark
No Mummy and Daddy to come and rend my fears apart.
I am alone tonight, and this knowledge cuts me deep.
I must face my fears at last and trust the Lord my soul to keep.
For if the lights do not go out, and darkness is never ours
We would never know the wonder of a sky full of stars.
Sep 23, 2020
Sep 23, 2020 at 7:36 AM UTC
When the entirety of my dreams collapse
When castles I've built up in sand become ruins in a heap
And weigh more than a mountain as they melt into the beach
And the waves come to pummel any of the remains
As the turning of the tide swallows up my fame
And the Son beating down turns all my selfish works to shame
What shall a soul, broken, battered and lost, do in the midst of such destruction?
Or who can heal a broken spirit that lies parched and vulnerable in the rays of noonday?
A perverted soul like mine withers in the face of such Glory divine
Glory of a hidden paradise, an island all mine own
Filled with wonderous sights to feed the eyes, and luscious fruits to feed the soul
And yet I sit upon the beaches, looking down at the dust
Trying to build something of worth out of the most worthless thing I've found
Not able to get up, to explore, or be at peace
And the one thing that keeps me here is my own prideful, ambitious sceme
I worked through the night, in the shelter of darkness
The bitter cold of night preffered to the cool of the Day
And now I see that it was all vanity
The tides of Love stay at bay for none, and are as fierce as they are lovely
And they wreck the best intentions built on the wrong foundation
At the end of myself, and the works of my hands, I see how foolish I have been
For none with sense would ever build a home upon the shore
And only the most perfect Love could breathe life into sculpted sand
Too weak to resist, I succumb to the roaring waves
I feel the tide pull the ground out from under me
This final surrender pulls me out into the deep unknown
A baptism of death to self, and a life so truely real
That when I rise back to the surface, I shall finally, really heal
Mar 5, 2020
Mar 5, 2020 at 10:16 AM UTC
Early Wednesday morning I rise and take a breath
I feel my life course through me, but tis a life of death
The sky shrouds itself in solemn mist, as if nature knows the story
How death was chosen over life, and ashes over glory
I sew a fragile garment to hide my shame from ages past
My crude clothing of smile-coated lies...instead of the outward garb of grass
Prepared for my funeral, with black, on black, on black
The golden cross hung 'round my neck shows whom I'm seeking, and says, "There's no going back"
I step out into a world that crumbles beneath my feet
To find sanctuary for my restless soul: a place with Christ to meet
A place where prayers have a scent, and holiness a sound
A place where I can touch my Rock, and feel my Solid Ground
I kneel down to confess my faults, all my own in a multitude
Alone I whisper my many faults, yet I know I'm not in solitude
For all fall short, all shall die, and all shall feel great pain and loss
Today, however, we remember that the ground is even at the cross
As one body we approach the altar, and kneel humbly at the rail
We feel the ashes fall down our face, so dead, so dark, so stale
I breathe the dust from which I'm made, remember my dying frame
Yet this cross of ash, this sign of death, whispers that I shall be born again
Mar 2, 2020
Mar 2, 2020 at 11:25 AM UTC
Your scarf on my neck
I close my eyes and inhail
Suddenly you're near
Oct 28, 2019
Oct 28, 2019 at 7:39 PM UTC
They say the most beautiful gems are the hardest to grow:
They are rare, precious, and unique
Their journeys are long, hard, painful and slow
But their beauty is of greatest value
They begin as any other rock, average and ugly:
Rough, pointed, and unrefined
Then circumstances pressure them, hold them snugly
'til in the heated heart of earth they are purified
Once formed, they must surface, they must be found:
Rooted, probed, and undermined
Rugged rocks from the cold underground
Are saved from the dark to be seen in the light
The sparkle is there, but still under the surface:
Remote, perdu, and unknown
Cut and ground to reach their true purpose
The glittering gems are at last revealed
When I look at this process, I see my own story
Fallen, broken, and remade
First dying inside, then raised up to glory...
You see my little gem beginning to show
Oct 21, 2019
Oct 21, 2019 at 3:08 PM UTC
Isn't it interesting...
How the trees reach up
And the stars fall down
...as if heaven and earth were meant to intersect?
Oct 11, 2019
Oct 11, 2019 at 8:23 AM UTC
I tried to approach, but you walked away
I wanted to love you, but you wouldn't stay
You wanted your heart out-of-reach and alone
So the warmth of touch wouldn't melt your cold stone
You stand there so near, yet so very far
You don't want the appearance of your "inner strength" marred
You laugh with your voice, but your eyes are still dead
The idea of feeling anything fills you with dread
Because you don't want the pain, you can't feel my hurt
You don't like to laugh because smiles disconcert
You'd rather be logical, right, and made out of stone
Than know how to love and how to be known
Jun 16, 2019
Jun 16, 2019 at 12:06 AM UTC
When the shadows deepen, the light is that much brighter.
When joy is scarce, how much more beautiful the laughter?
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 8:54 PM UTC