I collect memories, moments of being
states of life where I feel whole,
stakes that don’t resemble loss.
Things are fuzzy now, but when I look at you
life could not feel any clearer.
At your gaze, my mind takes a lifetime of pictures.
I collect memories carried like burdens,
proof that my love is always late.
Maybe this was enough leeway
is this how I repay life for not being punctual?
A struggle to preserve what I know
will matter long after the moment ends.
I collect memories that demand payment
for every second of comfort they give
a past that consumes pieces of me when I peek,
a past so consuming
I'm starting to lose my place in the present.
What we were still lives pressed
in me
like fading light
time I won’t surrender.
Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025 at 12:10 PM UTC
Like at a cat's embrace, it's inviting
It's like music, life's most beautiful escape
The melodies along with the strings of attachment that keep me leashed
Shooting myself on the foot, to have me awake
I fear the silence this place makes, the noise it's almost always fakes.
This is how I quietly fade,so don't mind ME! (fallacy of confidence )for my life is worth the length of a hair strand, there's nothing to it
It's like a disease it wears my skin
(Ouroboros)
A cyclical renewal that feels like an acid bath a passion that burns
Dec 11, 2025
Dec 11, 2025 at 12:03 PM UTC
What do you know about loss?
A bare bone book stripped of all its pages and left with the dead men's longest prank
Wake up, I know y... wake up this isn'...
Facing reality with nothing but unprocessed wounds that refuse to heal.
I think for a bit you get lost in it, denial.
For a while, you get lost in this episode
As I've seen, it only ends when all the confusion becomes a weapon against yourself and everything around,
misplaced bullets that end up finding themselves in your closest hearts.
Now that you have temporarily revenged yourself, it resumes, manic it feels ,sudden emotions that lack substance or reason but just there to be a costume when lights and cameras are on.
You know, I truly believed it had stopped calling my name,but somewhere at the corner of my desolate wasteland, I hear this thump refusing to quite down,for a moment when i shushed my cries
I found ghosts that tried to console the inconsolable.
Oct 19, 2025
Oct 19, 2025 at 9:27 PM UTC
I saw you chase their smiles and forget yours.
Why did you forsake yourself,
do you think you needed the pills.
Did you mean it?,
when you said you'd off yourself.
I don't think you see it,
I don't think you need it,
Didn't think you meant it.
Pondering and failing to reflect
Only if i noticed,
maybe if i told...
why didn't i listen.
Oct 5, 2025
Oct 5, 2025 at 3:25 PM UTC
A language not only in words but tones that either shake me or soothe me to the bone,
It's when your heart giggles and you can not help but smile.
It's more than just music
It's the lobotomy to my soul
It's when your listen with your ears but let your heart immerse
Hear my signature for I feel your scales,
Play my chords so we can dances to these strings.
This is my high when I close my eyes.
Oct 5, 2025
Oct 5, 2025 at 3:06 PM UTC
The lapis gem i met under the blue hour
Times of dread that plead for gleam
Cold shackles and frozen tears that kept her in place nonplused, now ridden of a stagnant existence let me venture your peaks for i cannot have you without the disarrayed.
The darkness within you
How can we purge such beauty ,like pain the most undeniable , i will find you at your end and carry you to anew start.
Oct 5, 2025
Oct 5, 2025 at 2:53 PM UTC
Shhh I know you hear that,
It's you screaming for validation
I don't blame you really we all suffer from
singularity deficiency
Keep it down,
I know you can't stand your own life
Pick a skin and play
the damsel in distress
It's all lucid so why choose to be a slave
In your own dream.
Just shut it!
I won't help you but use you
So find your reason, find your worth
Oct 5, 2025
Oct 5, 2025 at 2:45 PM UTC
Blood stained washcloth wiping away at a soul stained in secrets
how do you wipe the canvas clean without having to burn it
You adorn the swan that holds coffins under its wings, truths you wouldn't have found above water
You adorn the swan that masquerades it's elegance,claws that found their way to your heart
You adorn the swan that protects it's beauty for that's all it had,a gaze that left you with shame
Tethered robes that screamed struggle Soiled jewels that told mistakes I didn't want repeated
Torn photos,moments of regret I kept hidden under the bed
Doesn't it look beautiful
Jul 19, 2025
Jul 19, 2025 at 10:57 PM UTC
A chemical released by ones brain
In time where not all turns into ash,
I dance with butterflies stumbling on and on tainted flowers,
cradling her rose.
An untouched diamond in dark.
Shadowed it keeps me In a well I'd willingly drown.
flowing of nothing but genuine love
A obviously mystery of anguish worth the neverending moonlight spent.
I am trapped in adoration,
feeling the air leave my lungs.
A garden, the beauty in bliss you abandoned. watch my world turn as i stop writing about her
It fades. is a question unanswered
Jul 17, 2025
Jul 17, 2025 at 6:48 PM UTC
Never knew I'd long so deeply for what hides in the bud of nightshade.
Over and over, I search for wounds dressed in makeup.
Nothing and everything, sublime, for broken vases call louder to me.
Don’t mistake this for fleeting love. I want your skeletons to speak.
Underneath your beauty, is there a madness, too?
Maybe I’m just drawn to people I think I can fix.
I keep asking where I belong in your story.
Somehow, I hope I’m the “right one” you speak of
Only, it hurts now to admit: I was never taught how to be right.
Jul 17, 2025
Jul 17, 2025 at 6:32 PM UTC