I love you
Yet I don’t
Do I love you
Or the idea of loving you?
We broke up
And I have yet moved on
We stopped talking
Yet I can’t stop thinking
Of you
We stopped texting
Yet I’m still stalking
Your social media
So tell me
Do I miss you
Or the idea of missing you
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 11:32 AM UTC
why are you having anxiety? aren't you contented with your life? i mean, you're doing well financially, academically and nearly all other aspects in life. i just couldn't get it, why are you still having anxiety?
I'm doing well. better than some, quite like most and closely behind a few. but still, I'm having these anxieties.
because I'm raised to be better than everyone else, or to be at least at par, but never worse. if everyone is taking two steps forward, i should only be taking either two or three steps forward, but never one. because I'm not raised to be left behind.
i am raised with expectations, a whole lot of them. i am expected to be better. i am expected to be the best, one that they could boast to their friends about. i am expected to not be a failure, a defect.
i am expected to reach their expectations. this specific results in exam, this specific univ to attend and this specific career to choose.
so tell me, how could i live without these **** anxieties, when i have so much expectations on my back alone ?
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 12:38 PM UTC
I could scream my lungs out
But she won't get me
I could cry my tears out
But still ... She won't get me
I could
I could
Yes ... I could
But I won't.
What's the use?
She won't get me anyway.
Jan 26, 2020
Jan 26, 2020 at 10:19 AM UTC
a failure
that's what seeing you today felt like
seems like she can makes you laugh more
smile a little brighter
and speak a little louder
maybe it's better
that we're no longer together
because you seems just fine
better even
without me
oh
just how much we differ
for I'm no better
worse even
without you
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 1:16 PM UTC
Because lying is what I do the best,
So I say "I don't love you",
Those words that I said,
Then becomes my home,
One that I lives in,
One that I cannot get out of,
For it is secured with a lock,
One which the key I have long lost.
Because lying was what I do the best,
Now I am sitting in this home,
One which I built myself,
Feeling trapped and suffocated,
Being angry and depressed,
But this is the fate that I have to accept,
Because lying is what I do the best.
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 1:34 AM UTC
Take me back in time,
When you're still mine,
For I miss your warmth,
When I was in your embrace.
Take me back in time,
When we're both standing in the rain,
Eyes mirroring each other,
Let me say I love you again.
Take me back in time,
When we're both holding hands,
For I miss the way you would rub the back of my palm,
Assuring me that everything is fine.
Take me back in time,
When I still had my mind with me,
Swear to god I'd never leave,
Unless I'm taking you with me.
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 4:58 AM UTC
It's weird,
How every song,
Of every genre,
Reminded me of you,
Of us.
Dear ex,
Do you remember?
How happy,
Or how reckless we used to be,
Running across even when the light is red.
Or do you remember?
How sad,
Our break up used to be,
When the light is green and I crossed ahead,
Leaving you alone on the other side of the road.
Now years had passed,
And I've got someone else for me instead,
She's lying on your side of the bed,
But it's still your warmth,
That I yearn for on every rainy night.
Sep 15, 2018
Sep 15, 2018 at 7:52 AM UTC
i say
let's put the baggages down
and i did
only to pick it up again
because i care too much
for you who care too less
i say
let's not care anymore
and i did
only to hurt myself yet again
because i think too much
of you who think of me too less
i say
let's not talk anymore
and I'll be fine
but i don't
because i love too much
for you who love too less
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 12:30 PM UTC
missed your hi's
perhaps your hellos too
missed all those times
when there used to be us
used to wake up with your text
now all that left is you in my thoughts
wondering if you're okay
or if you're not
so ..
are you okay ?
do you still drink to get drunk ?
or have you stopped now ?
did you wrapped yourself up
when the weather is too cold ?
what about your cat ?
still as cute as ever ?
have i ever crossed your mind ?
even once ?
because you came and lingered in mine
as if it was your playground
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 9:17 PM UTC
if you asks me
how important you are
I'd say very
you're the first that i thought of
when i woke up
evey morning of every day
kept your messages for the longest
just to reminisce
when the longing came when i expected the least
got so many things
to remind me of you
from the simplest to the grandest
everyday I'm left to wonder
if you're okay
or if you're not
if only
we're living in the same part of the globe
with no timezones to cope
i wish i can let it show
how much i worry
and how much i care
I'm not the one that you chose
but you're not the one that i wanna lose
and I'm selfish enough to want you close
Aug 1, 2018
Aug 1, 2018 at 10:41 AM UTC