my dog kiko found a baby bunny
she held it in her mouth as it screamed for help
for its mother
once i was able to get her to drop it
i realized the poor thing was injured
i put kiko inside the house while i looked at the bunny
the bunny was dragging its back legs-
while kiko had it in her mouth she must have hurt its spine in someway
i did what i could, i picked it up gently with a paper towel
put it in a box that was comfy, lined with paper towels, and waited
i waited to see if something would change
as if by some miracle the damage would be undone
i called wildlife rehabbers in the meantime
they said to take it to the local emergency vet and have them put it down
i didn’t want to listen
somehow i thought i could heal this little creature with nothing but my determination
and care
later in the day when my dad got home
he helped me with the bunny
he put it in a more open box
and placed it near where we saw another little baby bunny
we made it cozy and left it to see if the mother would come back for it
when night fell and kiko had to go outside
i let her out on her leash and harness
i got her back inside
i had a sinking feeling in my gut so i went to go check on the rabbit
i ended up being wrong
i couldn’t save it
my emotions warred with my logic-
the little thing had died
my determination and care could not save it
i tried so hard
at that moment i broke
crouched down, sobbing, apologizing over and over again
gently petting the little bunny who was no bigger than the palm of my hand
everything felt too heavy
i had been rooting for creature to pull through
but deep down i knew
i knew that life was cruel
in this moment i feel
as if having a big heart will end up hurting me in the long run
caring too much about the smallest of creature will be my downfall
i would go through heartbreak after heartbreak due to me caring too much
and maybe that’s not such a bad thing
valuing life and caring for every creature that i can
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 11:31 PM UTC
i don’t think i’ve ever had a day
where my own name
didn’t taste foreign in my mouth-
for some reason
it doesn’t taste like mine
it belongs to someone else
Sep 22, 2021
Sep 22, 2021 at 11:27 AM UTC
You are art,
whether you see it or not
your smile, your eyes,your spine,
the curves of your body...
your nose
the way you laugh
the way you love the people around you
you are art
don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
May 5, 2020
May 5, 2020 at 10:58 AM UTC
you told me i was a priority
i guess you lied to me
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 8:38 PM UTC
it’s funny how someone you used to think was your favorite is now slowly becoming your least
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 7:56 PM UTC
I like to stare at myself in mirror
Just to try and find things that I love about my face
But usually it ends in me hating myself even more
Feb 9, 2019
Feb 9, 2019 at 5:54 PM UTC
Lantern boy
Pick your head up
Everyone is looking
Don’t panic
Breathe
Let the cocktail of depression and anxiety take over
Soak in every moment
Go numb
Abandon your friends
Don’t answer calls or texts
Don’t leave your house
Eat minimal meals like cereal and water
If your friends ask why you haven’t answered simply tell them ‘I was busy’
They may not buy it but it’s good enough for now
They will try to tell you to eat, don’t listen, even though it pains you not to
After all this they will begin to worry, don’t let them
Tell them you are fine
It hurts you to lie to them but you have to protect yourself from them finding out
After weeks of lying you will finally break
It hurts at first but gradually it starts to feel better and you will start to think “hey breaking down doesn’t seem so bad”
Your friends won’t understand this overflow of emotions and why you kept them bottled up for so long
They ask”why you didn’t tell us sooner”
You don’t reply because you know the truth will hurt them
But hey at least you survived right?
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 8:17 PM UTC
Guilt...a feeling that I’m not used to
kind of like being in love
When it comes to love I’m inexperienced
So, I give someone all of my love to make up for my lack of experience
I should have known better
Because now I’m left feeling empty and guilty
I’m guilty of breaking your heart into a thousand pieces
Not once but twice
I gave you a second chance
At first I felt that we were made for each other
But my heart thought otherwise
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 8:14 PM UTC