what i am suppose to do
when every word they lead to you
even though you played me like a fool
my silly *** is still over here missing you
still waiting to hear you knock on my door
keeping hope alive it's never been this bad before
truly, i ain't been this broken laying on the floor
i lied when i said i can't take no more
cause the truth is
if i'm dancing with the devil i'll stay on beat
& i'll glorify in the fact that you're all i need
i should be ashamed that i'm in this deep
i know, but i don't care that this is insanity , come back to me
back to the places we never got to go
back to what is comfortable
back to you loving me so
back to pretending this is wonderful
you called and i acted real tough boo
fronting in like i don't miss you
back to thinking where have you been
pour it up let me drink your toxin
show me love let's put skin on skin
let's love again...
cause the truth is...
i love you still & i want us back together
at the same time i know this is an imaginary forever
& i'll live with the fact i am drowning
ring the alarm, rescue me from this insanity, come back to me
back baby...
Jun 17, 2017
Jun 17, 2017 at 1:27 AM UTC
Quiet Moments
In the quiet moments
Baby...
I be full of it when I get on it
Take me...
Away in your arms & hold me forever
It's crazy....
These quiet moments
It's just me...
I love you but you gotta earn it
I'm saying deserve it
Can't be love freely if you just going to
You're going to burn it
And when you do that you'll explode...
In the quiet moments
Baby...
I be full of it when I get on it
Take me...
Away in your arms & hold me forever
It's crazy....
These quiet moments
It's just me...
I be tripping going crazy
You can't hate me, no no baby
I be on my **** that ********
When I be me you can't handle it
In the quiet moments
Baby...
I be full of it when I get on it
Take me...
Away in your arms & hold me forever
It's crazy....
These quiet moments
It's just me...
Nov 6, 2016
Nov 6, 2016 at 2:30 PM UTC
I loved you
It was special
In my mind we were surfing on the biggest wave
Wipe out!
Nov 3, 2016
Nov 3, 2016 at 9:41 PM UTC
He tells me I'm beautiful
I believe every word
So drawn into his allure
I disregard all signs just clinging tight to his word
I don't know when love became so complicated
I just know this dysfunction has turned into a drug
I don't know why I love the fire so much
Hell this right here is way worse than any drug
There was this one night we danced all night
I remember those loving eyes
Then there was one night I guess I made him mad
At work the next day with sunglasses covering my eyes
I think to myself
It's a shame we get so lost in the dark we never see a shimmer of hope or light
I remind myself
You'll never find love like this again and I place him back in the brightest of lights
I'm not saying I'm staying or going
I'm just saying I know that this is a problem
I'm not saying I deserve this love at all
I'm just saying sometimes you don't have the answers to every problem
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 8:17 PM UTC
I had to realize this love couldn't be held in captivity
I had to realize this love did not want to be free
Confused?
Indefinitely!
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 7:48 PM UTC
Still water never will become clean
I was never allowed to dream
Suppressed, depressed, existing
My light, can't be too bright, what would others think?
Inflamed, tainted, jaded, non believing
I hid within false realities
Lying to myself and lying to many
Sitting in my own filth, stiff
Basic, drowning in my imperfect fifth
Still water...
Why wouldn't I let go
Why wouldn't I flow
Knowing then what I now know
I was my number one enemy, I stunted my growth
Chained, afraid, but yet so fearless in the danger zone
Waited to hear my own voice to call me to come home
A voice muffled out by lies upon lies
And I even dared to cry
Sitting in my own ****
Sitting in my own ****
When I could get up, I'm not paralyzed
Not blind, ungrateful, not using my eyes
Still water...
Let go
Just flow
Oct 4, 2014
Oct 4, 2014 at 2:28 PM UTC