My heart always skips a beat
Each time my eyes find you
It's sweet
Yet I hope you knew
I love and wish to spend every waking day with you
How I wish you knew
Yet you like someone new
And no longer see me
Heartaches
Longing and hoping
To have reciprocation
But alas
You may like someone new..
Mar 10, 2022
Mar 10, 2022 at 10:03 PM UTC
Falling was the easiest.
Staying wasn't even that hard
Despite what they say.
The most difficult?
Knowing when to stop
and let go
It ****** a lot to not have it all.
It might've been different
It might have changed
If decisions were made
and things changed.
But I guess that's life's ultimate joke
To play you
and to remind you
It was never on your side..
Mar 9, 2022
Mar 9, 2022 at 2:27 AM UTC
When the day draws to a closure.
I am reminded of the loneliness
the despair
and my self-destruction that is beyond repair
Despite the unwillingness to keep going
I am reminded of the friends
That is now family
Wrapped around it
Is hope
Of a bright new day
And a grip on a future
A future where I keep going
And from there lying it its wake
Is strength
To keep going
Nov 1, 2021
Nov 1, 2021 at 11:18 AM UTC
As darkness takes hold
Light falters in its wake
Gasping for air
Choking, Unable to breathe
I awake
In the coldest of sweat
Wishing Better dreams
But I realized
Each time I wake
I am still asleep
Writhing
Screaming
To wake up
Oct 20, 2021
Oct 20, 2021 at 6:51 PM UTC
A mother's love
A father's warmth
A sister's support
3 things I wish to acquire
But never require
Yet wanting to transpire
A hug
A simple "congratulations"
A simple "I'm proud of you"
3 things a child only wishes to be received
Yet so far to be achieved.
An "I love you my child"
Is all I ask...
But they were never up to task...
May 31, 2021
May 31, 2021 at 7:00 PM UTC
What keeps you up, young one?
Is it the chatter of the night?
Or the dread of the coming dawn?
What keeps you up?
Is it the dread of what comes ahead?
Or the future you wish but may never suffice?
What keeps you up dear one?
Is it a nightmare ahead?
or a reality coming to materialize?
What keeps you up dear one?
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 10:22 AM UTC
Like the Center of a country
Our love is the center of it all
Distance is measured here.
And see how far it goes.
Our origin.
Our home
and the place that started it all
May we never forget
And always remember
The Distance and the center of where we started.
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 10:24 AM UTC
I see the way you look at him..
Wishing you'd look that way
With me...
I see the way you smile at him...
Wishing that smile
Would come and fall in me...
I see the way you laugh with him
Wishing I could pull jokes
You could laugh to...
I see the way you'd choose him...
Wishing you'd do the same
And choose me too...
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 12:34 PM UTC
I was never the jealous one
But actions proved me wrong
When I placed passion into it
Another can master without effort
When I put heart into it
Another can make it perfect.
It was daunting
at the same time humiliating
I was happy for them at first
Then slowly Happiness made it better
It festered, matured
Like a tumor slowly killing
I felt hatred, Sadness and disappointment
For the things I could never perfect
yet another can master.
I was down, drowning and dissatisfied with myself.
I was never the Jealous one
But actions proved me wrong
Approval for the other
and utter disappointment in me..
Sep 8, 2020
Sep 8, 2020 at 2:23 AM UTC
3 Sentences
3 things I wanted to hear
3 things and Ill never feel despair
"I am proud of you"
"You were never a disappointment"
"You made us happy"
That's all I wanted to hear
For me to be able to bear
And live without fear
And yet
I lost a bet
And gave up the hope
You were never proud
You were a disappointment
and never made us happy
Was all I heard..
Jun 16, 2020
Jun 16, 2020 at 4:51 AM UTC