I am so sorry for ever putting you last,
cause you deserve the world.
you deserve not to be picked around,
and left to wonder
may be he will fall in love after the next kiss
on lips as soft as this
You dont deserve to be depressed
believing that your life is always coming to an end,
this is it
I am sorry for settling down to soon
switching lovers before a new full moon
due to me ending and beginning with new loves...
i apologize for stunting your growth
made it super hard understand your worth
definitely made your heart grow cold
just a little too soon
And to my heart you bleed different
i know its because of me
Im sorry i didnt show more light
my mind wanders alot keeps my judgement on a permanent night
Cause my long time friend "Depression" my dark cloud took up all of the room.
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 4:00 PM UTC
Dance the night away whether on your feet or in your dreams...
dance dance dance and dance
Cause life is not as bad as it may seem
for life is only but a dream
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 8:47 AM UTC
there is no other place id rather be than laid up under you kissing talking learning your ways but making luv to you now thats my favorite part... hmm
my lips pressed against yours is sweet tasting ****** and
with each stroke i can feel your love growing inside of me sweet vitamin D sent heavenly
i never want you to leave stay your my guilty pleasure... my release therapy
i must have you i need to taste you please stay....
in bed with me
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 9:31 AM UTC
Hurt just left feeling empty
Feelings kicked around in the dirt
I am truly angry because I remembered your name and forgot mine
And I am lonely.. maybe just out of fear but more so because I refuse to fall for
Another chocolate man standing over 6ft tall grinning in my face as if the Fire I thought we were making was real
my heart still aches for you 7 to 8 months later.
I cant believe I had to pay numerous copay's for therapy because I allowed you to get in my head and make me feel less than.
I know ill never get to say these things to your face so ill leave them here to travel through cyber space
Im still angry that I Remembered your name and Forgot mine
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 10:30 AM UTC
IT TOOK EVERYTHING IN ME NOT TO LOOK FOR HIM IN PLACES AND PEOPLE
IT TOOK EVERYTHING FOR ME NOT TO CARE
SO THAT I MAY LOWER MY GAZE
TO WHAT HAD ALWAYS BEEN RIGHT THERE.
HE OPENED AND LEFT ME HURT SO YOU SHOWED ME JUST HOW LITTLE MY FLAWS WERE
I KNOW YOU LOVE ME
I CAN TELL BY THE WAY YOU OFTEN STARE
U LOOK AT ME LIKE IM THE ONLY QUEEN IN THE ROOM
EVEN THOUGH IT’S PLENTY STANDING AROUND HERE AND THERE
I WAS SCARED AT FIRST SO I WAITED… AND WAITED
NOW HERE I AM STANDING COMPLETELY NAKED
MELANIN BROWN CHOCOLATE DRIPPED TO THE FLOOR
PROMISING TO LEAVE YOUR HEART MIND BODY AND SOUL THIRSTY FOR MORE
WE MAKE LOVE ANY AND EVERYWHERE
LIGHTNING AND SPARK ALL TYPES OF FIRES
AIMING TO PLEASE ME IS YOUR ONLY DESIRE
MINE IS TO LET YOU KNOW IN EVERY WAY THAT IS
ONLY YOU WHO I HIGHLY ADMIRE.
I WAS SCARED TO BE THE FIRST SO I WAITED… AND WAITED
YOU SAID IT LAST NIGHT AND MY HEART MELTED
I LOVE YOU TOOO!!!
P.S. HE SAID THAT HE GIVES THANKS TO ALL THE MEN WHO HAVE LOST ME TOO THEIR OWN INSECURITIES. HE KISSED A WAY ALL MY FEARS AND GAVE ME MORE THAN A TASTE OF HIS LOVE SO THAT I COULD TELL IT WAS REAL…
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 10:03 AM UTC
when your Heartbroken and stressed
your heart, mind body and soul notices and you begin to see visions of positivity less and less,
you gotta understand where im coming from, you know that annoying knot in your chest
drives you so crazy that your daily thoughts become a mess,
Im still suffering from this disease of emptiness i cant get rid of more like a curse of never being enough. im so angry cause i know it was supposed to be us, but god said that it was yalls time i guess!
Its been months and he is visibly happy so must God torture my heart i tried everything still my heart beats faintly since that day.
i hope in good spirit your heart stays
even though with mine you choose to play
when things are over for yall please dont come my way
cause it will be too late u already left my heart damaged and bruised so there will not be much to say
#I wish Someone loved me in this way i'd never let them Go#
Oct 24, 2018
Oct 24, 2018 at 3:10 PM UTC
How can I not feel extremely empty I lost you before I could even truly get to know you,
Today as I reap the benefits of life I will hold the love I feel for you tenderly inside.
You damaged my exterior so I have trouble now pushing my pride to the side.
Im broken from continuous mistakes and constant heartbreak.
Memories of him I cant shake. Even though I know he left clues that he was a in the closet *** snake.
I fell in love with him… im still waiting for him to come around explaining and telling me that he is sorry now, heres your birthday cake I promised I make. Never kissing him was one of my biggest mistakes cause through his kiss I would have been able to spot that he was a low down ***** snake!
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 8:55 AM UTC
Sometimes loving someone can make the heart wither. Vivid memories of HIM wakes u every night with cold sweats endless shiver.... When does the pain stop! only but for a few months this year it stopped the way I felt tropical sunset and sunrise... he made me want to share everything I was holding back inside then over nothing he chose to see me of less value and hide. l slightly entertained others but him my heart chose so when he too chose to leave
it left me stuck thinking of you, so their was no room left to think of me. You had the easy way out....death and HIM I just still dont knowing ...
He played it wasnt necessary for him to see our bond grow.....
For me to fall again I just cant say ill allow myself so...
honestly I would **** to have someone love me like I love u
Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 11:23 PM UTC
See the problem here is that the love I have for It holds no mounds with infinite possibilities
and I know that things get ruff and I call u on ya bluff
but when things simply don’t go your way
u start that calling me young girl this and that actin as if with me u no longer want to stay
but the love we have is real so your gonna sit down and listen to what I have to say
see your mood switches up from day to day
so each time when I hold your hand I see a different you and I kinda like it this way
but now that ur looking at me I know now that it’s to much for u.... the promise you made
cause as I sit here pouring out my heart u have but so little to say
so my heart will no longer beg yours to stay
so maybe somethings are better off that way
this is just one of the poems I carry in my heart from day to day
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 12:48 AM UTC
I got a question I been wanting to ask you
it’s just bothering me
but I need to know
when we make love is it me that you see
or is it...... the me The perfect wife that you choose for me to be
cause when I make love to you... I see the man that you have the potential to be ...
The man that I need
the man my body craves that holds and clings to
and loves like no one else
But when you look at me... when you stare into my eyes and I’m looking back into yours
I see a blank space sometimes, and I have to wonder... I wonder truly all the time
is it me that you see....
or is it the perfect wife that you planned out in ya mind had sought out for me to be
I only ask this cause when we walk in public
you hold my hand.... but it’s not like the first time
The first time I knew you were My Man
This time you hold my hand but not with grace and dignity
like this is the life that you
had planned and sought out and hoped and everything you wanted it to be
I prayed for this to work.. I prayed for us to try
but I can no longer pretend that when im trying to make endless love to your mind...
that your that guy
I loved you and I still do
still when I look in ya eyes I see that but when you look into mine i don’t see that
you don’t love me anymore
let’s not continue to live this lie
kiss and make luv.. and say our final goodbyes
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 12:46 AM UTC