I grew up dreaming
That I'd have a happily every after
I grew up seeing
My parents walk away
I grew up dreaming
That I'd be whoever I wanted to be
I grew up trying
To fit within the page of an A4 paprt
I grew up dreaming
That I'd fall in love and it would be wonderful
I grew up crying
Over someone who didn't really care
I grew up dreaming
That I'd make a difference
I grew up being
A random nobody
I grew up dreaming
Until
I grew up
Oct 14, 2020
Oct 14, 2020 at 8:56 AM UTC
In this world
I have no control over
Everything is in chaos
With my future unsure
And I've done all I can
To find something worth doing
But to no avail
I found nothing
And in the end
I turn to Him
When He should have been the one I turned to
In the first place
Oct 14, 2020
Oct 14, 2020 at 8:40 AM UTC
I sit here by my bedroom wall
my back on stone, cold concrete
I stare at a future as bleak as the white wallpaper
peeling off the edge
Why is my worth
based off of a single sentence
the only referral to what I can or cannot do
I have plenty to offer
beyond the lines of A4 paper
And yet society scan these things
with cold eyes and cold minds
drawing a line to what I can or cannot do
And in the end,
I conform to those lines
tucking away the other sides of me
Feeling as though I have nothing to offer
for I do not fit within the boundaries
of those lines
Oct 14, 2020
Oct 14, 2020 at 7:41 AM UTC
I thought I'd lost you
To harsh words and lies
Each day was a mess
With no one to talk to
No shoulder for my head to rest
We pass each other by
Wondering when our war would end
Not a war of fire
But of cold, cold ice
You smiled at me one day
And I smiled back
It was a start
For today
Where we finally talked
And you didn't hate me
And my fears
Were your fears
And we had thought our friendship was gone
But it had ended
The wall between us
I could finally hold your hand and say,
"It was terrible being at war with you."
And you replied likewise
Aug 19, 2020
Aug 19, 2020 at 11:41 AM UTC
I know your voice,
Singing for me,
I know your eyes
Twinkling through the screen,
The way you smile,
The dimple in your cheek,
All of these things,
But I don't know you
Your birthday, your name,
Your tastes and your face,
I know these things
But I don't know you
And yet
May you shine
Like the star in the sky,
Filling up my heart
With the melody of your song,
May you sing the song
That dwells inside,
And I will be here,
Listening..listening..
Though your heart may be breaking,
Though it pains me to see,
You still smile like the sun
Through the storms in your seas,
Sweat on your temple,
Through blood and through tears,
You forge through it all,
So your song could reach me
You give me everything,
The me who has nothing
But my love to give to you
I'll be by your side,
Though they be against you,
Don't worry you'll see,
Everything is alright
I wish you happiness
I wish you peace
I wish you good fortune
And all of the bliss
You may not know me,
Never had and never will,
But I hope you will know this,
You are a star that shines
In the darkest of night,
And I will sail with you
Through wine-colored waters,
Listening to your song
I don't know you,
You don't know me,
But we are connected
Through a melody.
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 3:56 AM UTC
He was a boy
With ginger curls
And a smile to his name
His eyes twinkled with mirth
At everything I say
With music as a bond
We share ourselves
Even if only for a moment
He was able to bring out
The love of music
From inside my shell
Mar 11, 2020
Mar 11, 2020 at 9:46 AM UTC
You've gotten silent
You don't reply anymore
What could lead to hours of conversation
Ends with just a sentence or two
Just because you found someone new
Does that mean you'd just leave the past behind
Feb 12, 2020
Feb 12, 2020 at 12:37 PM UTC
Whenever I stray from classical music
He brings me Bach
Feb 11, 2020
Feb 11, 2020 at 2:58 AM UTC
My aunt tells me
Be careful with your heart
And I promised her I would
But I couldn't tell her
That it wasn't my heart I had to be careful with
It was my mind
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 10:17 AM UTC
Weddings are wonderful things
I know
But I can't help but be heartbroken
As I see a couple join together
Knowing if they do not love
There will be no chance of love
Feb 2, 2020
Feb 2, 2020 at 4:56 AM UTC