One lifetime ago
When the dream was the only heaven I knew
Twenties is the hardest and the simplest time
I was not the only
Girl who lost her mind
Crossed the line
Risk the life and afterlife
And here I stand
Next to someone with a good rep
Trade the tears as event price
Just to take me back to the track
And for that I owe you a thank
100224
Bella, intern of The Tortured Poets Department
Feb 22, 2024
Feb 22, 2024 at 8:31 AM UTC
I turn twenty-six and sit here all alone
Even the closest one I chose to say no words
Cause I find no reason why should they know
People on the internet are crying over this
But I chose it with all my elegies
Too much space too many strangers
Wish I could have a party inside my castle
No one gives me the warmest hug but myself
who knows it shake my hands and that's all I deserve
When I turned twenty-six and nobody knows
All I wish is you appear with your vows
PS: Happy Birthday to ME!
190522
Jun 21, 2022
Jun 21, 2022 at 10:11 PM UTC
It's tasteless
the hello, the smile, and everything you do
still haunted by the blast of that fast fancy little train
willing to feel it again is a kind of luxury
not more come again
210322
Mar 21, 2022
Mar 21, 2022 at 12:04 AM UTC
A homeless woman stray the road alone
her arms is the only one who hug her coldness
she was in a peak of pleasure once
when the rollercoaster bring her touch the sky
loose every burden, forget every wound and fly
Mar 21, 2022
Mar 21, 2022 at 12:01 AM UTC
If you see a butterfly in the sky
don't ask her to fight
cause when time turns the table
she turn herself as a snake, or a dragon
If you see a butterfly who turned to be a snake
don't ask her what why
ask her what happened, instead
Because fragile wings can't save my life, she said
and my beauty call the devil to destroy me in the nick of time
250122.BDG
Feb 22, 2022
Feb 22, 2022 at 9:03 PM UTC
It's kinda weird.
This wide smile.
Not because of you.
It's kinda weird.
This cute story.
No share it with you.
It's kinda weird.
Kissing in the rain.
But the lips is not yours.
It's kinda weird.
To live every second.
And you're not around.
19022022. BDG
Feb 19, 2022
Feb 19, 2022 at 9:51 PM UTC
as our blood dripping from the rope tied our hands
as the warmth in the eyes can never stop us to dance
it made us blind, deaf, and lost our minds
but baby if it doesn't, why I keep calling you mine
you are the one who the most bleeding
you are the castle I sold for nothing
this leaving is a dagger I've been hold
day and night wondering where to put it on
is it on your chest or in the center of my soul
as you're the prey and I'm the archer
wish I could stay and build our castle
tied together with a vow with you
but they don't know an arrow can bleed too
as your hug is the warmest touch
shoted gun, closed eye and our blood
as between your arms is the only place I call it home
Feb 10, 2022
Feb 10, 2022 at 1:31 AM UTC
You choose to be fearless when it's the only thing you have
Facing your fears, walk through the dark road with a single match
Forbid yourself from looking back when the first step is taken
Left your bright castle as it never let you fly again
But tell me how to unlearn all the feeling you gave
I stuck in my mind like a widow right beside the fresh grave
The cries once fell in your shoulder and won't be a past
Somehow we need to live with the wound even if it forever last
030222
BDG
Feb 10, 2022
Feb 10, 2022 at 1:10 AM UTC
The thing that I hate the most in every relationship is, when I get a think that I am the only one who come to them. I wish a take and give relationship. Seeing how they so settle without me, and don’t wanna call me makes me feel so so so bad. Like, so it’s all on me. You talk to me only if I come and say hi first. If I’m away you won’t look for me. I lost my price in your eyes. I feel abandoned. The magic is not here anymore. ☹
I should’ve known. I am not his lose-soul. He don’t need me to be happy. He don’t need me to relieve his pain. He don’t need me as much as I need him. He keep giving but fortunately I can’t give him the thing he want the most. He enough himself from me. He hate texting it makes him drain. The magic is not here anymore.
The spring is gone, the hot summer floated away, and your intention changed faster than the color of those trees. The magic is not here anymore.
Nov 18, 2021
Nov 18, 2021 at 4:35 AM UTC
I chose to be fearless now
Facing my fears, walking the dark road with a box of matches
I forbid to look back when I take the first step
Left my brightest castle cause it never let me fly again
But how can I unlearn all the feeling you gave
Now I stuck in my mind like a widow in a grave
The cries once fell in your shoulder and won't be a past
But somehow we have to live with the wound even if it forever last
Nov 10, 2021
Nov 10, 2021 at 10:05 AM UTC