The night is always dark
After the sun begins to set
But in the absence of the light
Come the moments you can't forget
Like the time that I first saw you
Straight from your mother's womb
Came with darkness all around us,
But you lit the entire room.
See, Daddy felt lost
Didn't know who he was
And even when I held you
I was lost in your love
I Had a lot of problems
Couldn't see the light
Gotta thank your mother
For all the times she tried
She held it all together
She did it for you
Even when it felt wrong
She still pushed through
Even with my girls
I just felt so numb
Going through the motions
To the beat of the drum
I couldn't figure life out
Didn't know how to feel
I saw your pretty eyes
But it wasn't real
I was locked in my head
Why can't I see
Everything I needed
Right in front of me
The darkness takes over
I couldn't even try
She's crying right in front of me
But my eyes are dry
I shoulda been there for you
It just took me way too long
To see what was important
To find where I belong
But now my eyes are open
And I know that things are strange
Yet I'm making progress
Because I feel the pain of change
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
The lights are on but nobody's home. I see it, I feel it and already know, without you, the kids, there'd be no glow. No spark, no light, no warmth inside...you're the only reason that I'll ever even try. Stuck in my head, the bombs going off. Screams of the dying, the cries growing soft, my mouth filling up, the blood makes me cough. That's when it hits me, I feel it every time, the pain wasnt real until the day I tried. I pushed it off, buried it deep...it almost cost my family...it almost killed me. It comes and it goes, no pattern to the tide...I wish it was like the ocean so I could at least keep in time. The ups and the downs, more downs than the ups...seven months away from you and I started to lose touch. Lost my foundation, crumbled at the core...took another hit and my mind took a tour...of all things I buried, not deep enough to hide. You're the only light that I can see from inside...without you, I would never survive.
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
Is it the end,
Or the beginning of a new day?
Like starting over fresh,
But it was me that was in my way.
I let you control me,
I'm the one who let you stay.
But I'm taking my life back,
I'm taking your power away.
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 10:41 AM UTC
The reflection in your mirror, the pain is given wings. While no one else can hear her, that girl has told me things. I know that you don't see you, like the view your mirror brings. You see the things you've been through, always ready to take a swing.
While maybe you feel lost, in the reflection that you see. There is no line you won't cross, the kids and I agree. You fought on through it all, I wish you saw what we see...the strongest women who is the best a Mom can be.
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 10:40 AM UTC
I couldn't give you the love you needed cuz I couldn't even love myself. Couldn't feel the world around me...you've read this before like a book on a shelf. Lost in my head, I'm lost in my mind. Playin back the things that were said, but myself isn't something I can find. Not what you needed, you were lost yourself. Two people lost, more books on that shelf. We've heard this story, not our first time around...we were a shelter for the storm but now that storm just can't be found. Skies growing clear, but the pain won't subside. Sun shining down, but it's dark in my mind. Numb to the world, the feelings just die. The thoughts in my head say "why even try?" Giving up hope, but I'm feelin alive...with the pain that I put inside of these rhymes.
Oct 6, 2019
Oct 6, 2019 at 10:39 AM UTC