Last year I was reckless.
I catapulted into the deep-end
headfirst.
No waiting at the shore
No wading in the water
Only a sprint to the furthest end of the sea.
I soon began exchanging
pieces of me as currency
to buy more time afloat
my sleep;
my mind;
my sanity.
I thought I was resolute
but this was all too much
Titanic
I was drowning.
Then there you were...
you and your raft
ready to take me home.
It was then that I realized
that none have ever really loved me
before you <3
Jul 29, 2020
Jul 29, 2020 at 8:54 PM UTC
Writing for me
is a process in invention;
the development of ideas
I like to wander around in it
then finally stumble into it,
as I now become my pen
Writing for me…
tangles, shapes,
transforms, and shares
It is magic;
a tool for discoveries
a way to connect with,
act upon, and making meaning of my world.
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 6:42 AM UTC
Today you will havest the sun ☼
and let its light guide you down the aisle
your skin bright
& glowing
with a hue of forever
Today you will bathe in infinity,
whisper it into your vows
& stain it endlessly into your lips
You see
beautiful bride ❣
this moment
has been bursting at its seams,
eagerly waiting to start the rest of your life ♥
with love,
your bridesmaid
Dec 10, 2019
Dec 10, 2019 at 9:59 PM UTC
Today I thought about
writing a poem explaining
my greatest fear
of how...
when you’re madly in love
there is always a gnawing thought
that you may one day wake up
to his bags packed
saying he has clarity
that you are not enough
then I realized
any woman who has ever loved
would already understand.
Aug 14, 2019
Aug 14, 2019 at 4:05 AM UTC
This is the 2nd night this week
i've been sleeping with our memories
and waking to breadcrumbs
pulling me back
I remember the faint sound
of orange
and bacon bits
When we were at our best
I remember your half-written songs
hidden in places I would later find
I searched for meaning in your verses
only to be laying next to your silence
I watched you moved in retrograde
I saw your pain
the demons
the collapse
in your eyes
Now it’s been years
and there is nothing left
yet I feel myself reaching for you
in a different timeline
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 9:52 PM UTC
My grief is unrelenting
it’s crushing in its weight
you’re standing right in front of me
but you move in retrograde
It’s been three months since you confessed
that you don’t love me anymore
you left me drowning in my sadness
as I cried on the bathroom floor
I want to say I won’t keep trying
that I will grow around the void you left
but mom, it’s your illness talking
and I can’t fault you for that
Just please don’t start too big of a fire
that the whole bridge comes burning down
because once there’s only ashes
there is no way to walk on back
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 8:40 AM UTC
Where we 1st met: 41.06°N, -74.02°W
Our first kiss: 41.09°N, -73.92°W
Our first date: 41.16°N, -73.97°W
Our first “I love You:” 41.07°N, -74.02°W
Our first carnival: 41.01°N, -74.01°W
Our first vacation: 20.21°N, -87.45W
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 8:44 PM UTC
It’s been 14 hours since we’ve last talked
and your still on the center stage of my mind
The amount of self-discipline it takes to not call you
is pretty ******* amazing.
& the truth is that I already miss you;
I know you are angry right now
but know I’m sending you thoughts of love you messages
hoping it reaches you in time.
Jan 21, 2019
Jan 21, 2019 at 11:13 AM UTC
It’s funny how words have no meaning
until they are jumbled in just the right way,
pieced together perfectly;
hitting just the right spot.
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 7:19 PM UTC
Today I stand in front of you with a confession to make.
I need to apologize for all the ways I have failed you as a partner.
There have been many times when I can immediately taste the regret of
my harsh words.
And we are both left hearing the echoing silence of my incomplete apologies.
I wish I was given lessons on how to properly care for another’s heart.
Because I now see the cuts I have made and I know that I have
gotten things wrong.
Please forgive me for all my sharp edges, because I’m trying to smooth myself out.
I want to learn how to heal with my words; to build you up
instead of tearing you down.
Just know that I love you;
oh **** I love you. And I am trying.
I will always try.
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 12:33 AM UTC