Killian-Leaff - Hello Poetry

They watch me closely They feed me with pills Until I'm fat and unhealthy They show me the hospital bills nine-thousand dollars for me being sent to a facility. I'm drugged up and ****** up Is that rabbit really there? I lay in my bed then I sit up Am I really, truly, honestly here? My plan didn't work unfortunately I woke up in a hospital with an IV dropping ever so slowly "How could you be so irresponsible?" Wellbutrin, Geodon, Zoloft and Clozapine Latuda, Synthroid, Seroquel and Clomipramine One after the other goes into my mouth Lined inside my little pill box pouch. Maybe life will get better some day Not today, or tomorrow, or next week But someday, I promise you, I'll be okay I am no longer a failure, I am no longer meek.

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Jan 18, 2015

Jan 18, 2015 at 12:27 PM UTC

Drugged Up

They watch me closely They feed me with pills Until I'm fat and unhealthy They show me the hospital bills nine-thousand dollars for me being sent to a facility. I'm drugged up and ****** up Is that rabbit really there? I lay in my bed then I sit up Am I really, truly, honestly here? My plan didn't work unfortunately I woke up in a hospital with an IV dropping ever so slowly "How could you be so irresponsible?" Wellbutrin, Geodon, Zoloft and Clozapine Latuda, Synthroid, Seroquel and Clomipramine One after the other goes into my mouth Lined inside my little pill box pouch. Maybe life will get better some day Not today, or tomorrow, or next week But someday, I promise you, I'll be okay I am no longer a failure, I am no longer meek.

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Rain go away come out and play in the beautiful rain all day, all day(:

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May 24, 2014

May 24, 2014 at 6:28 PM UTC

Rain

Rain go away come out and play in the beautiful rain all day, all day(:

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The cold is too close for comfort The hot is too far away for love. The warmth is never there despite how hot I turn the shower on I'll always be frozen from the outside in.

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May 1, 2014

May 1, 2014 at 10:27 AM UTC

Frozen Showers

The cold is too close for comfort The hot is too far away for love. The warmth is never there despite how hot I turn the shower on I'll always be frozen from the outside in.

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When the dewdrops fall on the rocky hard surface of your grandparents face as they find out what you're made of drugs and *** *** and drugs is all you've been doing to survive through the pain of endless torture, aren't we all the same? We look for the highs, we search for the lows trying to determine what is our worth? When the dewdrops fall on your weathered parents faces the stress that you've caused make their hair gray in places but they still adore you through and through until the end of time.

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Apr 30, 2014

Apr 30, 2014 at 11:30 AM UTC

Unconditionable Love

When the dewdrops fall on the rocky hard surface of your grandparents face as they find out what you're made of drugs and *** *** and drugs is all you've been doing to survive through the pain of endless torture, aren't we all the same? We look for the highs, we search for the lows trying to determine what is our worth? When the dewdrops fall on your weathered parents faces the stress that you've caused make their hair gray in places but they still adore you through and through until the end of time.

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What do I say When all you've done is fail me What do I say When you were the one to beat me What do I say When you were the one to leave me Dear What do I say Mother, When you were the one to leave me hours alone You What do I say Failed When you are my own mother. Our What do I say Family When you want back into my life?

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Apr 28, 2014

Apr 28, 2014 at 7:41 PM UTC

Dear Christine,

What do I say When all you've done is fail me What do I say When you were the one to beat me What do I say When you were the one to leave me Dear What do I say Mother, When you were the one to leave me hours alone You What do I say Failed When you are my own mother. Our What do I say Family When you want back into my life?

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Feel your touch against mine gentle as time swaying in the wind never to touch again with the same lushfull feeling I stopped dealing with the pain of losing you because I know you missed me, too. I miss you and what we were you were my own personal cure from the world and beyond we had our own special bond that made it to where it was us against the world girl and girl who loved each other deeply even the sea was shallow to compare to our love with each other. <3 But this had to end because we are no longer friends because Death stole you away to take you to Heaven where we will meet again.

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Apr 28, 2014

Apr 28, 2014 at 6:56 PM UTC

Thanks, Death

Feel your touch against mine gentle as time swaying in the wind never to touch again with the same lushfull feeling I stopped dealing with the pain of losing you because I know you missed me, too. I miss you and what we were you were my own personal cure from the world and beyond we had our own special bond that made it to where it was us against the world girl and girl who loved each other deeply even the sea was shallow to compare to our love with each other. <3 But this had to end because we are no longer friends because Death stole you away to take you to Heaven where we will meet again.

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As i run i know im not going to give up without a fight i come to a clif and skid to a stop i hear them not far behind me, caressing my name gently theyre right behind me now i turn around and look at the two people they stand, bows ready i crouch and snarl but they still dont falter one of the men shoots and the arrow hits my shoulder i feel the smooth crimson run down my right leg i cry out but the blood comes out still the other man shoots, it hits my left leg i feel the blood from my previous wound become matted and rough as it dries the pain is searing through my body like poisen i snarl again and jump at the closest man. Hes too slow and i bend down and chomp on his neck i feel the sweet blood explode in to my mouth i crouch there for a second then pounce onto the other man i knock him over but he slits my stomache open i feel like throwing up i cough a little bit of dark, wet sickly red blood comes out. I look back up at the man i snarl then run this time I crouch close to the ground i jump and crunch down on his soft head his eyes popout, his brain taste so good<3 i call out to Life and she slowly crawls out and goes to the other man she rips open his chest and eats his intestines first, then his heart she savors the heart after she licks the blood from the ribcage clean and naws on the bones. I see her take the head in her paws and crunch down i see the blood pour out i laydown and look at the sinking sun with my head on my paws. <3

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Apr 28, 2014

Apr 28, 2014 at 2:49 PM UTC

Life And Death

As i run i know im not going to give up without a fight i come to a clif and skid to a stop i hear them not far behind me, caressing my name gently theyre right behind me now i turn around and look at the two people they stand, bows ready i crouch and snarl but they still dont falter one of the men shoots and the arrow hits my shoulder i feel the smooth crimson run down my right leg i cry out but the blood comes out still the other man shoots, it hits my left leg i feel the blood from my previous wound become matted and rough as it dries the pain is searing through my body like poisen i snarl again and jump at the closest man. Hes too slow and i bend down and chomp on his neck i feel the sweet blood explode in to my mouth i crouch there for a second then pounce onto the other man i knock him over but he slits my stomache open i feel like throwing up i cough a little bit of dark, wet sickly red blood comes out. I look back up at the man i snarl then run this time I crouch close to the ground i jump and crunch down on his soft head his eyes popout, his brain taste so good<3 i call out to Life and she slowly crawls out and goes to the other man she rips open his chest and eats his intestines first, then his heart she savors the heart after she licks the blood from the ribcage clean and naws on the bones. I see her take the head in her paws and crunch down i see the blood pour out i laydown and look at the sinking sun with my head on my paws. <3

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Hush little Whisper dont you cry Daddys gonna sing you a lullaby and when the lullabys all said and done Mommas gonna sing another one and when that songs done and gone Daddys gonna buy you a dead mockingbird And when that mockingbird tries to sing Daddys gonna stab it with a blade Then hes gonna go far far away And leave you to fend for youself and youll cry youself to sleep every night and Mommas gonna **** herself with a knife Hush little Whisper dont you cry not everything is at it seems and one day its all too much and you whisper to yourself "Hush little Whisper dont you cry everythings gonna be alright In another day, in another year, in another life."

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Apr 28, 2014

Apr 28, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC

Hush Little Whisper

Hush little Whisper dont you cry Daddys gonna sing you a lullaby and when the lullabys all said and done Mommas gonna sing another one and when that songs done and gone Daddys gonna buy you a dead mockingbird And when that mockingbird tries to sing Daddys gonna stab it with a blade Then hes gonna go far far away And leave you to fend for youself and youll cry youself to sleep every night and Mommas gonna **** herself with a knife Hush little Whisper dont you cry not everything is at it seems and one day its all too much and you whisper to yourself "Hush little Whisper dont you cry everythings gonna be alright In another day, in another year, in another life."

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Do you see me? Actually see me, Some days I feel as if you see through me I'm no longer with anyone I'm no longer under the sun I'm under clouds and stormy weather but at least we're together even if you no longer see me we'll be together for eternity I'll be your guardian lover a secret angel under cover Do you see me? Actually see me Some days I feel as if you see through me and other days, it's like you can you're my sweetheart, my lover, my man All that I want to adore not knowing what I had in store for a life long commitment to the one I love the most.

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Apr 28, 2014

Apr 28, 2014 at 2:18 PM UTC

Ghostly Wife

Do you see me? Actually see me, Some days I feel as if you see through me I'm no longer with anyone I'm no longer under the sun I'm under clouds and stormy weather but at least we're together even if you no longer see me we'll be together for eternity I'll be your guardian lover a secret angel under cover Do you see me? Actually see me Some days I feel as if you see through me and other days, it's like you can you're my sweetheart, my lover, my man All that I want to adore not knowing what I had in store for a life long commitment to the one I love the most.

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I got into an argument the argument was over the radio he wanted to listen to music I wanted to listen to silence I got out of the car and began to walk I walked and walked for forever. two hours later I walked home mom and dad were worried they called family and the police why couldn't I have held my anger? what's wrong with me? Why couldn't I listen to music? I began to cry and I screamed, the silence was broken. I have a blister on my right heel today the blister stings and burns but I deserve pain for upsetting my parents Next time, I'll step in front of a car.

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Apr 28, 2014

Apr 28, 2014 at 12:53 PM UTC

The Silence Was Broken

I got into an argument the argument was over the radio he wanted to listen to music I wanted to listen to silence I got out of the car and began to walk I walked and walked for forever. two hours later I walked home mom and dad were worried they called family and the police why couldn't I have held my anger? what's wrong with me? Why couldn't I listen to music? I began to cry and I screamed, the silence was broken. I have a blister on my right heel today the blister stings and burns but I deserve pain for upsetting my parents Next time, I'll step in front of a car.

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