Kfstocklin - Hello Poetry

Everything I did out of being kind hearted, maybe of been more selfish then accepted. I wanted to win you over, get back what I once admired. I woke up everything morning questioning my ability to be loved. You woke up the demons that had been sleeping with misery.

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Dec 3, 2015

Dec 3, 2015 at 11:04 PM UTC

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Everything I did out of being kind hearted, maybe of been more selfish then accepted. I wanted to win you over, get back what I once admired. I woke up everything morning questioning my ability to be loved. You woke up the demons that had been sleeping with misery.

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I have wrote word after word and letter after letter stating how much I hate you. How much I hope you feel pain. I sincerely do not care anymore. I am not thanking you though. I am not going to tell you you made the right choice by leaving. I am glad you are gone though because sooner or later you would of left. You prevented my daughter from later heartbreak. When she ask the dreadful questions later that I fear everyday, I will not once trash talk you, because if I like it or not you are still her "biological" father. I will also, not lie. I will tell her you left because you are selfish. That she is worth more then wondering why. Just from me though, you are not a man of your word. You never stand by the things you say. You are full of empty promises and broken words. I will never have my daughter be let down by you. But the truth is, I hope i can give her the best life, that she doesnt even wonder about you, ask about you, or want to meet you. I will give her the best life without you.

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Nov 15, 2015

Nov 15, 2015 at 10:25 AM UTC

A letter to the man.

I have wrote word after word and letter after letter stating how much I hate you. How much I hope you feel pain. I sincerely do not care anymore. I am not thanking you though. I am not going to tell you you made the right choice by leaving. I am glad you are gone though because sooner or later you would of left. You prevented my daughter from later heartbreak. When she ask the dreadful questions later that I fear everyday, I will not once trash talk you, because if I like it or not you are still her "biological" father. I will also, not lie. I will tell her you left because you are selfish. That she is worth more then wondering why. Just from me though, you are not a man of your word. You never stand by the things you say. You are full of empty promises and broken words. I will never have my daughter be let down by you. But the truth is, I hope i can give her the best life, that she doesnt even wonder about you, ask about you, or want to meet you. I will give her the best life without you.

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I do not love you. I love who you want to be.

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Oct 15, 2015

Oct 15, 2015 at 8:55 PM UTC

Fictional love.

I do not love you. I love who you want to be.

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I will tell you something dear you are not as ****** up as you think. You have broken memories & a guilty conscious. That is a simple fix, honey. Be the person you want everyone to believe you are, then you will have to stop acting. You will have to stop acting dear, for you see you will then be the one you try to get everyone else to see. I do not see you in the light you see yourself. I see you in the light of someone else. The one I saw laughing at the bar & the one that was seen by the sea. That, my love, is who you are when you are not trying so **** hard to guard yourself from your happiness. I have seen the one you want to be. & my god it is a beauty.

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Oct 14, 2015

Oct 14, 2015 at 9:57 PM UTC

What my eyes have saw.

I will tell you something dear you are not as ****** up as you think. You have broken memories & a guilty conscious. That is a simple fix, honey. Be the person you want everyone to believe you are, then you will have to stop acting. You will have to stop acting dear, for you see you will then be the one you try to get everyone else to see. I do not see you in the light you see yourself. I see you in the light of someone else. The one I saw laughing at the bar & the one that was seen by the sea. That, my love, is who you are when you are not trying so **** hard to guard yourself from your happiness. I have seen the one you want to be. & my god it is a beauty.

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It was the way you.. Smiled. Laughed. Walked. It was how you.. Talked with such passion. Had dreams that stole the night. Listened to music. It was because I ... Couldn't look away from you. Loved to hear your voice. It was your... Touch. Smell. Eyes. Hair. Style. It was the way I kept falling not once but every **** time you look at me with those eyes.

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Oct 11, 2015

Oct 11, 2015 at 4:52 PM UTC

Youre answer sir.

It was the way you.. Smiled. Laughed. Walked. It was how you.. Talked with such passion. Had dreams that stole the night. Listened to music. It was because I ... Couldn't look away from you. Loved to hear your voice. It was your... Touch. Smell. Eyes. Hair. Style. It was the way I kept falling not once but every **** time you look at me with those eyes.

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I told myself I'm not special. I told myself it's not personal. I still woke up & felt just as alone as the night before. I knew I wasn't one in a million. I was just the first to the phone. I must lack all self respect. I mean why else would I be a mess? 3 steps forward, now i am 5 steps back. They say "drunk words are sober thoughts." Now, it's the morning after & I'm confused as hell.

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Oct 11, 2015

Oct 11, 2015 at 2:20 PM UTC

Wake up!

I told myself I'm not special. I told myself it's not personal. I still woke up & felt just as alone as the night before. I knew I wasn't one in a million. I was just the first to the phone. I must lack all self respect. I mean why else would I be a mess? 3 steps forward, now i am 5 steps back. They say "drunk words are sober thoughts." Now, it's the morning after & I'm confused as hell.

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Striving for perfection. Living off the satisfaction of my independence. I am a full functioning adult. Working and living in society. But still that is not enough to keep the bad thoughts away. Where do you learn wisdom? Find it through experience. I have lived a life that could **** many. I am living a life many wish they had. Still holding back while the anxiety sets in. Still holding back because of the lack of self esteem. Where do I grow from here?

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Oct 7, 2015

Oct 7, 2015 at 9:21 PM UTC

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Striving for perfection. Living off the satisfaction of my independence. I am a full functioning adult. Working and living in society. But still that is not enough to keep the bad thoughts away. Where do you learn wisdom? Find it through experience. I have lived a life that could **** many. I am living a life many wish they had. Still holding back while the anxiety sets in. Still holding back because of the lack of self esteem. Where do I grow from here?

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Angry That is the only word that comes to mind when people ask me how I have been. I do not want to be angry anymore though, see this is what you have done to me. All these excuses and people taking blame. I just stare blankly as you keep talking away. I don't believe a **** word you say. Why should I now? It has never added up anyways. I have the proof written all over my face. *You are a monster in a beautiful mask*

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Oct 2, 2015

Oct 2, 2015 at 11:35 PM UTC

Anger

Angry That is the only word that comes to mind when people ask me how I have been. I do not want to be angry anymore though, see this is what you have done to me. All these excuses and people taking blame. I just stare blankly as you keep talking away. I don't believe a **** word you say. Why should I now? It has never added up anyways. I have the proof written all over my face. *You are a monster in a beautiful mask*

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The unknown is the hardest to get through. Why? What happened? When did things fall apart? What did I look past and not see? It is clear to me now, there is no victim in this game. Only two people who are in so much pain. Two people too willful to give in.

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Sep 25, 2015

Sep 25, 2015 at 5:33 PM UTC

Its Clear Now.

The unknown is the hardest to get through. Why? What happened? When did things fall apart? What did I look past and not see? It is clear to me now, there is no victim in this game. Only two people who are in so much pain. Two people too willful to give in.

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I no longer feel for you. I do not feel sorry. I do not feel love. I do not feel hate. I do not feel bad. You built this ground you stand on. You let the foundation crumble. You broke the lives of many & touched the lives of few.

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Sep 8, 2015

Sep 8, 2015 at 6:03 AM UTC

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I no longer feel for you. I do not feel sorry. I do not feel love. I do not feel hate. I do not feel bad. You built this ground you stand on. You let the foundation crumble. You broke the lives of many & touched the lives of few.

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