I jumped at the idea of love
With nothing behind my eyes but the desire to be desired
I jumped so high I reached cloud nine
Only to fall flat from all the lies
The naivete that would devour my body
Would justify all the questioning and misery
That would coexists with my love for you
Making somehow think it could only be true
The relief I felt was fleeting
As I feel-if not more- as unlovable as before
consumed by what you called only a feeling
giving your body or heart is a similar chore
The one remedy I have to this imfirmity
Is my now torn heart that divinely still hangs low on my sleeve .
knowing that in your brain theres more of ‘everythings’ than there is of me
And that you and I were nothing but a knock off tragedy
May 11
May 11, 2026 at 10:43 PM UTC
I am thirsty i am ready to drink out of anycup and taste any flavour
The drink I have is not to my liking , not everything is everyone’s cup of tea ,
Yet I can’t waste it , I cannot afford to go down thirsty.
I owe it to myself to stay alert and ready
Yet I don’t quite know this drink is it a deadly remedy ?
in uncertainty, I hide it from the world
I'm driven by objectivity , not the four letter word
I have no preference for this drink although it is all I got
I don’t like it here , but I don’t want it gone .
Should I close my eyes and drown my senses
In a flavour my body remembers,
One it aches for every second, each instant ,
Should I try and compensate the mind with mere imitation ?
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 1:35 PM UTC
I knew you’d live in me this way
With me here and you over there
Me alone , you with company
Though we both know who’s more lonely
I knew things would end this way
Hugging myself ever so tightly
Staring at all things tall and all things green
Seeing you in nature’s scenery
Where does the love go ?
When it’s never spoken for , never shown
The burn so painful and ever so slow
Tell me where does the love go ?
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 7:53 PM UTC
Maybe we should refrain from thinking strength and perseverance
As qualities that allows you to push through life
As you , my flesh and blood simply persever in your agony
And are so strong in embracing Great Depression
Maybe being just ‘strong’ isn’t what we’re after
Maybe it’s being strong in Hope not the latter .
Wanting happiness with an uknown fierceness that makes it impossible for you to accept the turmoil
Persevering in your quest to happiness that your cells fight the sorrow away in life not in death
Because strength as a life driving force is what we’re after
Strength can be found in everything , in the meak and in your pained soul
But let it be found in your heart , in your inherit will to live and in your inherit need for happiness .
Let your strength be found in the things that matter
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 8:09 PM UTC
I can’t stand the rain
I can only stand the sun
I can’t stand the pain
But I quite like the burn
I think I need assistance
Only now adulthood lurks over my shoulder
How do I ask for help
When I should have asked sooner?
The chore is found in the rest and in the stress
Nothing in me seems to have what it takes to complete this test
The hope I’ve cultivated since youth has grown into a sour fruit
Too bitter to be eaten and not yet ripe
Mar 17
Mar 17, 2026 at 8:36 PM UTC
You consume so little of my time now
So I’ll let this one be yours .
I thought I thought of you out of habit
But I don’t think of you at all now .
My heart vibrates at the songs I wrote in your name
And it remembers the melody of the beauty and despair
My heart sinks when I hear your name
As It remembers the sound my gentle guitar made
As it remembers my pain .
And when someone mentions your name ,
My mind goes blank
Looking for something that’s no longer there .
If it wasn’t for this ache in my heart ,
I would have forgotten my love for you ,
If , it wasn’t for the time we spent
I wouldn’t even remember you
And I torture myself to find out how ,
You that was the earth , sun and moon combined ,
Now fall into the category of " worst I’ve ever had"
How something at the center of my heart goes vacant
And I don’t notice , don’t even know how .
I guess your love has left me with something
It hasn’t quite left me empty ,
As you can see I’m still breathing
Something I deemed impossible if you were ever to leave me
And I’m left with misplaced pride
That tells me I was right for doing the right decisions
Although I can feel your absence will give place to wrong ones
I guess somewhere leaving you was the mission .
Jan 30
Jan 30, 2026 at 6:55 PM UTC
You’ll talk about your love for bikes
And how one day she’ll ride
Yours like she did last night
I know you’ll tease her about that
Two mornings from now you’ll love fantasy
And forget all about Dostoevsky
Rekindle your love for Harry Potter
Forsake the Jane Austen
The romance , the tender
Dec 3, 2025
Dec 3, 2025 at 2:14 PM UTC
How much mistakes can one make in a lifetime ?
Are they all concentrated at adolescence ?
Or do they splatter to taint your whole life ?
Are we meant to be flawed with no possible return ?
They are so many questions I mean to ask.
Are we always burdened by the right decisions ?
Why does the wrong seem so **** right ?
Can I let go and use my free will right now ?
Why am I weighed down by the hesitation ?
Why does what I want and what I need not align ?
Although they stem from the same being , same mind
From the same soul and the same heart
There are so many questions I mean to ask .
My mind is cribbled with so many memories
That disappear as time flies by
I wonder if someone else will also recognise me by scent
Or if they will all just pass me by .
if someone else will anticipate what I say
and guess it right
i wonder if someone else will know me at all
Nov 24, 2025
Nov 24, 2025 at 9:29 PM UTC
Wish to play with my muse till the day I die
Wish for us to be never separated by space and time
Will god leave us the time for the storm to calm down ?
Let it be a year or two , let our infatuation transcend this lifetime .
Are you not curious to see what fixing ourselves could bring?
I loved the sinner , you love the sin
Putting such blasphemy behind us
Can heal us both , from within .
Time only makes things better
Praying time can make them forget
And make us a stronger, greater
And forsake all the regrets .
Will the distance be seen as hate and not a final act of love ?
I wonder when unconditional love is no longer vertue but vice
You’ll never feel like what I gave was never enough
Cause I gave you a glance , before drowning in our demise
Nov 3, 2025
Nov 3, 2025 at 5:48 PM UTC
I think I need somebody, I think I need someone. someone to come and save me from my torment, save me from myself.
I think I need somebody, I think I need someone, to save me from the ink, and the grasp of my pen
I think I need somebody, I think I need someone, to save me, just to save me
It seems to me like such an easy plan, to come and turn my life around
I fix my flaws, make myself pretty but the fruit of it is still quite bland.
I think I need somebody someone cause I’m that girl everybody knows
You say my bark is all I got but truly I’m scared to know what will come of me if it was ever to stop.
I guess it makes a lot of things we simply can’t agree on.
I think I need a somebody, a someone, to lick my wounds when it gets to rough
Fix me like kitsugi ,convince me that my ‘perfect’ is still quite enough.
Because what is a a shiny metal covered in red and orange rust
Need you to drip me in peroxide, colour with me with glitter rid me of dust.
You call me gold, and I would remind you that I need to breathe
Reducing me to shiny metal that loses it’s shine with every scream
Oct 25, 2025
Oct 25, 2025 at 10:17 PM UTC