You lure me to bed when i have no desire
You tell me you'll end the pain for a while
As i crawl in i start to hope for something
That feels both attainable and wanted
But then you pull away and leave me frustrated
Others are travelling the land of dreams
While I am tethered here
So i get up from the bed in an undead state
I try to find a purpose while I'm stuck awake
I go outside alone and sad craving a connection
I lay gazing at the stars in silentsipent contemplation
Is there someone else gazing at them to
With whom i can connect for a moment
But the cosmos suggest a greater space
Between me and the connection i crave
So i slip on the slopes of emotion
And start to drink, smoke, and wonder why
I am surrounded by loved ones but still alone
I listen to the wind and smell the wild flowers
And get comfortable in my skin and my vices
I start to think that company doesn't need a heart
Perhaps the elements will let me feel as one
Then i feel something on my lap that'sthats warm
It is my darling cat, perhaps my oldest friend
I did not know she followed me out of the door
But she knew I needed her so she came along
I finally find my peace and we slowly drift off
Apr 11, 2019
Apr 11, 2019 at 12:24 AM UTC
A seemingly easy task
Unattainable
A life of happiness and love
Unsustainable
A bond so strong it can’t be broken
Unforgivable
A future that will make you proud
Unachievable
That you can be happy here with me
Unbelievable
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:57 PM UTC
I tried to smile this time
And think of only you
As i try to think of a rhyme
My tears are just a few
My sadness should be a crime
When faced with all you do
You make me feel so sublime
And yet I'm feeling blue
We still are in our prime
And have built ourselves a crew
It's time to begin this climb
Perhaps we'll find something new
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:57 PM UTC
I let my parents down
The moment i was born
I picture that first frown
When i feel forlorn
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:56 PM UTC
Depression eats away
As I gorge myself on food
I eat my feelings all day
But they never raise my mood
When I face a deadline
Anxiety kicks in
Today i’ll drown it in wine
Or perhaps gin
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:55 PM UTC
I question our existence,
I wonder why we’re here.
My mind gives only resistance,
So I drink another beer.
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:55 PM UTC
Independence is a virtue
But it's loneliness to me
Because when I'm without you
My soul is never free
This prison I’ve been drug into
Co-dependence is the key
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:54 PM UTC
Poetry has lost it’s meter, it’s rhyme, it’s soul
All that is left is a gaping hole
For when prose is poetry
And poetry is prose
An artform has died, and a new began.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 3:54 PM UTC
School is a release,
And it is a tether.
A source of inner peace,
And as turbulent as foul weather.
At first relevant,
Then no desire.
My wants and needs apparent,
And then a total lack of fire.
I need a change,
A return to something true.
To travel an open range,
With me, myself, and you.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 1:17 AM UTC
There’s darkness all around,
All night, and all day
I seem to only frown,
No matter what you say.
Just know you make me happy,
Just remember that I care
Even when I’m feeling ******
I’m happy that you’re there.
Apr 8, 2019
Apr 8, 2019 at 5:00 AM UTC