People show you who they really are
in the way they leave
not in the beginning
anyone can arrive with passion
with promises that feel endless
but endings tell the truth
the way they speak to you
when they no longer have to be kind
the care or cruelty
they wrap around goodbye
thats who they were all along
not how they loved you when staying was easy
but how they handled your heart
once they decided to go
and maybe that’s why I’m still here
holding your heart like something sacred
with gentle hands
with care that doesn’t disappear
just because things became difficult
because love reveals itself most honestly
in the moments it could choose to leave
and stays soft anyway
May 16
May 16, 2026 at 11:18 PM UTC
This is the end
The end of running
The end of suffering
The end of hurting
The end of crying
my soul forgot its name
My darkness overcame
I step out of life’s race
Not in defeat
but in refusal
Refusal to keep crying
Refusal to keep hurting
Refusal to keep suffering
Refusal to keep running
I created some of my demons
Life gave me more
None of them will leave
So I’ll leave first
Let the world keep reaching.
I am done reaching back.
May 2
May 2, 2026 at 2:50 AM UTC
Huda my love
losing you was a new kind of pain
but missing you every day
has become something worse
it sits with me
in the quiet
in the mornings
In lonely nights
in all the little things
that still feel like they should be ours
I still carry you with me
in every memory
every day
every part of me doesn’t want to move on
and what hurts the most
is feeling it more every day
that I may never get to call you
my wife again
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 11:37 PM UTC
Dont miss me when Im gone
Just live for real this time
Go be happy in all the ways
you couldnt be with me
Be free no overthinking no looking back
I want you to have everything
the kind of love that feels easy
the life you always talked about
You deserve all of it
I just hate knowing
I wasnt the one
who could give it to you
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 11:19 PM UTC
I sit beside you
close enough to hear you
too far to reach you
your eyes don’t find me anymore
your smile belongs somewhere else
your phone lights up
and I disappear
you are leaving
slowly
right next to me
I know why
I feel it in my chest
I did this I did this
I want to be better now
I am trying now
but now feels too late
you are building something new
while I am still standing
in what I broke
the hardest part is not losing you
it is watching you go
and I stay here
learning how to live
with the one who caused it
Apr 21
Apr 21, 2026 at 3:49 PM UTC
when death comes softly to my door
i will not greet him as before
so long i fought with stubborn breath
turning away the call of death
now all the battles linger deep
their quiet weight i always keep
im not afraid just tired it seems
like fading fire beneath old dreams
ive walked so long through dark and light
through endless days and endless nights
ive carried hope through every scar
and wondered how i made it this far
and should he come to me again
i think ill welcome silence then
maybe ill rest where shadows fall
and not feel the weight of it all
Mar 27
Mar 27, 2026 at 2:42 PM UTC
There was a house
where silence wore bruises
where love came with the sharpest teeth
where my pain was spoken as a promise
A promise as true as the sun will always rise
I was small
Small enough to believe
That storms were fathers
and the thunder was my fault
Hands meant to protect
Were the hands that broke
violent unforgettable
leaving scars
Like memories living rent free in my mind
He tried to break me
not always in ways that show on Xrays
Tried to bury me
under shame
under fear
under the lie that I was nothing
And he did
But like a stubborn ****
I grew roots in cracked foundations
I flourished
That I did
Years later
one thousand eight hundred pounds of steel
pressed the air from my lungs
metal and gravity conspiring
to fold me into the earth
Bones screamed
The world narrowed
Darkness was closing in
Time was coming to an end
But then my body remembered
It remembered surviving hands
It remembered surviving nights
It remembered that pressure
It remembered that pain
It remembered it survived many times before
So why not again
Crushed does not mean finished
Pinned does not mean powerless
Weight does not mean worthlessness
My mind is damaged I feel broken
But I survived
a childhood that tried to erase me
if I could crawl out
from under a fathers shadow
and from beneath cold merciless steel
Then I can survive this too
The mind can bruise
The heart can fracture
Memories can press down
like a thousand unseen pounds
But I am not new to survival
I have been forged
in darker rooms than this
I have carried heavier things
than fear
I am not what happened to me
I am what grew anyway
Although I will never forget I can forgive
I will always remember that I am
A SURVIVOR TO THE VERY END
Feb 19
Feb 19, 2026 at 10:43 PM UTC
Mom I’m drowning I need your hand
the weight of this pain I can’t withstand
I’m lost reaching for your light
to guide me through this endless night
I know you’re in heaven watching over me
but if you could show the way and set me free
Feb 19
Feb 19, 2026 at 10:01 PM UTC
Just a lost soul like a lone cloud floating
Full of rain overflowing
Sinking with all this bloating
Trying to survive this harrowing
The energy is agitating
The loneliness comes swallowing
Feb 17
Feb 17, 2026 at 1:55 AM UTC