JustMightBeAlyss
36/F/Dark Side of the Moon
I live in a garden on the dark side of the moon and wander among the stars... blinking in and out, matching the rhythm of my heart. I've been down rabbit holes and up in mushroom clouds. I dream in ink and words and earnestly must get them out.
I wrote poetry in the sand,
fragile and foamed over by the sea...
Shallow, lightning-glass letters,
tasting of salt, of dreams, of you and me.
I left footprints in the clouds,
soft and brimming with crystal dew...
So many little puddles of rain yet to be,
reflecting the stars, reflecting me, reflecting you.
There's a rainbow on the horizon that says it knows my shadow.
There's a shape that your lips take when you murmur my name.
I sew verses into the seams of my dress,
they melt into the slick of my skin.
I skip through pools in summer downpours,
and wonder if I might be all there is...
I held out my hand,
delicate,
fingers covered in ink...
Like a stain waiting to claim a piece of your heart
with all the pieces of me.
Jan 7
Jan 7, 2026 at 2:15 PM UTC
I'm splitting at my seams,
seeping like watercolors
into the canvas of my dreams.
Scenes flashing,
shadows scraping
at my insides...
Clawing whispers of silhouettes
and skin,
decadent adjurations
for an all-consuming sin.
I can feel myself
unfurling,
resplendent like the spark and smoke
above the flames.
Seeking to drown,
take me under
with the surrender in my name.
I was built to worship,
molded like a murmur upon a tongue,
wet, ripe, and aching...
Soon to come
undone.
A secret prayer
uttered in the dark...
Please,
******* tear me apart.
Dec 23, 2025
Dec 23, 2025 at 3:28 PM UTC
I pray in shadows...
The Moon hears my words and whispers...
Please god,
fill me up with stars
so I may always shine in the dark.
My spine curves around the ache
in my heart.
If I was born to burn,
let me taste that raw, unending spark...
Please god,
fill me up with stars...
Dec 22, 2025
Dec 22, 2025 at 5:20 PM UTC
Helen can keep her ships and soldiers,
I do not long for lands or lines on a mythical plat.
Guinevere's old kings and young knights draw no glances from the green in my eyes.
I have no use for such pomp and gaud.
Cleopatra's lovers and emperors,
her crowns and coins hold no sway over my heart and its hungers.
Were that I could claim the flesh of Calliope as my own...
Oh...
the ecstasy of words wending their way into existence at the mere catalyst of my presence.
Give me the intoxication of a secret soliloquy laid bare over the bare image of me,
twisting in whispers around my skin and my shape.
Drown me in the delicious dark of ink dripping over draft after draft of my description and the delicacy of my demeanor and dignity.
Submerge me in the din of quills scratching furiously to illustrate the idiosyncratic nature of my grace, to convey the delectable sound of my voice.
Deep-diving depictions of desire and adoration.
Leave the gods to their temples,
their thunderbolts,
their empty idols built for ruin.
I crave only the immortal mind
melodically enshrined in a perfect rhyme...
a turn of phrase skillfully turned about the flowing silhouette of my frame,
gently, everlasting...
capturing the brilliance and beauty in my face.
I want only words
and all of the cosmic magic
that they make.
Dec 12, 2025
Dec 12, 2025 at 4:41 PM UTC
First snow of the season,
first breath pillowed out like clouds,
steam and heat and vitality.
I caught the cold upon my tongue
and smiled at its playfulness...
(Is it morbid to think it might be poison?)
I caught another
and another.
I walked beneath obsidian branches
and found crystals hanging there...
Glittering life, clinging to death...
Black against white against light
against all cosmic odds,
and sparkling like stars
in the void and vacuum.
Can it just be enough that I got to touch them once?
Beauty for its own sake... Can that just be enough?
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 9:46 AM UTC
I feel strangely sewn together...
awkwardly jutting angles and juxtaposing curves,
rolling over and tumbling down.
I feel indelicately exposed,
my insides playing at being outsides,
bursting at all my seams.
The color of my fabric faded,
paled beneath the sun.
Can you see right through me?
I feel like a monstrous masterpiece,
the innocent aftermath of so many robbed graves.
I feel poked and prodded,
conjured into creation by a soulless, demanding master--
the seamstress' hand at the cruel heart of my design.
The question of my morality poignant,
paradoxical from my conception.
Can anyone possibly save me?
Dec 8, 2025
Dec 8, 2025 at 12:47 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel like a ghost,
snowflake bones in frosty months,
and I am the sunlit cold,
glittering in puffs of smog...
Do I scream for its own sake?
Or in the hope that someone else will hear?
Am I real if no one ever sees me?
Dec 7, 2025
Dec 7, 2025 at 2:01 PM UTC
I want a lover
that tastes like the sea,
salty and slick,
seeking to drown
as they dive deep
to devour every drop of me.
I want a lover
that sounds like waves crashing,
rolling in echoes,
growling with longing
as they're drawn by my lunar gravity
to collapse on my beach.
I want a lover
that changes colors in storms,
silver glittering beneath the moon,
green sparkling in the sun
as they're curving over with their tongue
the rainbow silhouette of my desire.
I want a lover
that dreams only of me,
deciphers my shape in the stars,
a celestial body in the dark
as they're giving all of their heart
filling me up with the flavor, the song, the magic of the sea.
Dec 6, 2025
Dec 6, 2025 at 11:12 AM UTC
My eyes sink slowly into dark circles,
receding like the moon from the morning.
I find myself wondering how long it will be
until they’ve retreated to the back of my skull,
turning my world to a blood-washed blackness—
inescapable and cold.
I’ll miss the color of sunrises
and the auburn of your hair…
but it seems to matter less each day…
I’m already missing the sight of you anyway.
I miss sleep.
I miss feeling safe.
I miss food and the way your lips taste.
I miss having hope and believing in us.
More than my eyes,
I miss feeling like you were someone I could trust.
My heart sinks slowly into the caverns of my body,
ebbing like the tide from the shore.
I catch my breath intermittently,
sometimes feel an echo within my hollow ribcage…
a small but sharp reminder of the way it was before.
I’ll miss the pounding in my chest
and the answering rhythm from yours.
But I seem to sense it less each night…
I’m already missing the cadence of saying you were mine.
I miss clarity.
I miss feeling sane.
I miss laughter and the way you say my name.
I miss having dreams and building them with you.
More than my heart,
I miss feeling like you missed me too.
Dec 5, 2025
Dec 5, 2025 at 12:15 PM UTC
If I write these words, then maybe they will write me whole
Maybe they will make sense of me
and the longing born of my senselessness will finally leave.
Maybe if can get something down, something out,
I will lift myself up and get myself in
to a new frame of mind.
I may not understand shapes,
but I can relate to syllables
and the way they pace
like the rhythm of my heart,
the ebb and flow they weave
like the tidal rise and fall of my chest,
the way they can compress
the very air we breathe.
I just wish it felt like they knew me,
like they could reflect back my point and purpose
beyond the snag of pen.
Like they could show me how to be more than this outline, this silhouette,
this ghost haunting the home of the girl I might have been.
If I write these words,
maybe I’ll be more than just a dream.
Dec 4, 2025
Dec 4, 2025 at 4:56 PM UTC