JustBenifet - Hello Poetry

I've been told that my smiles They don't reach my eyes anymore And whenever I see someone genuinely happy A part of me dies a little more I can't sleep I can't eat I don't want to go outside anymore All I really want to do, Lay in bed and cry a little more I really wish That I could think Outside of my draining sink Happy memories, good experiences All down into that deep, black hole They say shape up, ship out, get up, don't pout Look around you, this generation is dying You say our humor is morbid, or stupid, nonsensical But what you can't see is that we're using it to cover up the fact that inside We're crying. Look past the fake smiles The masks that everyone wears See that past all that we're rocking back and forth In a dark black hole Thinking over and over 'It'll be ok'

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Oct 19, 2017

Oct 19, 2017 at 6:28 PM UTC

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I've been told that my smiles They don't reach my eyes anymore And whenever I see someone genuinely happy A part of me dies a little more I can't sleep I can't eat I don't want to go outside anymore All I really want to do, Lay in bed and cry a little more I really wish That I could think Outside of my draining sink Happy memories, good experiences All down into that deep, black hole They say shape up, ship out, get up, don't pout Look around you, this generation is dying You say our humor is morbid, or stupid, nonsensical But what you can't see is that we're using it to cover up the fact that inside We're crying. Look past the fake smiles The masks that everyone wears See that past all that we're rocking back and forth In a dark black hole Thinking over and over 'It'll be ok'

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Lights Cameras Action Body Sweat Hands Touching places they shouldn't Grasping things that hurt Doing things that they shouldn't- Things that I really don't want them to do Voices Moans Groans Pounding heads Cups filled with water, wine, and other things put there by hands controlled by scheming minds No Stop I know that I don't want this But I have no power to stop it No control over my own life

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Nov 9, 2016

Nov 9, 2016 at 11:33 PM UTC

No Control

Lights Cameras Action Body Sweat Hands Touching places they shouldn't Grasping things that hurt Doing things that they shouldn't- Things that I really don't want them to do Voices Moans Groans Pounding heads Cups filled with water, wine, and other things put there by hands controlled by scheming minds No Stop I know that I don't want this But I have no power to stop it No control over my own life

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I can tell that the radio's playing But all that I hear is white noise I know that he's talking I can see his lips moving But his words go in one ear and out the other Not coming anywhere near my mind Which might as well be in another dimension Not in this smoke filled room With the heat and sweat of all these bodies I feel his hands Touching Grabbing Places I know my father wouldn't want him to go I should tell him no Stop But I'm frozen in this white dimension White walls White floors, white ceiling White noise

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Nov 7, 2016

Nov 7, 2016 at 1:18 AM UTC

White noise

I can tell that the radio's playing But all that I hear is white noise I know that he's talking I can see his lips moving But his words go in one ear and out the other Not coming anywhere near my mind Which might as well be in another dimension Not in this smoke filled room With the heat and sweat of all these bodies I feel his hands Touching Grabbing Places I know my father wouldn't want him to go I should tell him no Stop But I'm frozen in this white dimension White walls White floors, white ceiling White noise

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Chasing Stars Dreams go far Never knowing Always hoping Closing eyes Propelling off of cliffs Hoping Never knowing To fall into a land of stars

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Oct 31, 2016

Oct 31, 2016 at 12:19 AM UTC

Stars

Chasing Stars Dreams go far Never knowing Always hoping Closing eyes Propelling off of cliffs Hoping Never knowing To fall into a land of stars

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I live a very melancholy life And I never really knew why I would try and try Watching all my friends reach their skies Never quite being able to touch mine My fingertips would brush the clouds Then I would fall back down To a world filled to the brim with happiness that never seemed to reach my cup I'd go up and up and up Then in an instant I'd fall back down To my happy little world My smiling face masking a melancholy frown

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Oct 30, 2016

Oct 30, 2016 at 11:14 PM UTC

Melancholy

I live a very melancholy life And I never really knew why I would try and try Watching all my friends reach their skies Never quite being able to touch mine My fingertips would brush the clouds Then I would fall back down To a world filled to the brim with happiness that never seemed to reach my cup I'd go up and up and up Then in an instant I'd fall back down To my happy little world My smiling face masking a melancholy frown

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Today I cried a river I drowned in my own tears For a minute or two I tried to swim Then I succumbed to my own fears Today I cried a river I tinted it with blood Pulled out a knife And cut in strife My very own flesh and blood Today I cried a river And no one else will know Because no one saw The knife I drew But for a thousand flakes of snow

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Oct 30, 2016

Oct 30, 2016 at 11:00 PM UTC

Today I Cried a River

Today I cried a river I drowned in my own tears For a minute or two I tried to swim Then I succumbed to my own fears Today I cried a river I tinted it with blood Pulled out a knife And cut in strife My very own flesh and blood Today I cried a river And no one else will know Because no one saw The knife I drew But for a thousand flakes of snow

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Sanity depends On who is looking Right or left Left or right It could be there Or somewhere else Whether you find it or not Does not mean that it's actually there I lost mine a while ago

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Aug 29, 2016

Aug 29, 2016 at 9:08 PM UTC

Sanity

Sanity depends On who is looking Right or left Left or right It could be there Or somewhere else Whether you find it or not Does not mean that it's actually there I lost mine a while ago

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