Julia-mae - Hello Poetry

i wanted to get rid of everything i wanted to throw away everything i wanted to throw away our bed just to get you outside of my head i wanted to break all of the plates into a million pieces because eating from them alone made me now shake i wanted to burn all of the curtains i wanted to burn the couch because you no longer occupy the space next to me on it i wanted to smash the tv in just as you did to my heart i couldn't watch our shows anymore i wanted to strip the walls of all of their color because you picked out that shade of red but now i'm sick of looking at it i wanted to break all of the windows and jump out lay amongst the glass shards in the lawn come and find me here alone come and see what you have done to our home

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Jan 21, 2020

Jan 21, 2020 at 4:06 AM UTC

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i wanted to get rid of everything i wanted to throw away everything i wanted to throw away our bed just to get you outside of my head i wanted to break all of the plates into a million pieces because eating from them alone made me now shake i wanted to burn all of the curtains i wanted to burn the couch because you no longer occupy the space next to me on it i wanted to smash the tv in just as you did to my heart i couldn't watch our shows anymore i wanted to strip the walls of all of their color because you picked out that shade of red but now i'm sick of looking at it i wanted to break all of the windows and jump out lay amongst the glass shards in the lawn come and find me here alone come and see what you have done to our home

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i see your self improvement in waves and then eventually the waves come crashing back down, deeper into dark recesses, never rising above the surface again for long and i am so afraid that you will remain there, forever lost

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Dec 26, 2018

Dec 26, 2018 at 7:57 PM UTC

do you really want to not get better?

i see your self improvement in waves and then eventually the waves come crashing back down, deeper into dark recesses, never rising above the surface again for long and i am so afraid that you will remain there, forever lost

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you're not pretty like all of these other girls that you see on the tv and in magazines but who you are is so unique more than those other girls could ever hope to be

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Dec 1, 2018

Dec 1, 2018 at 6:47 AM UTC

other girls

you're not pretty like all of these other girls that you see on the tv and in magazines but who you are is so unique more than those other girls could ever hope to be

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trust me when i say that i am trying so hard to be a better person in so many ways

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Sep 26, 2018

Sep 26, 2018 at 6:36 PM UTC

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trust me when i say that i am trying so hard to be a better person in so many ways

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the type of love where i catch you staring at me. longingly. admiringly. the type of love i can feel, not only hear. the type of love where i look over at you. my eyes become fixated. locked. my heart becomes warm. full. the type of love where i look at you. and i love you. i simply. i love you. you meet my glance. with no words. you love me back. you love me back. you don’t even need to say.

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Sep 26, 2018

Sep 26, 2018 at 6:33 PM UTC

i love you.

the type of love where i catch you staring at me. longingly. admiringly. the type of love i can feel, not only hear. the type of love where i look over at you. my eyes become fixated. locked. my heart becomes warm. full. the type of love where i look at you. and i love you. i simply. i love you. you meet my glance. with no words. you love me back. you love me back. you don’t even need to say.

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you broke me beyond repair it sometimes feel but this time i don't want to be that girl who runs to the next man's available set of arms the one who still lives inside of the sadness you left behind for me the one you no longer feel i want to heal to wait to believe that something far better than you is meant for me

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Sep 15, 2018

Sep 15, 2018 at 8:19 PM UTC

you deserve more.

you broke me beyond repair it sometimes feel but this time i don't want to be that girl who runs to the next man's available set of arms the one who still lives inside of the sadness you left behind for me the one you no longer feel i want to heal to wait to believe that something far better than you is meant for me

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you were ever rarely a good love a bad love an abusive love a love that was never love my first love

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Sep 15, 2018

Sep 15, 2018 at 8:16 PM UTC

first.

you were ever rarely a good love a bad love an abusive love a love that was never love my first love

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and i'm sorry that i love too hard too much too all at once i'm sorry that i can't help but to break down when i imagine your body intertwined with someone's else

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Sep 15, 2018

Sep 15, 2018 at 8:14 PM UTC

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and i'm sorry that i love too hard too much too all at once i'm sorry that i can't help but to break down when i imagine your body intertwined with someone's else

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you're looking at her pictures now instead of mine in the middle of the night when you need a little bit of healing from your loneliness and my existence no longer is your remedy

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Jun 9, 2018

Jun 9, 2018 at 2:06 PM UTC

re(nd)medy

you're looking at her pictures now instead of mine in the middle of the night when you need a little bit of healing from your loneliness and my existence no longer is your remedy

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I used to write about you a lot. I haven't written in so long. I guess the hurt became way too heavy and I didn't want to sit there anymore and try to make sense of it, or try to heal myself from it. There was nothing to do anymore but to sit in silence and feel it.

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Apr 24, 2018

Apr 24, 2018 at 10:51 AM UTC

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I used to write about you a lot. I haven't written in so long. I guess the hurt became way too heavy and I didn't want to sit there anymore and try to make sense of it, or try to heal myself from it. There was nothing to do anymore but to sit in silence and feel it.

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