I miss this, I miss how we used to "love" each other. I miss the person who loved me with every inch of my body & soul. He wasn't so embarrassed, or felt how he does now.
You know, sadly everyone's opinions ruined this relationship too. Everyone has a 2 cent.
Nobody really says it, til you really experience it. You really do lose that spark, and I've tried so hard to have it back. Maybe, fought to hard to have it back.
Communicate, communicate. That's what everyone preaches. You can communicate all you want, but really? It's a lot more about listening first, listening to each other if you wanna make a difference.
You would think, "oh! It's okay, we're growing in other ways.". No, no. We're not experiencing that type of fortunate growth.
You literally go to talking, to never talking. The differences that sound louder in the dark, than the words that we speak. No more goodmornings, no more goodbyes. No more how are yous, no more laughs. No more anything, especially if he looks for others to enjoy & not you.
We sleep in the same bed, but we've never been so farther from each other.
Nov 19, 2025
Nov 19, 2025 at 2:06 PM UTC
sometimes i'm green, sometimes i'm purple.
not doing a green eggs, and ham idea here.
but, i can be purple. instead, of green.
when i get asked what my favorite color is, but i had always said since a little green pea. i don't have one, cause i never wanted to hurt the colors feelings.
but, i'm green. or, purple.
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 7:44 PM UTC
i wake up, and i'm feeling like a pile of rocks.
i wake up, and i say i feel like flowers in bloom.
you wake up, you feel like the world is slow.
you wake up, and you say that it's time for you to wake up.
i eat, and i'm feeling unfortunately heavy.
i eat, and i say it's time for good meal.
you eat, and feel for something small.
you eat, and you say you cannot eat that much.
you say this, and i say that.
it goes around, and comes back around.
i used to just say, but now i wanna say louder.
you stay, you stay in the same place.
how much more scheming must happen, in other days to come?
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 6:53 PM UTC
it's easy to remember the kisses, the laughter.
the way your name felt soft on my tongue.
but, what about the nights i slept alone?
the fights that left my heart bruised?
the slience so heavy that it choked me.
being shut out, locked away from you by you.
no photos of my tears.
no post of my emptiness that settled in my chest.
as if love's ugliest moments didn't existed.
and, here's the truth i never wanted to learn.
: spoiler alert - *** never makes someone love you.
not enough to stay.
not even enough to try.
Jul 27, 2025
Jul 27, 2025 at 6:32 PM UTC