If I could write how I was feeling, I would fill a hundred books
But it’s impossible to write, what I have never understood
The tears that leave me eyes are becoming (much) too common
I somehow wish that I, could be the man I promised
Life has gave me chances, while love has gave me scars
Can I still be saved? Or am I too far gone?
I’ll walk a thousands roads, but never reach the end
I love to turn around, as soon as life begins
I’m quick to help another, but slow to help myself
I’ve tried so many times yet fall back in this hell
My heart is slowly breaking, my soul is frozen raw
Another day of chasing, the man I know I’m not
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 2:56 AM UTC
When the harshest words you hear, come from inside of your head
When the loneliest you’ve been, comes from inside of your bed
Maybe it is time, to give yourself some love
When the reflection that you see is covered by a mask
When the person that you are, loves to tell you what you lack
Maybe is is time, to give yourself a try
When you cannot fix yourself and all you feel is hurt
When the time is passing by and your questioning your worth
Maybe it is time, to give yourself some help
When the toughest critic yet is the man in your reflection
When your tired and alone, and you lost all your direction
Maybe it is time, to give yourself a break
When you learn to love your flaws and feel free inside your head
When you wake up filled with hope, and smile cuz you can
You know it is time, to start living your life
When you say that your enough, that the lonely times will pass
When you wake up without hurt and don’t put on a mask
You know it is time, to start living your life
When you no longer feel pain from the emptiness of words
When every single day feels like a chance to learn
You know it is time, to start living your life
When the life that you have dreamed are within your own grasp
When you start to feel happiness without reaching for the flask
You know it is time, to start living your life
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 6:10 AM UTC
are we really ‘all alone’ or just addicted to the pain?
Apr 2, 2020
Apr 2, 2020 at 7:11 AM UTC
There’s mountains I am climbing
No man will ever see
There’s times when I feel broken
When life won’t let me be
There’s whiskey in my bloodline
But waters what I need
There’s pain outside my front porch
It’s staring back at me
Guess that’s the way it goes now
I’m fighting on my own
I don’t know where I’m going
Just hope it’s not alone
Some peaks are not worth reaching
Some lives are cut too short
I wish that what I know now
I had known before
Mar 30, 2020
Mar 30, 2020 at 1:28 AM UTC
The world is big
My mind is small
Another day
I can’t recall,
I’m learning just
How hard I’ll fall
A lonely life
Ain’t what I’d thought
You live for life
I live for pain
I search for words
Yet can’t explain,
I’m in the past
Cannot escape
Tomorrow’s stuck
In yesterday
Why can’t you see, just how bad it gets
Life will never be, the way that I except
I once dreamed a dream but now I’m lost and blind
I once dreamed a dream that I cannot still find
I don’t have fun
I can hear you London
I don’t have fun
I can hear you fine
I don’t have fun
I can hear you London
I am running out of time
Open up
But just get hurt
Need some love
oh how it burns
Losing time
Here on this Earth
I don’t care
I’m not the first
Feeling you
But now you’re gone
All alone
Another song
World at war
An unknown cause
Life is pain
For all involved
I know that peace, must start within
Not living life if it never did begin
Not feeling fine, guess I never did
Yet here I am, blowing in the wind
Here I am, blowing in the wind
I don’t have fun
I can hear you London
I don’t have fun
I can hear you fine
I don’t have fun
I can hear you London
You will never see me smile
Yeah cuz you will never see me
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 6:43 PM UTC
If I could tell you how I feel, all these thoughts inside my head
You would probably run away or say your phone has just been dead
I can’t seem to get replies when I talk about my struggles
I still yearn for younger days when I was jumping into puddles
I wasn’t scared of what’s ahead, I just took it breath by breathe
I was happy with myself, now I’m filled with loneliness
Don’t know how or don’t know when, I just know I’m not the same
I’d trade a thousand friends just for one who’d want to stay
I’ve been walking on my own for as long as I recall
My body merges with the trees but the wind won’t take us far
I cannot shake my roots, and the man that I’ve become
Can’t you see I’ve changed? I’m so uncomfortably numb
Mar 5, 2020
Mar 5, 2020 at 11:14 PM UTC
The voices in my head have never been so loud
A moment slowly passes, another’s left to drown
The man above is looking up, the devils looking down
Why are some noises cherished? And others just sound
Nostalgia doesn’t push away the times that cause us pain
It wants to see the brighter side, and I should do the same
But I focus on the darker ones and stay inside my cage
I push away the ones I love, there’s no one else to blame
Imperfections fill my soul and nothing’s ever changed
My days are just a movie scene, I’m acting on a stage
But nights are when I lose my mind, it cannot be contained
I know I’m prone to run from love, I wish I would of stayed
Stayed to see the friends I knew grow up before my eyes
Stayed to see the girl I love become more than one night
Stayed to see my mom be proud of the man I am inside
I’d leave behind the pain I felt, and live to see the light
But I let fear take over every inch of my weak soul
I never learned to fight for me, I lost all self-control
I’m not sure I can be okay, and go on with my life
The man I see that’s staring back, I hardly recognize
Feb 27, 2020
Feb 27, 2020 at 12:13 AM UTC
The voices in my head have never been so loud
A moment slowly passes, while another’s left to drown
The man above is looking up, while the devils looking down
Why are some noises cherished? And others (are) just sound
Nostalgia doesn’t push away the times that cause us pain
It (just) wants to see the brighter side, and I should do the same
But I focus on the darker ones and stay inside my cage
I push away the ones I love, there’s no one else to blame
Imperfections fill my soul and nothing’s ever changed
My days are just a movie scene, I’m acting on a stage
But nights are when I lose my mind, it cannot be contained
I know I’m prone to run from love, I wish I would of stayed
Stayed to see the friends I knew grow up before my eyes
Stayed to see the girl I love become more than one night
Stayed to see my mum be proud of the man I am inside
I’d leave behind the pain I felt, and live to see the light
But I let fear take over every inch of my weak soul
I never learned to fight for me, I lost all self-control
I’m not sure I can be okay, and go on with my life
The man I see that’s staring back, I hardly recognize
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 3:55 AM UTC
I’ve spent my whole life running
From the demons I won’t face,
Yet I thank my lucky stars
That I am here today
The world ain’t nearly half as bad
As I make it out to be,
I know that I will be okay
Even if it’s in my dreams
The pain that I’ve felt before
And the struggles up ahead,
Will not leave me defeated
I will never walk away
My soul is broken
My heart is froze
Yet I will fight another day
I’m no longer alone
The Lord has blessed me time and time
To be the man I’ll be
I thank Him for the pain I’ve felt
Without it I’m not me
Without it I’m not me
Without it I’m not me
The hate will try to knock me down
And leave me half past dead
I’ve been there many times before
And I’ll be there again
But life ain’t bout the lowest days
It’s bout how you respond
We’ll get back up, find our way
And learn how to go on
My friend, I’ll help you make it through
The darkest of your times
I’ll lean on you, you’ll lean on me
I know we will survive
My soul is broken
My heart is froze
Yet we will fight another day
We’re no longer alone
The pain you’ve felt will soon become
A distant, far unknown
Know that you are special friend
Without you, we can’t be
Without you, we can’t be
Without you, we can’t be
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019 at 10:54 PM UTC