I wear my heart on my scarred and tethered sleeve
I rest my heart under my favorite shirt
The one I bought for a day out
That never panned out
I dangle my heart over a juxtaposition of what was once you and me
Clearly
I'm qualified to handle my issues
Alone
Behold all the moments I cried out for help and not one soul listened
I debated suicude
Along side my mothers guidance
I buried my heart under all those back & forth arguments
Steming from voids we shall not cement in truth
Her and I are better now
I dabble in silence towards backtalk and a slick tongue
Sometimes her volume still demands too much from my teetering patience
But ****** I love her
Like I loved them
Fragrance
A gift today
A scent long forgotten
A heart beat tranquilizer
That's what love foretold
When you lose someone
You wonder
What it'll take to reel them back in
To foresee a journey
Another one entails fashionable corruption
Mind boggling desecration
I lost to who
I lost two
I lost too many times
Only when you've lost everyone, you gain yourself
A carousel fairytale ride
Each roundabout
Noticing loss of smiling faces to each child
That's my life to this point summed up entirely
Each yearly roundabout
You're becoming farther out of my reach
I preach to the masses you become farther without the first "r" for me
I'm ready to wear my heart revamped and revealed
For everyone to caress and undress
Peeling away my surrender
I rest my heart on yours
Going at it alone
It's not unnessacary
Just unwanted
Not ideal
May 19, 2022
May 19, 2022 at 9:44 PM UTC
Climb inside my cat tongue
Glass shards chewed to grinds of sand
Numb mouth appraisal
Saliva
Red ocean
Desolate salt
Burning wounds that heal and
beautifully scar
Smile lavishly
And unwind to cope unbridled pageantry
Climb
In my infectious bed
A
Women's
Choice of another
Man
Value the worthless
And purchase the free
Envy towards treason
Begging of reason
Foward
In translation
As to why
It isn't you
Where they
Lie
Breeding conversations
That silence Moans to
Quivering, a last place
Talent show performance
Climb inside my cacoon of birth
Nourishment of a soul bent on destruction
Fair legs, whiskers abandoned
A ritualistic burial
Caved in wonder
Surrendering wealth for serenity
Decapitation of envy
A Conqueror beast
and coward in the same vessel
Suicide hides elated frenzy
Climb
Inside my request of forgiveness
In all
My clouded and mistaken innocence.
Apr 28, 2022
Apr 28, 2022 at 10:39 PM UTC
I force creativity
Squeezing juice
From the most sour lemon
I untangle withered bonds within myself
Sacred and unscathed
Naked
Myself
Mundane
I found a reflection and it looked like a happier me
Naked
Socialite ideals
Sustain value
A Legendary secondary obituary
I've gotten better at conjuring conjuctions
Because
no one told me otherwise
But
who knows
Where
no one is
Unless
No one is
Everyone
Or
Everyone
Is
No one
While
I'm
Someone
Where
is my
One?
I
Dont see no one
And
I wont leave until I
See Someone
Apr 28, 2022
Apr 28, 2022 at 10:35 PM UTC
Fellowship wanderer.
Longing a basket of mended smiles and screams of loyalty in chastised promise.
Victory shall be granted to you when you've lost everything dear.
Don't step outside today, friend.
Love inside.
For you shall win today.
Apr 28, 2022
Apr 28, 2022 at 10:29 PM UTC
Chasing the sun
Decayed Trees
Fevered Buildings
Chasing the sunset
Maddening isn't it
I've seen the same road and I glide amongst it
Not bitter
Not feverish
Cold and wet
Soggy yet
Subdued
Broadening your voice with my tongue
A Game of wonder and amazement
Dont chase what's not running
Chase the sunset
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 3:52 PM UTC
I think you misunderstood my blunt force trauma
You saw an act of violence and deemed it
Cold And Cruel
You saw aftermath
The premise would sway your perspective
Moments ago
As I was walking down the crosswalk
I made eye
contact with this man
I
Said hello with
A smile
And he said
Hi with a smirk
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 3:49 PM UTC
Year of decadence
Faring in minuscule commraderie
Regarding the fundamentals of life and her excrusciating truth
There's desire to be lied to
Ne'er knowing
Untrue banish silently
Keep the beggar of gradeur loud
Aroused in kindled emotion
Very
The treachery devised of vivid dreams
Awake
Bury
Falling from the cliff you captured on Vacation as a Wild child
Reaching the bottomless pit that keeps you sinking like it missed you so
Haunting you until you frighten it away
And its fearless
Last epoch
The dead decay a vicious smile
They made it out alive
We're still here surviving, dying
We
Soldiers of peace
Exists in our ears
Noise of
War quotes from the madmen veterans
Bolstering of pride and dignity in their ongoing
Neverending fight
We ask, "What did you fight for?"
They remembered once
Forgotten twice in months
They
Scared of their own fingers that once pulled triggers
They cannot hold their own anymore
Mold the home
To warms their bones
She's kept em fed with crumbs of a sandwich
Crying cold tears as we were born alone
Ain't life a....
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 3:46 PM UTC
You miss my face
Gardening the battered soil in which we raced
upon
Rejoice the fermented fruits of your labor
All the hard work has paid off
But paying your dues was never in mind
Never mine to tax
You missed my face
When you dared to strike me
My words seethe your melted soul
I speak wisdom and righteous buffoonery
It's a demented balance
Like your framework
Blissful harmony
Harvesting organs
Organizing abortions
Choosing life over creation
Take no offense
It's the buffoonery acknowledging
Wisdom & Innovation
We listen to what we
Can not hear
We hear what we
Can not understand
We understand what we
Can not obtain
Like my face
My dashing face
That you can not
Look in the eye no more
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 3:44 PM UTC
Fuzzy Pixel creatures
Immaculate
Telling in psychosis
Wandering nature
Setting up camp
Makeshift fields
Trying times
Scavenging wandering
Your only goal
Finding home
Remembrance
Hunger sets in
Your stomach speaks
A beast like growl
Sinking teeth into veins of a forbidden fruit
That found
You
That first contact to tongue
Taste of home
Texture of wood
Contents of nostalgia
Recipe for disaster
When you reminisce
You're allowing
Everything
Everyone to pay a visit
Unwelcome and seldom
Unbroken
Unlike your mental
You're now drawn away from previous settlement
Transported trauma
You're where you've never abandoned
A shiver trembles your vessel
You follow the eerie sound
With your empty eyes
And find yourself looking straight ahead
A screeching voice so familiar crawling out the pitch black alleyway
On sensitive instinct alone you dare there
to be
In the distance a scene of bodies
Swaying
Trembling closer
Yet motionless
A convenient twitching streetlight above
It's your only given clarity
You blink ,You die
You concur
You hear echoes brushing though your scalp like razorblades
It tickles
You belch
A laughter
Melancholy and gently horrific
You now understand where you are
It's where you've been
Suddenly you feel an itch on your left wrist
You look down after tending to it
And the dead rotten flesh once there
Has been parted with
Underneath the darkest blood
There's a branded etching on your wrist
Blood connects the last letter of each word As if it was written
In the most gorgeous cursive
It reads: "Home is my playground.
The ground is my home.
Can I finally play?"
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 3:43 PM UTC
Dandelion salad
Kindness crunch
Heaven bless
Lessen bliss
I miss our quarrels
Contemplated
Temporary
******
Lost my sensibility
It cost me few
Cost you totality
Mindful of our meticulous
Merry go 'round
Velvet cheeks
Blush in moonlight
Your hair covering your
Eyes
Irises ever changing appearance
A goddess before me
You
Infinite
Inhumane
Intelligent
I
Deceived
Delicate
Delivered
We
Were
Mortal
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 3:42 PM UTC