MIRROR OF KNIFES.
I've missed you,hard I couldn't tell,
I've lost myself in guilt,
The weight of it brings me down to my knees,
Every time,I contemplate of what I have done,
You were me and I did this,
Just like a knife that stabs another,
The helmet of guilt I wear,
Breaks me in tears here and there,
You never know that you killed yourself,
Only to see your blood on the floor,
You using the same knife,
I regret living in this version,
You were the best replica of me,
I never knew you for your strength,
I knew you as a threat,
Knives stabs,but not against another,
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 3, 2025
Dec 3, 2025 at 3:32 AM UTC
JUDGING G?
Every time you're silent,
As if it was you talent,
Emotion wasn't your target,
Attention, a mindset market,
Thought it was me wasn't it?
Never knew you had a secret but shared it with her,
I will not judge you,G
G,we were friends once,
Ever since she befriended you,
She came and she came,
Emotional breakdown unlimited,
Our communication, limited,
Talking to you,was an offense,
I will not judge you,G
Come on G,they'll manipulate you,
Happened to me once,I overcame it,
She'll claim to be a friend and a sister,
But She'll hurt you at the end,
You now have chosen her, over us,
Some day you'll know it was the truth,
We will not judge you ,G
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 9:03 AM UTC
MARIONETTE MOVING STRINGS.
"Do it!,or do I have to make you? I told you it is only you and yourself making the choice,both you and I know it's not me but you."
My choice, feels made by you,
My sanity, in your own making,
Is it me or you,messing my strings?,
Every decision, carries a string,
Strings that are pulled by myself,
Strings, that move a marionette,
Makes me feel that I am moving them,
Doesn't feel like you threatening,
My conscience pulls the strings,
Convinced it is myself,
Moving the strings in my head,
Is it me or you moving them,
Accepting it is you,makes no sense,
Since when did marionettes move by their own help,
Every marionette, moves by its strings,
All that is in my mind,strings are pulled,
By Jeyson Gadah
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 9:01 AM UTC
DIFFERENT
I thought you all were different,
Knew we were on he same side,
Did all together, just as members,
Didn't I know,it would end up,
You all leaving me,there at the streetlights,
I fought alone,by myself with myself,
Abandonment was never a word,
Pain couldn't display what I felt,
Betrayal cut me hard on my chest,
You all leaving me,there at the streetlights,
Claimed you were different,
Said you were different,
Those words were just echoes I heard,
My trust founded in lies,
You all leaving me,there at the streetlights,
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 8:56 AM UTC
THE CODE OF A SHADOW.
Every move i make,still feels the same,
I'm one,but I feel we are many,
When they don't want me,they want you,
When the don't want you, they don't want me,
I am more,of a machine than human,
Coded,to how they want me to be,
Trying to be myself, ignored,
Trying to be my shadow,appreciated,
How can you appreciate, what is not real?
The figure of the shadow,becomes the shadow,
Coded,to be "perfect", how they want me to be,
I'm tired of you all wanting me to act like you,
I hate you all for forcing me to be,
I'M MORE OF A SHADOW, WITHOUT A FIGURE,
Trying to fit,incarceration is better,
Coded,I feel like a program,
Fixed,I exist but restricted to be
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 8:46 AM UTC
THE KNIFE THAT STABS THE OTHER
I killed you,just in the dream too,
Every time,never thought to be you,
Every act killed me than the real thing,
Glad no one knew what we were up to,
Good times in the end,I killed you,
You were the best version of myself,
Never thought you would be enhanced,
You knew to much, I just had to do it,
I'll admit it was good while it lasted,
You were motionless, I was like you,
A big threat,I couldn't control,
Too pure to be never handled you,
Easily manipulated, I had to take over,
I did this for your own good,
Obliterated myself,just to be better version,
At the end,I killed you,
No one knew what we were up to,
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 8:44 AM UTC
"WAS I THE ......"
"people are different not everyone is like them,trust me!I'm not like them I am different."
Heard this more, more than a hundred times,
The result, predictable each and every time ,
People hurt a wound before its even a scar,
That trust,darker and darker every night,
I gave them my hand what did I get in return,
Bruised,scarred and a battered hand,
Never thought I was the last,
Different people,come at a cost,
Just like my truth,I just lost,
Open guards,end up in tears,
Befriending, always thought it was pleasing,
Never thought it was more of a disease,
Thought they cared,Oh! They didn't,
Never thought I was the last,wasn't I?,
Human beings are the same,
Life was really a game,
Trust broken was pain,
Just as that very day,
You never cared, you were just there,
Yet you just claim,you were different,
Always thought.........,
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 8:41 AM UTC
THE WEB WASPS NEVER ESCAPE.
You wrong me,forgive is what I will do,
Wrong me again,forgive is still what I will do,
Repeatedly poke me on my wound,
I am stuck in a web,I'm I a wasp?
Not knowing how to escape,
Manipulation convinces me that the way is clear,
Only to get stuck in a web,
Pour salt in my wound, forgive I will do,
Be the reason I'm in pain,forgive still,
Hurt me with words,forgive?
"HOW?"My mind rages,
"What do I do?"
This web to difficult to move,
Way is clear to Mr,But how can you escape something you can't see?,
Victim as a wasp,
Still furious but emotions stuck all over,
From the web,I clearly feel all is lost,
"Forgiveness or Resentment" what do I chose?
This web still keeps me stuck,not knowing what to do,
Resilience not only freedom to Grudges I hold in this web,"WHAT DO I DO?"
By Jeyson Gadah,
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 8:39 AM UTC