will e’re i see
what used to be
afore the days you left
my one beauty
was wrenched from me
i am become bereft
i wait on thee
as you do me
lone cries die in the wind
our souls in need
to be complete
desire each one again
once Death plainly
took you from me
and left but pain’s embrace
yet patiently
Death waits for me
then pain shall be erased
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 6:18 PM UTC
to her
i’ve never been this far from you
as where i am today
our love is all i’ve left to hold
as time just slips away
i need to be not where i am
no words describe this pain
of being separated from
you on this earthly plane
to Him
do you cry for me dear Lord
do you have one tear
and understand the things i do
are borne from just one fear
i’m facing life without my Love
this sentence handed down
no holding hands no hugs a kiss
till i lay in the ground
to them
who truly can condemn a man
that’s serving out his time
remembering all the little things
in corners of his mind
the difficulty is to face
a sober agony
no drugs to **** devouring pain
just drop upon one knee
Nov 2, 2019
Nov 2, 2019 at 4:12 PM UTC
the love of my life
my only love
my only life
ripped away
forever
the loss of her presence resounds
a reverberation echoing
through the halls of memory
each one so bittersweet to my mind
a laugh, a sigh, a tear i cry
the most horrible pain
ever endured
wanting
wanting
an end to this pain
an end to this life
needing
needing
a kiss
a hug
a new beginning
awaiting the new future
and the reunification of the twain
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 6:21 PM UTC
when death comes knocking on my door
and angels start to sing
and i have breathed my final breath
and bells will toll for me
then will i know i’ll be released
from life’s imprisonment
and freedom will open the door
to all that’s heaven sent
all pain from separation from
the only love i’ve known
will dissipate like morning dew
whence daybreak’s sun hath shown
so please do not grieve for my soul
rejoice for time hath come
for we are once again married
in our Lord’s pure kingdom
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 9:37 PM UTC
how can one honor all our dead
a living memory?
a solemn prayer and mourning tears?
all borne of reverie
for each there is a time to mourn
and not too long ago
we gave our heart's undying love
and opened up our souls
for once there was a time we said
so casually each day
I love you so forever dear
no fears of come what may
and then there comes the day upon
one of the two be gone
survivor's suffering the pain
are not the lucky ones
so suffer all you gentle souls
and pray for your loved ones
for there will come a day for you
when all your work is done
Jul 22, 2019
Jul 22, 2019 at 9:28 PM UTC
as i sing a song of sadness
see the notes drop down like rain
such an overwhelming melody
that haunts me now and then
and i’ll never stop the music
that is running through my brain
keeping time with every heartbeat
living off eternal pain
when i’m crying out the lyrics
and the lyrics never change
see i’ve got it memorized because
i’m screaming out your name
when this requiem is over
emptiness is all that’s left
always knowing it will start again
until it stops with death
Jul 6, 2019
Jul 6, 2019 at 5:27 PM UTC
i sit within this darkened room
while contemplating death
examining my life ahead
each day’s become a test
i need to ascertain the core
and reason for my pain
because if i don’t find it soon
i won’t see morrow’s day
my bourbon’s neat and mind’s a mess
i’m barely holding on
it’s been some time since she left me
still mourning that she’s gone
i need to reconcile this loss
in turn becoming whole
for Jesus has prepared a room
for her eternal soul
my faith reminds that i will see
this mitigates my pain
is patience what i’m want to learn
‘fore i see her again
Lord please forgive my daily sins
these wages i have earned
i’ve gone through an internal war
i’ve lessons yet to learn
Jul 5, 2019
Jul 5, 2019 at 11:11 AM UTC
last thoughts that i will have
shall ever be of you
anticipating what will come
when all of this is through
last words that leave these lips
shall be your lovely name
i’ll cry it out with passion for
as long as breath remains
last words that i shall hear
will come from our own child
it’s alright dad, just go to her
i’ll see you in awhile
last breath that i shall take
will follow with a kiss
the one from you, the other from
the daughter whom i’ll miss
last days you spent with me
i’ll treasure for all time
just know that i’m at rest, li’l girl
your mom and i are fine
Jul 5, 2019
Jul 5, 2019 at 11:10 AM UTC
more alcohol has passed these lips
than waters fill the seas
more tears have rained upon this face
than storms could ever dream
so numb is just a daily goal
that kills my agony
unfortunate, or is it not,
it’s also killing me
i was responsible, my friend
throughout my entire life
but when i lost the one i love
it cut me like a knife
so pour a drink in memory
and pour another one
for when the bottle’s dry, you see
the drinking isn’t done
the numb lasts but for just one night
it’s all to ease the pain
but when tomorrow comes, my friend
i’ll do it all again
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 5:18 PM UTC
at times I find it hard to breathe
as thoughts of you drift by
i reach out to these wisps of dreams
and bow my head to cry
for these are all i’ve left to hold
of these and nothing more
but love i need to give to you
this girl whom i adore
and in this life where once you lived
there now exists this pain
tormenting to my very core
to ne’er see you again
i’m suffering while in this world
a world without my wife
i’ll fall down on my knees and pray
that day i lose my life
for then we’ll be forever locked
into our lost embrace
from trembling lips i speak the words
i love you to your face
Jun 15, 2019
Jun 15, 2019 at 5:10 PM UTC