If I lose any more than this
Will my heart be forgiven
how much more pain before I can see you again
I cannot lie anymore
one more time please, don't change the season
one more time to the time we would fool around
When our path crosses each other
I am the first to turn around
I'm always searching, even though I know
you won't be there
Summers memory is revolving
The sudden disappearance of one's heartbeat
A new morning has come
and the 'I love you' I couldn't say
I always end up looking somewhere for you
even though I know you won't be there
If life can repeat itself,
I'll go to you many times over
There's nothing else that
I want more than you right now
I can't lie anymore
one more time please, don't change the season
one more time to the time we would fool around
Apr 3, 2020
Apr 3, 2020 at 12:08 PM UTC
My eyes feel closed but it's not
I feel like I'm dreaming just staring at the corner of my room, enveloped in complete darkness with my mother at my side
All of a sudden the lighting changed
I now realize that I'm awake sleeping in a position I don't normally sleep in
I look at the edge of my bed
and fear immediately overcomes me as I stare at the sliouett that looks like a creature with the body of a bird and a head of a cat
Even in this absolute darkness I can see the outline quite clearly
I know what is happening
I know what this is, I know what this is called
I try to move but can't, mouth swoon shut
I begin to scream for my mother in my head begging, praying for her to wake up and free me from my confinement
But she never did
Dreading the worst to come
When the creature will stamp on my lungs to stop my breathing and make me suffer
I don't want to experience that
I look back at the creature still staring at me
My eyes being the only thing that can move
I force myself to resist as I continue to stare at the creature
I start to feel like I'm in another dimension just looking at it
In a blink of an eye it disappears
My bedroom lights came on without me realizing
And let's just say I no longer sleep on my back anymore
Apr 3, 2020
Apr 3, 2020 at 11:33 AM UTC
Let me ask you
have you ever done anything in your life that
you could say with absolute certainty was an act of free will?
Adapting to become a member of society is the same as being brainwashed, to function within the group
you have to meet certain expectations
meanwhile you have no idea who created them
Tell me within your brainwash restrained psyche
what do you value the most?
If its a twist of fate it makes no difference
eventually another possibility will arise when you least expect it
and it will sweep your feat out from under you
If you only focus on the future things like this will happen
thats why you fail
Nothing is ever truly decided
birds sometimes fall out of the sky
and sometimes it snows in April
Everything is uncertain, nothing is unnatural
little failures add up...till disappointed, they give up
The bug growing inside you will one day determine you're fate
and chances are you will die from it
A rush of words for a spring of capital truths
Even if it snows in April when spring eventually comes the warmth will only cause it to melt.It will never accumulate.
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 5:37 PM UTC
The day is bright and clear
The sweet melody's of music fills the air
Everywhere you see children laughing, children playing
All is well and all is good
everyones living the way as they all should
The adults are joyful, mature and intelligent
They have hearts of gold
and their lives are not wretched
But how unfortunate for a child to suffer for the guarantee of everyones happiness
locked away in a cage underneath the city living in total misery
They've all based their lives on the harsh reality of justice
For the possible happiness of the degraded child would be possible not probable to be set against the sure happiness of the many
Those who's eyes that have gazed upon the child are the ones who walked away from Omelas
Feb 16, 2019
Feb 16, 2019 at 2:24 PM UTC
There was once a little girl
who lived a terrible life
ever since she went to school
nothing went quite right
She never had a smile,
never any friends
she would always hide and cry
all by herself, her peers
would always bully her and
call her names; throughout her life
she never understood why
Everything was worthless
she thought and heaved
a great big sigh
so she went and found a rope
and tied it to the sky
Upon a chair she stood
her eyes blank and dead
and without another thought
she went and hung her head
Now a month has passed
and her parents are still grieving her death
they can't help but wonder
what could have been
What if we'd paid more attention?
What if we'd noticed sooner?
What if she was depressed?
What if she was lonely?
What if she needed help?
What if we could have stopped it?
would she still be with us?
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 5:26 PM UTC
To not love
is the opposite of happiness
To not love
would be the opposite of one's true personality
To not love
is to laugh without a heart
To not love
is to feel abandoned by one's self
To not love
is to wear many masks like a fixed portrait
To not love
is to think lowly of one's self worth
To not love
is to remove the gifts you were born with
For these simple reasons you must love for you were born to love and to share and teach unto others
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 5:25 PM UTC
There once lived a woman
who at one time had a kind and gentle soul
There once lived a woman
who had soft lips that were as red as a rose
There once lived a woman who's hair was as golden as the prettiest sunflower
There once lived a woman who fell in love with a humble peasant boy
There once lived a woman who was forced to marry a middle aged man because he was rich
There once lived a woman who's husband would would press his knife on her skin harder and harder until red crimson came out
There once lived a woman who had hopes that her lover would soon save her from her misery..but no one came
There once lived a woman who starved herself to escape her dreadful life
Now whenever locals forget to place stones on her grave the red blood sucker rises to sing her siren song and feed on the blood of those who knew what was going on behind closed doors
Yes Indeed
There once lived a woman
who at one time had a kind and gentle soul
There once lived a woman
who had soft lips that were as red as a rose
There once lived a woman who's hair was as golden as the prettiest sunflower
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 5:17 PM UTC
Each time unknown words come to mind
I reach my hands into traces of the past
But there may also be words that I can't comprehend all alone
"Goodbye" is so bitter
while "I love you" carries a distant scent
these incomparable feelings
are terrifying, but also terribly precious
Sadness is cold
while thank you's are colored with warmth
Each time I encounter something intangible
I hear your voice resonating deep within my heart
I will never give up on living
So I can show you how proud I am of myself today
Even though you may never return
Why am I crying?
What should I answer my heart?
words don't have to always be spoken
just by being there, they will only grow stronger
And it makes me long for you more
I've stopped writing
these unfinished letters with no address
fluttering in the wind
seeking towards the cold place of my desired recipient
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 7:36 PM UTC
The strong rain is falling endlessly
I forgot how to smile
The world doesn't accept my pain
In the conflicts and the lies
My heart will dry and wilt
The forgotten hope and wishes
Are stabbing my rusted heart
I push my screams deep within myself
I run away from pain
I held doubts and hatred
Rather than lamenting over the present
Like a bird singing in the howling winds
sing away and resound high in the sky
like a light illuminating the sinking sky
look ahead and anticipate the radiance
And like a flower in the raging waves
lead the way and overcome the storm
Firmly take a step on the withered earth
Go ahead and walk straight in front of you
Nov 16, 2018
Nov 16, 2018 at 2:45 PM UTC
The flower that bloomed in the twilight world
follows the thread of fate and glows in seven colors
Secretly carrying a light in the corner of my heart
At the mercy of the light
Enveloped in a many-layered haze, wondering around
Awakening from a fleeting dream
The trail of a single tear on my cheek
shadows that color the blurred world
curtain of night. flickering will-o-the wisps
memories of a day long ago
Is what its light reveals a dream yet undreamt, an eternal illusion?
I'll surpass time and a thousand miles distance, holding my hopes, vows, and soul. Until they reach all of heaven and earth
Swaying swaying dancing cherry blossoms
feelings that dye my heart a light pink
when I look upon your profile, illuminated by the moonlit night, Twinkling fragments of a wish shine like thousands of stars like the morning sun rising in the twilight of my heart. At the mercy of the light
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 5:31 PM UTC