After the longest two months
My mind still races without reprieve
They all say it will be better;
“You were so right to leave”
There were far too many challenges
I was opposed at every moment
My autonomy had vanished
This became my daily torment
We came and went, then came again
Rebuilt to be reburnt
Cut to Ultimatum February
Nearly everyone was hurt
I thought things would be easier
Since we’ve sung this song before
But all I do is toss and turn
I can’t sleep without you anymore
Call me stupid, there’s a weakness in me
I love the love that makes me numb
My “better” life just isn’t home
You may still be the one
Apr 29, 2018
Apr 29, 2018 at 11:53 PM UTC
Although you are gone
Your collar still smells like you
After all this time
Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 5:37 PM UTC
All these #friends
And I've never
Felt more
Alone
Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 9:29 PM UTC
Band-Aids cannot fix
All of our deepest wounds
Or our broken hearts
Oct 23, 2015
Oct 23, 2015 at 10:57 AM UTC
When they ask me
"How's it going?"
It's all I can muster
Without falling apart
Oct 22, 2015
Oct 22, 2015 at 9:27 PM UTC
On the outside, I am strong
I can smile at strangers
I can laugh with my friends
I can enjoy the breeze on a summer day
Everything is okay
But sometimes
There are cracks in my foundation
I can cry in the blink of an eye
I doubt those who I used to trust
I don't want to live anymore
On the inside, I am broken
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 9:30 PM UTC
Well well
It's been a full year
And I've finally gotten
"over you"
I still get flashbacks
From when we were close
But they've been
Far less frequent
I'm just glad I finally realized
I'm complete without you
Or any other boy
I'm a person too
And I finally know that
After one year
Without you
Nov 28, 2014
Nov 28, 2014 at 2:58 AM UTC
Every time I look at you
You're looking at her
Whenever you glance my way
Its like the sun shining on my face
Sometimes you tell me things
I already know
Like how beautiful she is
How smart
How funny
How she's breaking your heart
I just wish you would see
That I'd love you better
In fact, I already do
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 19, 2014 at 10:36 PM UTC
Like little pinpricks
it hurts
but its all I can do
so I let the pins and needles take over
because the pain is too much for one heart
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 8:13 PM UTC
Different
That's what you are
So much that
I feel alienated
Like I shouldn't be here
I'm in the way
Nothing but a burden
To a whole new woman
You have your friends
And their friends
And I'm just wondering
Why I'm still around
Never being understood
Always being yelled at
Forever the brunt of every joke
You talk of "positivity"
But all I get is the negative part of you
That you don't want to show anyone
You are a stranger
That's what you are
"Mom"
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 6:21 PM UTC